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[SPEAKER_00]: Hey, hey, what's going on?

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[SPEAKER_00]: You're listening to the Brown Girl Self Care podcast.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And my name is Bri and I'm the host of the show.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And this episode's going to be a little bit different.

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[SPEAKER_00]: If you have been writing with me for a minute, and you happen to subscribe to my YouTube channel, no shame in my game, because this is just me being real, you may have seen a video.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I did maybe like a year or so ago where I was talking about how I was going to start being more visible.

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[SPEAKER_00]: start showing up because I know that that is tied to my my purpose, but you know life was life-in.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I was overthinking things or how I can do it and just really getting caught up in my brain on how to put that forth.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And

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[SPEAKER_00]: Long story short, it just really didn't happen.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So I decided to do a 90 day visibility challenge.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Visibility and freedom challenge, I should say, and I'm sharing that because

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[SPEAKER_00]: I realize at the content that is out there that is very trendy and mainstream and popular on YouTube.

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[SPEAKER_00]: First of all, it's geared towards young women, which is fantastic.

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[SPEAKER_00]: But when I say that, I mean that it's geared towards this whole aesthetic, this whole vibe, it has to look a certain way.

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[SPEAKER_00]: everyone's kind of like doing the same things, but what I don't see consistently in content is where people really go raw and real and kind of like put us that aside.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And so I feel like that's where my space is.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I used to think that my lane, like I was boring and, you know, not mainstream enough and things like that, but I have really come to understand that that is

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[SPEAKER_00]: So right now, over on the YouTube channel, I'm in the middle of this, this challenge, even though I'm going to start calling it a transformation where I'm showing up every single day, and perfectly me, raw, unfiltered, not an aesthetic, not a vibe, but really just talking to women, especially those of us who are in our 30s, our 40s, our 50s, our 60s, our 70s, who are done with this

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[SPEAKER_00]: just trying to live a life where you're just agreeable with everyone, you're performing what you're overthinking, what you're not showing up for yourself, what you're not being visible, what you're not going for, what you want, what you're not blooming in the way that you deserve, what you're not living a life that you want to live, because you really are just,

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[SPEAKER_00]: playing small or feeling like you're not, you're not capable of having the type of life that you want and I can tell you right now says that I am so done with himming and howling about the things that I want, I am so done with himming and howling over the things like me being the person that I know that I truly am.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm over it.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm completely over it.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So that's why I wanted to share day three of this again, I'm going to start calling into transformation.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So, um, what this challenge where a message had come to me that I knew that I wanted to share with you here on the podcast and it's it's about this.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Let's say quote unquote radical sign.

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[SPEAKER_00]: This radical, whatever, announcement or something radical happening that a lot of us we wait for,

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[SPEAKER_00]: that then we can say okay now I can do these things now I can live the way that I want now I can bloom now I can honor my humanity now I can start my freedom journey now I can be free now I can live the type of life that I want like I know that I was waiting for this radical thing to happen I was waiting for this radical thing to happen in my life that would be proof that it was all gonna be okay it was all gonna work out it was all gonna

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[SPEAKER_00]: match the complete vision I had in my mind that now is where the now is good enough now I can go for it.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You know, I was waiting for this huge radical thing and that doesn't always happen for us.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You know, this radical sign that a lot of us wait for or this permission, this external validation and permission that we wait for to to boom and to be on this freedom journey, whatever that looks like for you in a common sense.

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[SPEAKER_00]: It's really not like if you're waiting

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[SPEAKER_00]: thing 99% of us ain't gonna get that.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Now this isn't to say that during our journey that things don't happen and things fall into place in the line and maybe you get a word or a messaging your spirit or I'm not saying that doesn't happen.

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[SPEAKER_00]: It does.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I truly believe that it does.

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[SPEAKER_00]: But what I'm talking about is like this huge thing like we want this huge proof, this huge sign like this

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[SPEAKER_00]: that shows us a hundred percent, like yes, girl, it now is your time.

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[SPEAKER_00]: It ain't, you're not going to get it.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You're not going to get this huge thing.

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[SPEAKER_00]: What a lot of us get are these quiet, little nudges, these quiet hits to our spirit.

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[SPEAKER_00]: These quiet reminders of our faith, these quiet,

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[SPEAKER_00]: things that may happen in our life, someone may say something, you like, oh my god, you know, or you might be reminded of something, or you know, like these little small signs, like I said, like those happen a lot more than this huge sign.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And so I don't want us to continue waiting to live the life that we want.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I don't want us to continue waiting to be quote unquote hurt.

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[SPEAKER_00]: When I say her, I'm talking about the version of you.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And I'm sure you've heard this before this is nothing new.

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[SPEAKER_00]: The version of you who was already living her best life.

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[SPEAKER_00]: The version of you that is on the other side of where you are right now.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And she is thriving honey.

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[SPEAKER_00]: She is living in peace.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Her health is helping, her life is lifing, the skin is glowing, she's setting boundaries, she's making moves, she's saving money, she's tapping into multiple streams of income, she's traveling if that's your jam, she's whatever it is, she's spending more time with her children or her grandchildren because she's not

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[SPEAKER_00]: You know, feeling pressured to do all these other things that drain her energies.

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[SPEAKER_00]: She's spending time with herself.

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[SPEAKER_00]: She's taking care of herself.

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[SPEAKER_00]: She's like, she's doing it.

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[SPEAKER_00]: She's thriving.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I could say a million things.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And I was still not say all the things because we're all different.

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[SPEAKER_00]: But she's thriving.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You are her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: This vision that you have in your mind or these goals that you have or whatever that sometimes you keep pulling yourself away from because you don't think that you're ready.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You don't think that you're her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Honey, you are her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: you are her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay?

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[SPEAKER_00]: You are her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So you don't need a sign.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You don't need external validation.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Why would you need validation for someone that you already are?

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[SPEAKER_00]: Brilliant.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Smart, loved, wealthy, wise, rich, abundant, joyful, peaceful, healthy, thriving, like whatever.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know, you know,

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[SPEAKER_00]: what it is specifically that it is for you.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So I'm just trying to cover all the bases here, okay?

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[SPEAKER_00]: But you are her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I am her and I didn't realize that for such a long time.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And that's why I kept like double-dudging this week.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm doing it next week.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm not overthinking here, not overthinking here.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Going forward here.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Oh, let me stop.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Oh, no, sh, I can't.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Like, mmm, no.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I ain't doing that no more, okay?

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[SPEAKER_00]: So again, you are her and that's the message that I want to share that I shared in this YouTube video that I uploaded a few days ago, right?

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[SPEAKER_00]: But this is very real.

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[SPEAKER_00]: This is me.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You guys send me messages and you tell me that you love how real I am a relatable or her raw.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Like this is just all I know how to be.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay.

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[SPEAKER_00]: But I wanted you to have this audio today because I know some of you are waiting for proof, and I don't want us wasting.

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[SPEAKER_00]: We don't have time to waste this.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Whatever it is that you have a vision, whatever the vision is for your life, we don't have time to waste.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I don't care how old you are.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, we don't have time to waste.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And I've wasted so much energy as so much time doubting that I am her doubting that I deserve doubting that my brilliant doubting.

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[SPEAKER_00]: my intelligence, my everything, like doubting everything.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I've wasted so much time seeking external validation that I didn't need because I'm already hurt.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I already have whatever it is within me that I need to succeed, to be well, to thrive, to be happy, to be joyful, to be peaceful, to be hurt.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm already hurt.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And again, we don't have

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[SPEAKER_00]: that black women, we really are not like it's not set up for us to thrive.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So we really have to make that our priority because no one's going to do it for us.

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[SPEAKER_00]: No one's going to do it for us.

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[SPEAKER_00]: We cannot wait on the government to do it for us.

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[SPEAKER_00]: We cannot wait on these systems to do it for us.

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[SPEAKER_00]: We cannot wait on other people around us to do it for us.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Like this is our responsibility.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, it's our responsibility.

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[SPEAKER_00]: no one is going to do it for us, so we don't have time to waste.

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[SPEAKER_00]: We really, really don't, all right.

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[SPEAKER_00]: But yeah, I wanted to have this audio, so let me go ahead and hit or add that in here.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So what you're going to hear next after I stop talking is the actual audio from the YouTube video.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And I implore you to please go and follow me on YouTube.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You're going to see the challenge.

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[SPEAKER_00]: At this point of me recording is probably on day six or seven somewhere in there, so I have videos already up and ready to go because I want you to see in real time what it looks like for me personally to break narratives in this idea that I've carried a lot of

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[SPEAKER_00]: Well, with me for so long, that said, I wasn't good enough to have certain things.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I wasn't good enough to live a certain type of life.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I wasn't good enough to be confident and to be my full self and to be whole.

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[SPEAKER_00]: All I thought I could do was live in a state of poverty, a state of lack, to not love myself, to need external validation, to people please, to hide myself, to pretend to be things that I'm not.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So no, you may not get this whole curated vibe, you know, and this is aesthetic of this is my morning routine and this is you may not get that at least not every every single video I might share a little bit here and there, but you're not going to that's you know what I'm saying you're not going to get that necessarily.

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[SPEAKER_00]: But what you will get is just me really talking about this freedom journey from different points and actively not only reflecting but taking action, you know, on these things that I talk about so, you know,

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[SPEAKER_00]: That's what it is.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So go to YouTube before you forget follow Brown girl self care there.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Watch some videos or girls trying to get monetized.

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[SPEAKER_00]: All right, and yeah, I'll see you on the other side of this clip.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So if you're anything like me, you as some point in your life and possibly even right now have waited for a radical.

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[SPEAKER_00]: like this strong proof, something made or something radical, that you can point to and say, look, see now I know for sure that I am this new identity.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Now I know for sure that I am blooming or I have completely healed.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And now that I have this radical proof, I can now go and do the things that I have been called to do.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I can now,

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[SPEAKER_00]: fully step into this identity that I want to have or this version of my higher self that I want to have.

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[SPEAKER_00]: If you are new here, my name is Bree.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And I am on a crazy challenge to create 90 days of videos as a personal visibility and freedom challenge for me.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And so this is one video in a series of 90.

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[SPEAKER_00]: If you're new, thanks so much for watching, make sure you hit that subscribe button and follow along with me as I prove to myself that I don't need a radical sign that I am who I want to be this is one of the reasons why I am doing this challenge for myself again a personal challenge because I time and time again.

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[SPEAKER_00]: would say to myself, once I fully see who it is, I want to be in my mind, then it's going to be so easy for me to go out and do all the things.

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[SPEAKER_00]: It's going to be so easy for me to no longer shrink.

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[SPEAKER_00]: It's going to be so easy for me to have boundaries.

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[SPEAKER_00]: It's going to be so easy for me to be in my grown woman era.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Even though I'm in my 50s, you know, sometimes, especially like in the last deck, I pretty much my entire life, it has been hard for me to really feel like I'm in my grown woman era

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[SPEAKER_00]: Cali, Cali, Cali, go and sit down, Mama, I don't even know if that sound's going to pick up, but I'm going to keep it up.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Hold on a second, Cali, you're not listening.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Come here.

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[SPEAKER_00]: This is Cali, y'all.

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[SPEAKER_00]: This is my labordoodle and she is not a good listener.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So anyway, yeah, we we want to have proof that

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[SPEAKER_00]: a lot of times like to say see now I know for sure it is okay for me to be this version of myself that I always wanted to be.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Now I can step into that identity because I'm seeing all the science and say yes girl this is finally you you have arrived you are good enough to be whatever it is or do whatever it is you know what I'm saying that is something that I waited around for for a very very long time and I really don't want that for you.

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[SPEAKER_00]: If you're still

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[SPEAKER_00]: You know what I'm saying?

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[SPEAKER_00]: Because it's such a time-wester.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You don't need this radical.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You don't need this sign coming from the heavens that say, hey, you, you are finally ready.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And, you know, this is what happens when you try to record and you have a dog and she literally wasn't doing any of this until I picked up this microphone.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Literally did not do any of this before I picked up this microphone.

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[SPEAKER_00]: are you finished?

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[SPEAKER_00]: Are you done?

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[SPEAKER_00]: Go sit down mama.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Go lay down.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Go lay down.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm not even going to re-record this, because I am showing up imperfect, imperfectly, and this is okay.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Life happens.

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[SPEAKER_00]: But yeah, for a very long time, even recently, one of the reasons why I stopped doing my, well, I, one of the reasons why I stopped doing my last video challenge, because I was still looking for proof that, like, I was questioning myself every now and again, like who am I?

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[SPEAKER_00]: So I think I can do this.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Well, who am I to think I could be a content creator?

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[SPEAKER_00]: Even though I have a fricking podcast, who am I to want to step into my growing want to era finally officially and live that type of lifestyle that I've always wanted to live.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Who am I to even go for that?

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[SPEAKER_00]: Who am I to record daily videos?

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[SPEAKER_00]: And think that I could possibly do this and again, create a life that I want.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Who am I to believe in myself?

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[SPEAKER_00]: Who am I to to identify as someone who

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[SPEAKER_00]: that I want to have, like, such as my hair being on point, which clearly right now, it is not.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Like, clearly right now, it's not, yeah, look at this.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Like, I wanted to go to those micrologs, like my hair, it's all the lens, it's all, it's all the lens, baby.

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[SPEAKER_00]: But it was just like, I know in my mind that there is a certain idea, or let's say standard of the type of life that I want, and the type of woman that I,

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[SPEAKER_00]: Am or or I'll say I want to be one who is bold and audacious and she doesn't shrink she shines and she loves herself no matter what and she has a certain amount of money in the bank and she's living a certain type of lifestyle and

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[SPEAKER_00]: She's this like she's this type of person.

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[SPEAKER_00]: She has these kind of habits and like all these things Before a long time I just felt like I for whatever reason even even if you don't logically think this I think for me subconsciously.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I was still thinking that I needed to wait to really fully Have the sign or fully feel like yes, girl you are you are that chick You are that chick and so go ahead and just do your thing like go ahead and walk it out because

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[SPEAKER_00]: You've proven that you are, but that's just not how it goes.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You are already that person.

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[SPEAKER_00]: It's just that you haven't unlocked or yet.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You haven't activated her yet because you're not doing the things that she does, but you can.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You can do the things that she does because, again, you are that girl, you are that chick.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Whatever it is in your mind that you're saying, okay, this is the version of my, my higher self.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And this is what my higher self does.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And this is what she is.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And this is how she feels.

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[SPEAKER_00]: This is the habit she has.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And this is the type of work she does.

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[SPEAKER_00]: This is the type of whatever the relationship she has or engages in.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And this is the boundaries she has.

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[SPEAKER_00]: This is how she speaks.

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[SPEAKER_00]: This is how she dresses or, you know, all those things,

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[SPEAKER_00]: You literally aren't that girl.

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[SPEAKER_00]: But again, we get befuddled and stuck in the mug of, I haven't seen her yet.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So I don't have the, I don't dare, you know, do the things that she does.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Until, you know, I feel I have officially made it and it just, it's never going to come or it's gonna take a very long time.

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[SPEAKER_00]: If we're waiting,

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[SPEAKER_00]: for the all the circumstances to align the stars, the moon, the sun, the lucky charms, God, whatever, like it's just, it's just, and I'm not saying that you won't get signs along the way or little types of proof or things like that, but something that I struck with with a very long time is like I would have all the all the ideas, all the

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[SPEAKER_00]: all the visual, like, you know, all that stuff in my mind, but it took, it took heaven and hell and all of earth in between to actually

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[SPEAKER_00]: take action on it to activate it, to act as if, to know that yes, that it, like, it is you because if you have the thoughts, who you think that's coming from like, it is you.

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[SPEAKER_00]: If you have a desire, who do you think the desire is coming from?

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[SPEAKER_00]: It is you.

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[SPEAKER_00]: If you could see it in your mind, who it is, like, where you want to live, who you want to be, how you want to be, how you want to talk, how you want to walk, how you want to dress, how you want to feel, how you want to make money, how you want to live, like all these things, like, what do you think that comes from?

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[SPEAKER_00]: It's already in here, it's in here, so that means that you are already her, you just haven't moved the in you like you haven't fully committed.

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[SPEAKER_00]: How about that.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Let's say that you haven't committed.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You haven't fully committed because you do a little bit like me.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Do a little bit you get discouraged because things don't work out the way you want or get discouraged because things didn't happen perfectly or get discouraged because things are not happening fast enough and so you're like, oh, I'm really not her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Or you try the things that you feel are her, you know, but they don't initially look the way you want them to look.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Like it takes a little bit of figuring things out to kind of like.

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[SPEAKER_00]: bring it to life, you know what I'm saying?

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[SPEAKER_00]: And so you get discouraged in the beginning.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And you're like, oh, I knew I wasn't her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I knew I couldn't have that.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I knew I couldn't do that.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I knew I wasn't ready.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I knew like all these eye news, you know what I mean?

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[SPEAKER_00]: So I just want to use today's video as a reminder that you are her, like I am her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You are her, you are already her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: If you know, you know, you are all ready her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So do the thing, start it now.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Whatever it is, you have in your mind that she is, which obviously, again, is you just waiting to be activated, you know, put that fear to the side, do it.

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[SPEAKER_00]: commit, make a plan, write your goals.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Figure out what it is that she like who she is, which again, I hope this is making sense and I'm trying to say like you are hurt.

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[SPEAKER_00]: But with sometimes if you need to see it on paper so we can say, oh she is this, she does this, she has this, she goes there, she travels here, she lives in this country, she makes X amount of dollars, she has these types of relationships, these are the folks she eats, this is how much she, I wanna say ways,

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[SPEAKER_00]: You know, the type of body she has, like, she goes to the gym X Monday.

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[SPEAKER_00]: She works at this type of job or she has this type of business, like where she, like, you are her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Like in my mind, I have, like, the Angela Bassin Arms.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Hello, I don't, right now in real time.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Look at that.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I don't have the Angela Bassin Arms, okay?

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[SPEAKER_00]: But I do.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I do have the Angela Bassin Arms.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I do because I am hurt like the version of me that has the edge of the best arms.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I have them.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm hurt.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I haven't activated her yet.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I haven't activated her yet and acted as if I am hurt.

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[SPEAKER_00]: The version of me that has the Angela Bassett arms, maybe she gets in the gym and she lifts those weights.

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[SPEAKER_00]: She isn't eating frosted flakes at two a.m. in the morning on a whim because she wakes up

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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, she doesn't, um, you know, just neglect her walking or stretching or vitamins or water intake or what she eats or her intermittent fasting and the weights and the the the cardio, like she doesn't neglect those things.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So I, I am her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I haven't activated her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I haven't activated the Angela Bass Arn yet.

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[SPEAKER_00]: But that's my dream.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I am her, okay.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So I have that.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I just haven't activated yet.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You know, so stop waiting for this radical feeling, you know, as a sign, as proof that you are whatever this identity is.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Whatever this identity shift you have in your mind that you are, whether it's baby you are a millionaire or $100,000 air, I don't even know if that's a word, or you're a business owner, or you are working in a specific job, or you have three degrees,

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[SPEAKER_00]: You look a certain way with your nails, a certain way in your hair, a certain way in the way you dress in your style, minimalist or maximalist or whatever in between, or you live in a certain place, and this is the type of home you have and how it looks like you have those things, you are that girl, you are that girl already, you just need to activate it, you need to activate it, and again, like Bible says act as if.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So that's something that I have definitely, you know, I've been puddling around with it here and they're obviously because there are some things, like I said, I wanted to be a podcaster, and I am.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You know, so there are some things that I definitely activated in my life.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I wanted to learn how to set boundaries.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I did.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You know, I wanted to be a naturalista.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I am and have been for probably like at least 20 years, you know.

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[SPEAKER_00]: there are some things like you don't you you are that girl you you just need to like shift into that identity by taking action by knowing that you are that girl and holding fast to those beliefs with everyone's beliefs are that group that that that girl has start believing them whatever actions that girl how am I saying this whatever actions that girl takes start taking them

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[SPEAKER_00]: whatever things that girl says or herself do them.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, spiritually, financially, emotionally, mentally, physically do those things because you are already hurt and you don't need permission or a radical sign to radically shift your identity.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay?

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[SPEAKER_00]: So, that's all I wanted to say in this video.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I feel like I'm yelling, but I'm really not.

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[SPEAKER_00]: But that's all I wanted to say in this video.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I will see you in the next one.

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[SPEAKER_00]: In the meantime, make sure that you follow if you have not already hit the subscribe or follow button here on YouTube.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Leave your comments below.

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[SPEAKER_00]: The act can respond to them as they come in.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Once you happen to

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[SPEAKER_00]: who you are as far as like your higher self like this version of this person that you in your mind for some reason think you are not which you are like who is she tell me the comments who is she let me know like one or two things that she does or she she feels or she believes you know and then leave a comment let me know like what's like one thing that in your mind has been holy you back from really stepping into that identity

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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, because I know for a fact had I officially stepped into the identity of, I'm a YouTuber, I'm a full time content creator like these, this is the beliefs I'm holding now Lord now she's cleaner herself, I hope you can't hear that that sound really just drives me crazy, but

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[SPEAKER_00]: I am a YouTuber, okay, I'm a full time content creator and I get paid very well for what I put out to the world.

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[SPEAKER_00]: That's that's my identity, okay, that's what I have shifted into, okay, that is my identity.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Doesn't mean that I've seen all the money rolling in, not yet, baby.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, doesn't mean that I'm getting thousands hell.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm not getting hundreds of views here on YouTube, okay.

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[SPEAKER_00]: But that's my identity.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I already see her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I am her, okay.

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[SPEAKER_00]: and I'm moving forward taking action as such because I know at some point it's gonna align.

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[SPEAKER_00]: It's gonna align, hold on.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Cali, stop, stop, please.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Please, Lordy B, but yeah.

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[SPEAKER_00]: it hasn't necessarily aligned yet, but it will align, okay?

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[SPEAKER_00]: It will align.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So yeah, that's what I'm stepping into, full-time content creator, that's who I am, that's who I am body, that's how I speak, that's how I walk, that's how I talk, and other things, but since I'm talking about content creation and being YouTube, but I promise you that had I just stuck with it last,

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[SPEAKER_00]: year.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I think it was last year that I made my last like last round of videos.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Had I had stuck with it last year or whenever that was, I can almost guarantee that by this point, I would have been monetized.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Go to Imagine and monetize maybe a month could be $500.

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[SPEAKER_00]: That's monetized.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You know what I'm saying to start a thousand dollars to start 300 dollars to start whatever I could have been monetized by this plan, but I still had not fully shifted into the identity like lay claims the identity of who I am.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And so I him in the hot, I got in my head at over thought and I ended up getting busy with other stuff legitimately I did, but still if you know that this is a part of your identity, you're going to continue to make a way to do those things that you in your mind, believe that you are, you know, and I didn't do that so I'm not looking at it as a failure, definitely a lesson learned that, um,

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[SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, you, you just have to stay in this place of belief without necessarily seeing all the signs.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And we're in Aladdin when Jeannie, I don't want to say I was wrapping up a child on another tangent.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Remember in Aladdin when Jeannie in the cartoon version from the 80s, didn't he create himself into like a sign or there was a sign when they were singing like never had a friend like me and it was like pointing to something, I don't know where that visual came from, but whatever.

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[SPEAKER_00]: We, you're not going to get a genie with a sign pointing to whatever it was pointing to in a Latin, you know what I'm saying, that's not going to necessarily happen for us.

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[SPEAKER_00]: We have to create this inner dialogue and this inner momentum, this inner encouragement, this inner belief that is going to continue to spur us forward into this vision and it starts with or one of the things it starts with, it's just boldly like claiming like, I am her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I am her.

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[SPEAKER_00]: and so I am back.

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[SPEAKER_00]: This is me in real time, not the video on YouTube.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And yeah, I honestly, I hope that message resonated with you.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I really hope that that message sat right with you with your soul today.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay.

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[SPEAKER_00]: If you've been waiting for a sign, like you'll be the sign.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Let's be the sign together.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I'll be the sign for me.

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[SPEAKER_00]: You'll be the sign for you.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I want to challenge you today.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I want

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[SPEAKER_00]: that let's say your higher self does.

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[SPEAKER_00]: The woman you already are, that just needs to be activated.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Like, what's one thing that she does?

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[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe it is a morning habit, maybe it's the way you speak.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe it's the way you walk, maybe it's the way you carry yourself.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe it's the way you check your bank account every single Monday.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Regardless, if you have the money and they're not, maybe it's you start cooking more meals, maybe it's you're scheduling your doctor's appointments, maybe you're setting more boundaries, maybe you're saying no more, maybe you're considering quitting your job and leaving the rat race and going out on your own.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe there's a lot of maybe you know, there's an infinite amount of maybe.

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[SPEAKER_00]: there's an infinite amount of babies.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe it's using some damn vacation time because you got a bank of 75,000 days because you just scared to take a damn sick day or a vacation day because you don't know how we're looking at your office if you do that because heaven forbid you actually take some time off.

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[SPEAKER_00]: and restore yourself in your mental health, in your physical health, you know what I'm saying?

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[SPEAKER_00]: Like there's so many things that she is doing right now, that you just have been waiting to do.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Like do it today.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Do it today, not after the next paycheck, not after the kids are older, not once you have all the things and all the signs, not when the stars and the moon aligns on the fifth day in Scorpio Neptune on Mars.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I don't even know what I'm talking about, but no, but today.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Today, okay, and like I said, as I wrap this up, make sure that you go to YouTube and follow the Brown Girl self-care page there.

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[SPEAKER_00]: If you want to see Just see this transformation that I'm navigating and these things I'm talking about in real time, okay, come on over to the Brown Girl self-care page leave a comment there Hit the subscribe button support your girl

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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, support your girl.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And if you want to leave a comment on Spotify for this episode, definitely feel free to do that.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I will be happy to respond.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I love seeing what you say.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I love seeing your feedback and your thoughts.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Even if it's not agreeing with me, like I just love to hear what you have to say.

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[SPEAKER_00]: And I love knowing that there are other black women out there who are in a similar space.

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[SPEAKER_00]: who are radically changing their lives, who are radically going for it, who are radically stepping into quote unquote her and they are doing it, even if it's scary, they're doing it, we're doing it right now.

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[SPEAKER_00]: If you're listening to this, we're doing it right now, this journey of freedom, this journey of radical change, this journey of prioritize in ourselves, this journey of,

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[SPEAKER_00]: self-care in a way that's not necessarily just this quote-unquote, pretty thing that, you know, is being shown as pretty much the only way that is valued or valuable, you know, like we're doing it right now you and me in real time.

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[SPEAKER_00]: So I definitely want to hear from you whether you leave it on YouTube or Spotify,

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[SPEAKER_00]: Whatever, okay.

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[SPEAKER_00]: All right, so that is it for this week's episode of the show.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Thank you so much for being here Thank you for supporting.

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[SPEAKER_00]: Thank you for sharing.

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[SPEAKER_00]: I appreciate you a million percent And I cannot wait to connect with you again in the next episode.

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[SPEAKER_00]: See you next Monday and on YouTube