[SPEAKER_05]: This season of 5 GM's in a trench coat deals with themes of loneliness, loss, the paranormal, growing older, confrontation, parental pressures, reconciliation, teenage genannigans, illusions to being people of color in the 80s and hope.
[SPEAKER_05]: Listener discussion is advised.
[SPEAKER_01]: Hello everybody and welcome to 5 GM's in a trench coat season 5 from inside the tent.
[SPEAKER_01]: I'm Adam, I'm going to be your GM today on my left we have.
[SPEAKER_03]: Hey, I'm Jesse, I'm Langzik.
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm Pamela and I'm playing Harvey, Harvey Arrow, Riley.
[SPEAKER_05]: Hi, I'm Kim, I'm playing Clim.
[SPEAKER_05]: Oh God.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yes, we're relaxed left off.
[SPEAKER_01]: You guys had decided to stay the night at the Pandemonium Hotel.
[SPEAKER_01]: Something said it had gone a little awry once he made it into Colorado and the van broke down and you guys walked just a couple of miles, but it seems Well, it seems you've crossed the entire state of Colorado if you could imagine that.
[SPEAKER_01]: I can't you can't seem to find your van on the outside and you decided You know might as well rest to get our heads together and You know calm down a bit however upon your arrival and a quick nap
[SPEAKER_01]: Clim went missing.
[SPEAKER_01]: Clim's has this productivity to every once in a while or every now and again, go for a little sleepwalk, sleep stroll, if you will.
[SPEAKER_01]: After going missing, the two of you have and Zika went downstairs to confront her to discuss the situation and they seem a little perplexed that you hadn't shared the fact that Clim's sleptwalked because you guys hadn't read the pamphlet and this is notoriously a place where sleepwalkers apparently go missing and sometimes come back.
[SPEAKER_01]: Our plan from there was to give Zeke some sleeping pills where he would try his best to stay off falling asleep so he could sleepwalk, you tighten a rope to him and I'll fairness he did manage to do it and he walked you guys into sort of
[SPEAKER_01]: It was almost this optical illusion, and now you're in an additional part of the hotel that is very clearly not as used and not as lived in You're in functionally the back rooms of the hotel.
[SPEAKER_01]: It looks like extra hotel rooms Clim, you managed to take it down a level You've walked around a bit.
[SPEAKER_01]: What are you looking to do?
[SPEAKER_05]: I don't know.
[SPEAKER_05]: I think I'm just going to try to see if I can get to the ground floor.
[SPEAKER_05]: Okay.
[SPEAKER_05]: Um, that's, that's my goal right now.
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah, that sounds good.
[SPEAKER_01]: Um, so you're just kind of do the same thing where you like do the like a little thing All over and like yeah, see if I can jump down to the next level.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, um, and not go back up Can you give me some kind of role that would This is this is on your keenness of pink attention to the floors you're on these floors Don't entirely make sense.
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm gonna I actually I'm gonna try and grit then if we're trying to go like This is yeah, and this is also on your ability to jump down
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah, cause I was like, it's about the groundedness right now, not really like the brainy part of it.
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_05]: What is that?
[SPEAKER_05]: Oh, three.
[SPEAKER_05]: My God, I'm fucking stuck.
[SPEAKER_05]: I have another token.
[SPEAKER_01]: Give you a little, oh yeah, I have an actual one.
[SPEAKER_05]: I have one more.
[SPEAKER_01]: Give you two tokens there.
[SPEAKER_01]: Clim, you start jumping down.
[SPEAKER_01]: You go down about three flights.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're not like super athletic, but you are a young, young, healthy, fit woman.
[SPEAKER_01]: Jump down these ways.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you hit a floor, and it kind of seems like there's nothing.
[SPEAKER_01]: Like it seems like there's no more space for you to jump down, so you're sort of just here for now.
[SPEAKER_01]: Okay.
[SPEAKER_01]: And maybe your eyes are playing tricks on you or maybe this is it, but you kind of walk in the open up room.
[SPEAKER_01]: and it is a second lobby.
[SPEAKER_01]: not unlike the first one that you came into, but it is empty save for bits of belongings that are kind of left up.
[SPEAKER_01]: There's, you know, I have filled the cup, you see the old cup of coffee, a bagger to beside chairs.
[SPEAKER_01]: It is a functional hotel lobby, but there's no one down here, and there's this then layer of dust, see footprints in the dust here or there.
[SPEAKER_01]: Some of the footprints,
[SPEAKER_01]: are footprints that were made in dust that now have dust in them.
[SPEAKER_01]: So they're not the same layer of dust that is there.
[SPEAKER_05]: But it looks like there's two layers of dust.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, and that occurs all across the place.
[SPEAKER_01]: This is perhaps a place that more than one person has come to, and you're here now.
[SPEAKER_05]: I think I'm just going to walk through, then.
[SPEAKER_01]: She's walking around looking around.
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah, it's big, hello.
[SPEAKER_01]: As you call out hello,
[SPEAKER_01]: Religious is your mom and or superstitious is your mother and what religion and superstition did she grow up with them or religion Superstition did you grow up with
[SPEAKER_05]: Um, I would say that we weren't really our religious family, but we were more on the superstitious side.
[SPEAKER_05]: I would say it's that thing of like, don't walk under mirrors and like the number four is bad.
[SPEAKER_05]: That sort of thing of just like these little things to not mess with the order of the balance sort of thing.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: So, as you said, you're not exactly religious, but you're a bit superstitious.
[SPEAKER_01]: And as you say hello, something that is simple enough, you give this kind of creeping cessation of your head of like, hello is an invitation to talk.
[SPEAKER_01]: Your lips feel cold,
[SPEAKER_01]: It's just a cold night standing in front of somewhere.
[SPEAKER_01]: You, you, in this moment are in this room, but you experience an entire sensation that isn't new to you.
[SPEAKER_00]: And you just hear, oh, hello, lonely girl.
[SPEAKER_00]: Are you a visitor to my hotel?
[SPEAKER_05]: just like quiet and like frozen.
[SPEAKER_01]: I'm going to cut away.
[SPEAKER_01]: Harvey and Zik.
[SPEAKER_01]: You've managed to end up in this in this background's place.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zik, you.
[SPEAKER_01]: I think I think you wake Zik up.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yes, Harvey.
[SPEAKER_01]: Are you leaving Zik asleep to see where he is?
[SPEAKER_04]: I want to leave him asleep to see where he goes.
[SPEAKER_01]: All right, Zik, can you just give me some kind of role?
[SPEAKER_01]: You can decide which you're going to roll here.
[SPEAKER_03]: I'll just do a grit, you know, and he's just kind of going along, you know.
[SPEAKER_01]: Oh, my goodness, good roll that with advantage.
[SPEAKER_01]: Nine.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke, how do you see this?
[SPEAKER_01]: You see Zeke's eyes moving underneath his eyelids pretty rapidly.
[SPEAKER_01]: And Zeke, you get a bit of a bloody nose.
[SPEAKER_01]: And then you just kind of feel like coming from Zeke's mouth.
[SPEAKER_01]: And Zeke, you walk.
[SPEAKER_01]: you're dreaming and what you're dreaming you see Klem walk from this room out jump down to light like another stay level and jump down to another stay level and how the what you see is he could just kind of walk you have him on this this rope and he just starts climbing over the stair the stair well like um the railing the railing it getting ready to jump down
[SPEAKER_04]: Try and, like, lead him around to just go down the steps, brother.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, you want to pull him back a little.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, you give him a little tug.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke, you see your friend kind of Filting away in the distance.
[SPEAKER_01]: As you turn and start going down the stairwell to follow.
[SPEAKER_01]: The two of you go down the stairwell.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke,
[SPEAKER_01]: You've lost your friend in this dream, and I think you're getting a little restless little frantic.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's just a bit more blood coming out of his nose.
[SPEAKER_01]: Havi, you go down the stairwell, and then around down the next portion of the stairs, and then you're back up at the same door.
[SPEAKER_01]: You could just left, and you left it open, and that's how you know, and you look in and you see the room numbers haven't changed.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke begins attempting to climb over the stairwell again.
[SPEAKER_04]: Can I like look over and try and gauge if this is because we've seen the optical illusions?
[SPEAKER_04]: Or at least I have what following him in here?
[SPEAKER_01]: A to a partial extent like it's not like you're like, oh I understand.
[SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, yeah, right, right.
[SPEAKER_04]: But like,
[SPEAKER_04]: I don't know.
[SPEAKER_04]: I don't want to jump down and hurt himself.
[SPEAKER_04]: That's my that's my thing.
[SPEAKER_01]: Like can I just look up or feel like what do you Yeah, so you look down and you see Directly underneath you.
[SPEAKER_01]: I think even just light just under is Another railing and another stairwell That is just like so the front of us tucked under the ledge of yours so you wouldn't be able to see it just walking around or looking down You have to like lean over
[SPEAKER_01]: It doesn't look far enough that he's going to hurt himself, I mean, you've been in a hotel, yes.
[SPEAKER_04]: You might twist an ankle.
[SPEAKER_01]: If he lands poorly, yeah, I mean, you could do this pretty easily, but you would still have to like swing under.
[SPEAKER_01]: But he's right now Zix like halfway over.
[SPEAKER_04]: Oh no, he's... Oh, can I just, can I just tug him off a little again?
[SPEAKER_04]: And try it myself?
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, yeah, you give me some kind of physical role.
[SPEAKER_04]: Okay, these, do you think flight are brawn?
[SPEAKER_01]: I'll let you pick that flight's probably easier.
[SPEAKER_01]: I have probably the better option.
[SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, because I have I have more brawn but
[SPEAKER_01]: If you could explain to me how you're gonna do it.
[SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, I'm like, I'm not muscleing it.
[SPEAKER_01]: I'm using like, yeah, cause you're more like a genetic like swing.
[SPEAKER_01]: But I mean, if you want to, if you want to explain it to me that you're doing more of a like a like a chin up and you like kind of crawl down lower yourself and then drop and catch yourself.
[SPEAKER_01]: I can let you do the muscle, but that I'll say a failure on that will be worse than a failure on.
[SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, I think it makes more sense to do this this swinging.
[SPEAKER_04]: Okay.
[SPEAKER_04]: What is that?
[SPEAKER_04]: Oh, it's a twelfth.
[SPEAKER_04]: Oh, you roll again.
[SPEAKER_04]: I'm really getting it.
[SPEAKER_04]: Full worth.
[SPEAKER_04]: So 12 plus four.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, you pretty comfortably Swing down you land pretty pretty comfortably.
[SPEAKER_01]: There's a door here.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's been left open This is not the same door.
[SPEAKER_01]: You see different numbers on the outside.
[SPEAKER_01]: Someone else has been in this area
[SPEAKER_01]: then CZ Clyde over it.
[SPEAKER_04]: Now I'm down here, I'm getting ready to try and help him.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, so Z climbs over and pretty comfortably, like does like a little like like lean in.
[SPEAKER_01]: But as you see that his calves are gonna hit the railing and he's gonna flip down like he's, and you go to reach and there's this on your hands for a moment and you see Z's just kind of,
[SPEAKER_01]: Fils and move just a little it's it's so uncanny it's almost like seeing if everything on a table moved and then fell it's that yeah Zika's falling suddenly moves and then falls and is on the space with you.
[SPEAKER_04]: I think it's that like moment like like I'm just gonna let that shit ride.
[SPEAKER_04]: Look at me that's not me like
[SPEAKER_04]: It's like, I'm just gonna make sure he's not getting hurt.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, I'm like, all right.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke, in your dream, you begin hearing that's of words, your words and voices.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke, what phrases or words are things?
[SPEAKER_01]: Are you hearing in this dream?
[SPEAKER_01]: What is being said to you as you attempt to find your friend and climb in this space that maybe you don't belong in?
[SPEAKER_03]: I think he's,
[SPEAKER_03]: He's just kind of hearing mundane things, like people talking about their plans and, and, yeah, I think he's just kind of like mundane everyday things.
[SPEAKER_01]: I want you to give me, I'll let you pick, but I want you to give me your role that is going to resist you from getting pulled in another direction.
[SPEAKER_01]: Resist you from following another thread rather than following your friends thread.
[SPEAKER_03]: Uh, I think Grit just trying to keep focused.
[SPEAKER_03]: Give me your Grit for you see that claim in your dream, you were following claim.
[SPEAKER_01]: You see Clim Goat in words where this open door is, have you?
[SPEAKER_01]: You would know this open door that you also see Clim come out and jump back, jump down another level, but there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there's, there
[SPEAKER_01]: Uh, a storming and a pooling in this other direction.
[SPEAKER_01]: How the Zeke begins walking inward towards that open door into another hallway.
[SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, he obviously knows where he's going, because the first time it showed me something new.
[SPEAKER_04]: So, like, yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, you follow him.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke, I want you to roll me a D10, please.
[SPEAKER_01]: Is there five doors on either side of these, uh, this hallway?
[SPEAKER_02]: Ooh, Kidoki.
[SPEAKER_01]: Three.
[SPEAKER_01]: You walk three, three paces down functionally, and then to the left, you open this door, doors that claim did not open, but you see, you know, it's almost like seeing a whist of claim in this kind of vision you're seeing in your dream, this dream, and you open this door, and inside of here it is.
[SPEAKER_01]: You look in and you're looking into a room full of snow and ice.
[SPEAKER_01]: How the a chilled washes out as this door opens, it's the inside of hotel room but it's colder than you could even imagine.
[SPEAKER_01]: There's snow in places.
[SPEAKER_01]: Not for you.
[SPEAKER_01]: For you, there's snow in places, Zigg.
[SPEAKER_01]: Have you, it's so cold, it's uncanny, and Zigg begins walking in.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zigg, you see someone sitting on the bed, shivering.
[SPEAKER_00]: I'm just kind of mumbling, I'm just saying, they loved me, they loved, it's just me now, and I'm here, and that's okay, and I'm always, it's always really just been me when you think about it.
[SPEAKER_01]: and you walk in and this person is shaking kind of rocking back and forth.
[SPEAKER_01]: Their skin is blue.
[SPEAKER_01]: Their lips are dark blue.
[SPEAKER_01]: Their fingertips are darkened.
[SPEAKER_01]: Havi as you walk in behind seek.
[SPEAKER_01]: I think you stop him.
[SPEAKER_01]: You can tell me if you do or don't because you see bare feet at the very end of the bed.
[SPEAKER_01]: So you're walking down into this kind of like the hallway portion which has the restroom on the left hand side of the room where you see just the end of the bed and you see these feet.
[SPEAKER_01]: Then the skin itself is thin and a little papery that they haven't eaten on the long
[SPEAKER_01]: Such long, unkept toenails, and they're not moving.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: Stop, Ziggins!
[SPEAKER_01]: Zigg, you're just at that brink where you can't see the full bed, but you see someone rocking back and forth.
[SPEAKER_01]: Everyone's while their head will come in of you.
[SPEAKER_01]: You see their knees and their feet and their cold blue body.
[SPEAKER_01]: Clim.
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: You just got asked if you're here to visit the hotel.
[SPEAKER_05]: I think after a heavy beat, uh, she says very quietly, yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: Of course, uh, you're a perfect fit for a place like this.
[SPEAKER_05]: What does that mean?
[SPEAKER_00]: You're alone.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you really always have been having to you.
[SPEAKER_05]: What?
[SPEAKER_00]: Look around.
[SPEAKER_01]: I think I finally like actually look around as you look around the hotel falls away and you're kind of spinning around in this cold night in your hometown just outside of where homecoming was
[SPEAKER_01]: you're waiting and you've had moments of loneliness here you think back to a couple different times you felt alone at home after certain people weren't in your life anymore but you always felt
[SPEAKER_01]: especially after camp always felt like you had the golden trouts to be there you weren't alone when you were in that cabin and you weren't alone even when you were doing a different thing you signed up for the Navi and Zika that day you weren't alone but here
[SPEAKER_01]: you are and it's starting to sink in that you're going to be and that no one's gonna come even though they're supposed to.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's probably been 20 or 30 minutes on you've been waiting.
[SPEAKER_01]: Your lips are cold and your eyes burn a little bit.
[SPEAKER_01]: Not sadness but frustration, I think.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's dark.
[SPEAKER_01]: You do have plans after this.
[SPEAKER_01]: What do you do, Amanda?
[SPEAKER_05]: It's been longer than it should have and hobby should have picked me up by now.
[SPEAKER_05]: It doesn't take this long to say goodbye isn't come out here, but one of my head is irritating me, I take it off.
[SPEAKER_01]: Uh-huh.
[SPEAKER_01]: Where do you put it?
[SPEAKER_05]: I think I like hold it in my hand and then I like throw it to the side.
[SPEAKER_05]: It's a kind of a big like reddish purple bow matches the color of my dress that we took too long to find in a macy's department store but my mom insisted that I go and so we would dress shopping when we found this very freely, very poofy purple dress that has like floral
[SPEAKER_05]: But she insisted, and I love my mom, so of course I'm gonna go.
[SPEAKER_01]: And just like camp, your friends were there.
[SPEAKER_01]: Ziko's there for a bit, he showed up for pictures, and I think he came down, and then he headed home pretty quickly, because he was getting everything ready for the night.
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah, we made a plan after words because I didn't want to be here and I know Zeke didn't want to be here and we invited Hobby because, you know, I'm sure Hobby didn't really want to be there either.
[SPEAKER_05]: We're going to stay in Zeke's place and the basement and watch movies for the night.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, you took pictures for the parents?
[SPEAKER_05]: No, it took photos for the parents because my mom insisted that we take photos together and now I'm waiting for Hobby to come get me and it's been too long.
[SPEAKER_05]: And I think after I drop the boy, I just start walking.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: That walk is the lonely Steve Everfeld.
[SPEAKER_01]: And there's been a lot of moments of isolation in your life, clam, your...
[SPEAKER_01]: There's a lot of things that have made you isolated, but none have ever been the direct negligence of someone you care about this deeply.
[SPEAKER_01]: You blink away some of those frustrated or maybe now sad tears that are coming down a little bit and you're looking you're in this hotel again.
[SPEAKER_01]: Still cold, you still feel that you kind of bite of that night on you and the weight of that level of kind of let down in your chest sagging your heart down or what you have to imagine is sagging your heart down.
[SPEAKER_00]: As I said, you're just like the rest of us.
[SPEAKER_05]: What is this?
[SPEAKER_01]: This is where all the lonely people go.
[SPEAKER_01]: We stay here to get there.
[SPEAKER_05]: Where is everyone then?
[SPEAKER_00]: In their room, everyone has one.
[SPEAKER_01]: Are you ready for yours?
[SPEAKER_01]: Would you like to sit a bit more?
[SPEAKER_05]: Let me sit a bit more.
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_05]: Clim give me.
[SPEAKER_01]: some kind of spirit role.
[SPEAKER_01]: Your your spiritual presence.
[SPEAKER_01]: Your soul.
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm Jesus.
[SPEAKER_05]: Um, I think great.
[SPEAKER_01]: All right.
[SPEAKER_01]: Give me a great role, please.
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_05]: That's a one.
[SPEAKER_01]: you are left-bargic and tired, and you may have just snapped, but you are just so exhausted, and you sit down heavier than maybe you've ever been before, almost, as if there's something pressing on your shoulders and pushing your eyelids down.
[SPEAKER_01]: Back to the boys!
[SPEAKER_01]: zik even your your body stopped moving but you see the scene it is cold it's almost a mountainous here there's snow there's this kind of bluster of wind and bits of flakes of snow that kind of burning your cheeks
[SPEAKER_01]: Have you see steam coming off of Ziggs face and off of the blood on Ziggs nose as if something cold We're blasting him in the face and cold cold.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's cold in here You see these feet toenails grown a bit of maceyated.
[SPEAKER_01]: You've stopped Ziggs.
[SPEAKER_01]: What do you do?
[SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, no.
[SPEAKER_04]: Nope.
[SPEAKER_01]: Your phone's leaked out.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke.
[SPEAKER_01]: This person, you see their face and their hair.
[SPEAKER_01]: They are betraying them as possibly a young woman.
[SPEAKER_00]: Um, I should say, I've always been alone.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's okay.
[SPEAKER_00]: I can be alone in here forever.
[SPEAKER_01]: Rocking back and forth.
[SPEAKER_01]: You feel a tug as if you're going to leave the room as if your body's doing.
[SPEAKER_01]: What it wasn't doing a moment before what do you do?
[SPEAKER_01]: What does Zeke want to do here?
[SPEAKER_03]: Kind of like grab the corner of the wall to kind of keep me there.
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah Yeah, I'm can I ask her can I talk?
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, okay.
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm gonna be like.
[SPEAKER_03]: Oh, hey I'm looking for a friend.
[SPEAKER_03]: Have you seen any one around here?
[SPEAKER_01]: Um, how the ZX arm shoots up, and I didn't make you roll, so I'm not gonna make ZX roll.
[SPEAKER_01]: You were kind of just tugging him away, and it's been pretty easy to lead him up to this point.
[SPEAKER_01]: ZX arm kind of shoots up and, and it moves a bit uncannily, just quickly, and like latches onto the to the side of the wall.
[SPEAKER_01]: And Zika is a rock in this moment, and you don't remember Zika ever being that much stronger than you.
[SPEAKER_01]: Um, and again, you're not yanking him, but it was like, oh, like even even a light tug from you, typically, would move Zika.
[SPEAKER_01]: feet don't even budge, and then you're from Zeke's own mouth, it's not, it doesn't feel evil, like it doesn't feel bad, it's uncanny, though.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke is speaking, and you don't know to what, or how he's speaking.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's like hearing a fully foreign language to you, not like hearing like Mandarin or Japanese, where you've heard it spoken, and how old you've heard it, and like a movie or song or something, it's like hearing a language that's been lost.
[SPEAKER_01]: You sit here, your ear is kind of just like, like trying to dial in to maybe a piece or something, and nothing, they ask this person if they've seen your friend, and you see she stops rocking.
[SPEAKER_01]: Oh, I'm sorry.
[SPEAKER_01]: I didn't see you coming.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's a bit cold.
[SPEAKER_01]: Do you not have a jacket or something?
[SPEAKER_01]: And you see herself.
[SPEAKER_01]: She's wearing pajamas.
[SPEAKER_01]: She's in shorts and and like a tattered shirt.
[SPEAKER_02]: I'm like, oh, well, usually I have jacket on, but doesn't look like I have it on now.
[SPEAKER_01]: Oh, okay, well, you might want to make it quick in here, then this is, it's fairly cold here.
[SPEAKER_01]: You said you said you friend is here?
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, I think I think she came by here.
[SPEAKER_00]: Oh, that's, okay, I haven't met anyone here recently, I don't think.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you see your kind of trail off.
[SPEAKER_01]: Lost for a moment.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's it's the Zeke have you ever seen someone with with some kind of dementia or Alzheimer's like that
[SPEAKER_03]: Um, I think maybe his grandparents are starting to show signs, but not not quite there, but they're like, you know, they're forgetting stuff.
[SPEAKER_01]: There's this pause in this grasp at a thing they know or they must have known that this woman shows to you.
[SPEAKER_00]: She talks, oh, I don't, again, I am not sure.
[SPEAKER_01]: And she stops and then you see her grasping or looking for the thing almost like scrolling through files that aren't there that have been erased.
[SPEAKER_01]: I'm sorry, no, I don't think I've seen your friend, I, how did, how did you get in here?
[SPEAKER_03]: Well, I'm just walking around looking for my friend.
[SPEAKER_00]: Oh, I think, I think you need to leave.
[SPEAKER_01]: This place is only for those of us that have had left and are abandoned and are lonely and are met to be lonely.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you, you're not.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're so warm.
[SPEAKER_01]: You have a friend with you and they're strong.
[SPEAKER_01]: And I can feel it in there.
[SPEAKER_01]: He's standing there.
[SPEAKER_01]: I don't think he sees me, but he looks scared or maybe he does.
[SPEAKER_01]: You have to go.
[SPEAKER_03]: You can't be here.
[SPEAKER_01]: Um, you know, I, I was, I was left here.
[SPEAKER_01]: I'm, I'm left here.
[SPEAKER_01]: So I, I think that I just have to stay here.
[SPEAKER_02]: Why don't you try coming with me?
[SPEAKER_01]: Um, Harvey, you see, one of the, the toes twitch a bit.
[SPEAKER_01]: Do you want to do anything?
[SPEAKER_04]: I'm just trying to talk about that.
[SPEAKER_01]: I'm gonna like actually talk on him.
[SPEAKER_04]: I don't wanna move too much is my problem.
[SPEAKER_01]: I don't wanna do it like this.
[SPEAKER_01]: You do another like Tug Zik, why don't you come with me and she's like, oh, and then you fill another Tug, your body trying to move as you don't want it to.
[SPEAKER_01]: Do you anchor down some more?
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, I think I'm gonna try to hold on to this.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, you hold steady.
[SPEAKER_01]: You fill your fingers, slip a bit this time.
[SPEAKER_01]: Whatever's filling you strong,
[SPEAKER_01]: I don't I don't think I should I haven't I haven't left my room and so this is this is my room.
[SPEAKER_03]: It's it's where I belong I mean Then where are we?
[SPEAKER_03]: Where we're in the hotel
[SPEAKER_01]: I checked in and I don't remember how long ago I'm just gonna reach out my hand and to like help her up You see that does anything you have a seasy hand begin to reach out and z-body begins stepping forward a bit to You you have to cross this full threshold to get into where she is on the bed.
[SPEAKER_01]: Z-body begins moving.
[SPEAKER_01]: How do you?
[SPEAKER_01]: I don't know how he's done here.
[SPEAKER_01]: I think you're holding the rope fairly tight and your feet begin sliding as Zika is walking and you're getting pull it's almost like tug of war when you're just losing and your feet are just and it's so cold here you cross that threshold.
[SPEAKER_01]: a frozen tundra here, you're getting blasted by the snow and the wind, your eyes are watering, but this person is looking at you and her hand is slowly going up, and you can't stop, you're reaching your hand out to this person and you think, needs help, and she's like, I, and she reaches her hand out, she grabs your hand, is he, what's, what was your intention here trying to help her up?
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm just trying to help this lady because this is obviously a bad place and I think I'm in a dream.
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm kind of having that dream thing where things still kind of make sense, you know?
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, of course I'm in this kind of, you're like lucid dreaming.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, yeah, you're experiencing dream world as a dream person, but you have that ounce of control.
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, yeah, so that's why I'm like, I recognize this is a bad place and I just don't want to leave her.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, you reach your hand out and she grabs your hand.
[SPEAKER_01]: you are so warm.
[SPEAKER_01]: Are you sure it's fine if I go with you?
[SPEAKER_03]: I mean yeah, I mean you wouldn't mind helping me find my friend.
[SPEAKER_01]: Of course, I'd love to help you find your friend.
[SPEAKER_01]: I've just been here for so long, I don't know what it's really like outside.
[SPEAKER_01]: How have you fully see onto this bed now as Zika standing next to it is the thin, thin, amaciated body of what you have to assume was a fairly young woman.
[SPEAKER_01]: Her nails have grown out fairly equally as long as her toenails have her hair has grown past the edges of the bed and She lays there um light peeps in her chest as if she's still alive But I'm looking at a dead body The hair is growing and the nails are growing
[SPEAKER_01]: She doesn't look blue or rotting or decaying, and that's the hard part.
[SPEAKER_01]: You see, Ziggs hand has been out, and then Ziggs puts his hand down Ziggs.
[SPEAKER_01]: As you help her off this bed, she stumbles a bit, and she's like, would it be okay if you carried me?
[SPEAKER_03]: I mean, I'm not the strongest guy around, but I'll do my best.
[SPEAKER_01]: I don't have shoes on in the floor.
[SPEAKER_01]: So, you see, there's ice and rock on the floor.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's not the floor of a room.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's the floor of a Tudra, and she's barefoot, and you're going to carry her?
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, I'm going to try to just put her on my shoulder.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, she kind of, she's light, lighter than you, what have you been conceptualized.
[SPEAKER_01]: Thank you, so warm.
[SPEAKER_01]: What was your name?
[SPEAKER_01]: My name's Zik.
[SPEAKER_01]: That's a really fantastic name.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zik, I'm Sarah.
[SPEAKER_01]: Oh, hey, Sarah.
[SPEAKER_01]: You do hear two voices at the same time, Zik, Sarah.
[SPEAKER_01]: As Zik turns and starts walking away from this bed.
[SPEAKER_01]: So it's okay.
[SPEAKER_01]: So Zik was in front of you.
[SPEAKER_01]: He's walking this way.
[SPEAKER_01]: Does Zik pass you?
[SPEAKER_04]: I think Zeeke Path is me because I'm still just looking at this woman.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, Zeeke.
[SPEAKER_01]: Passes you.
[SPEAKER_01]: You passed that threshold Zeeke.
[SPEAKER_01]: I think have you have you loosened on the on the rope or are you holding the rope still?
[SPEAKER_04]: I I might have loosened on it a little.
[SPEAKER_01]: It slips from your hand for a moment.
[SPEAKER_01]: Um, Zeeke will be faster than you expected for someone to walk in.
[SPEAKER_01]: You see this body, heave a bit, and then go down and heave a bit, and go down and zikyu walk her out of this room, you're in the hotel again, it's not cold, but it's so it's air conditioned, it's cold, but it's so much warmer than where you just were
[SPEAKER_01]: has stopped breathing and you're in there alone.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's not cold in here anymore, not save not as cold as as it was.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's just a room now.
[SPEAKER_01]: Do you walk out?
[SPEAKER_01]: yeah like just like backing out yeah you back out um you kind of stuff on the rope and you're like oh right you pick it up Zika you've locked her out thank you um Zika I think
[SPEAKER_01]: If your friend just got here, she's probably going to have to check in first.
[SPEAKER_01]: You have to find the lobby.
[SPEAKER_01]: I don't remember how to get there, but I know it's not in this hallway.
[SPEAKER_01]: I think this always almost fool anyways, and she hugs you, and her arms aren't as cold.
[SPEAKER_01]: It feels like the hug of someone who's alive, a young girl, probably in her 20s, gives you this squeeze, you're saying, thank you, and your shoulders, even that ounce of weight, that little bit of weight those on them is gone, and she is gone, and that wind from in there is gone, the coldness is gone, you're just in this hotel again.
[SPEAKER_01]: See, Ziggs clothes give it to a hug, wrinkle a bit, and I think maybe even Ziggs reaches a hand up and does this, like as if grabbing someone's arm and then the clothes go back to normal and you're standing here, Ziggs, we're going to cut away really quick, back to climb, well, um,
[SPEAKER_01]: Is it time for you to acquire your room?
[SPEAKER_01]: Have you ruminated and thought enough?
[SPEAKER_01]: And you hear like us?
[SPEAKER_01]: Hmm.
[SPEAKER_01]: Sorry.
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_00]: Let's rock you there.
[SPEAKER_01]: As you stand up, you feel your legs after running for a long time, after doing something, helping your friend move, whatever, you're this way in your legs, like they're almost done being used, the tension in the muscle, your body is so heavy, and you're walking so sluggishly, and you just know the way to go, and you walk towards this elevator.
[SPEAKER_01]: So it's opening.
[SPEAKER_01]: Back to you, guys.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's equally what you want to do.
[SPEAKER_03]: Okay.
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm gonna be like, thank you, Sarah.
[SPEAKER_03]: I'll look for the lobby.
[SPEAKER_03]: You.
[SPEAKER_03]: Thank you, Sarah.
[SPEAKER_01]: In his voice, but it kind of made out of the whispers.
[SPEAKER_01]: And then I'll look for the lobby.
[SPEAKER_01]: lobby.
[SPEAKER_01]: Oh.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: Havi being the only awake one right now.
[UNKNOWN]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, so what are you gonna look for the lobby?
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, I would like you to roll Something with advantage this time because Sarah's given you help here.
[SPEAKER_03]: Um How a brain so I'm like looking for signs.
[SPEAKER_01]: Sounds good.
[SPEAKER_01]: I saw that you roll this kind of would you rather roll it twice and add them together Would you rather roll it and if you roll poorly roll again?
[SPEAKER_03]: All roll twice and that don't make sounds good
[SPEAKER_03]: four.
[SPEAKER_03]: 10.
[SPEAKER_03]: Oh, we roll.
[SPEAKER_03]: Oh, six.
[SPEAKER_01]: All right.
[SPEAKER_01]: So that's a 20.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: You see now or you know now and maybe it was just you get a bit of Sarah's memory and even Sarah seemed like she didn't remember or maybe she just didn't want to in that moment but she's imparted it upon you.
[SPEAKER_01]: You hear from inside the room doors open and closed as if you had been in that room for years.
[SPEAKER_01]: You know there's more people in these rooms, but you know that they all came from an elevator.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you also see the path Sarah took when she first arrived which was down and down and down the way you would come down this way.
[SPEAKER_01]: Where would you like to go?
[SPEAKER_01]: The elevator or down towards the lobby.
[SPEAKER_03]: Ooh, I think I'm gonna try the elevator.
[SPEAKER_01]: Okay, it's gonna be like, that's how they got up here.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: You begin walking, Havi again.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zika's is in this motion.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zika walks to the end of this hallway.
[SPEAKER_01]: And where it looked like it ended, it looked like it ended, there's another minor hallway almost, and it's the way it's built.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's like practically flush to the wall if you're not literally looking next to the wall, and it goes down, and I would say it's about.
[SPEAKER_01]: Not even shoulder width.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's just shy being full of it.
[SPEAKER_01]: So you have to turn your body sideways to go down this hallway and you see Zeke is just doing it Zeke's in motion of this as he is a sleep and in Root of something and you keep following and holding onto that rope.
[SPEAKER_04]: Oh, yeah, man.
[SPEAKER_04]: Like what what else am I to do?
[SPEAKER_01]: I just I'm going to wake him up or not.
[SPEAKER_04]: He's gonna go away.
[SPEAKER_04]: He knows things.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, he's so confident.
[SPEAKER_04]: I really didn't see that.
[SPEAKER_01]: Like I don't know he knows me and that's thing is you truly standing here You're like this was a single hallway and there was still a way to go and see you crawl down this way You break out within 10 feet into another hallway and this hallway there
[SPEAKER_01]: Similarly, is on the opposite end of it where the doors begin, there's another piece of wall that is just shy of being flush and behind that wall is a door.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you open that door.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're just following this trail that you is now mapped out in your brain as if it's your memory.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're kind of reverse walking it though as she was walked from the elevator this way.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're walking in this way and you You go into this door.
[SPEAKER_01]: Have you again following him another spot hidden behind a wall that's practically flush to itself Making this illusion that there's nothing there like it's all one wall, but it's not there's a door behind it.
[SPEAKER_01]: You go in there.
[SPEAKER_01]: You come to this space that is
[SPEAKER_01]: you recognize would have been some kind of storage space a kitchen where workers would be if workers worked this portion of the hotel that you know they can't because no one can navigate this normally just past this area there's this double door that swings you push it open and there's an elevator
[SPEAKER_01]: and you see, it's going up and it passes your floor and don't keeps going up.
[SPEAKER_01]: You hear the moment of the elevator's seat, you get there, this is you stand there, as it passes your floor, you feel all of the weight,
[SPEAKER_01]: of what you now know is every single person in every single room in this back space because you felt a bit of that weight just a moment ago, but it was lighter, and I would like you to roll me a grit roll please.
[SPEAKER_01]: Okay, 10.
[SPEAKER_01]: That's so good, Zik.
[SPEAKER_01]: You feel almost like you're going to fall to your hands and knees, but you don't, you keep yourself steady.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zik, do you steal yourself here specifically to show it that you're strong enough here or you just resisting weight?
[SPEAKER_01]: Um, I think I'm trying to I'm resisting it because I kind of want to show that this can be resisted as you do that You Resist this way you see a bit more blood kind of push out as the X-nose It's more than you've ever seen Zeke you for a moment as this elevator car passes and you hear it passing you hear
[SPEAKER_01]: your door open to your den at home and you've heard of that door open specifically that way with the same wind and the same clump of clums probably boots you wore that night maybe maybe a bit platform but you hear the clump of clums platform to boots and you know the sound of that night because that's probably the most upset you've seen clum ever and it's likely the most upset with then your friend group or within your friends you've ever been
[SPEAKER_03]: I think there's also a bit of guilt because he hears the door open and he's like he ends up doing a joke because obviously she's there later than she should have.
[SPEAKER_03]: So he doesn't look at he's still like doing something.
[SPEAKER_03]: So he doesn't look at her and he makes a joke like, oh, he must have had a real good time dancing all night, you know?
[SPEAKER_03]: And so he makes this joke and then he turns around and sees her and sees it serious.
[SPEAKER_03]: So I think there's like some guilt that he like
[SPEAKER_01]: made a joke instead of like you again make this joke and you hear your own joke ring out but not from you and you fill that weight and the uncomfortability of making a joke you shouldn't have made because you didn't pay attention and I think there's even that bit of guilt of like oh like in that moment and I think your brain just kind of re-living all of it is that like if I had stayed longer instead of insisting on that I didn't want to be there in leaving right after pictures
[SPEAKER_01]: I could have stopped us like we could all still be friends and like I For Zique was this just a mistake, Harvey made or was this a continuous pattern of behavior that had been just inconvenient enough
[SPEAKER_03]: Um, I think it's more of a lot of little things, but Zika's kind of an easy-going guy, so he doesn't.
[SPEAKER_03]: He never really thought too much.
[SPEAKER_03]: He's just like, ah, you know, he bails on plans every now and then, but I think this is the first time that it's been like upsetting.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, and you, in that moment, have that like, oh,
[SPEAKER_01]: Like I after Clim kind of cries and tells you to happen.
[SPEAKER_01]: You guys do still have the the sleep over you guys watch your movies But they're still that weight of the fact or maybe the lightness of the fact that Havi is not there And that Havi bailed on something and his bailing on something affected Clim she had a walk here in the cold she Was gonna ride if you'd stayed longer you could've driven
[SPEAKER_03]: And I think also he was kind of annoyed that they were taking so long because he So I think he was like just kind of messing with stuff because he was like why are they not here yet?
[SPEAKER_03]: Like what do they do?
[SPEAKER_03]: So he the whole time he was waiting.
[SPEAKER_03]: He was like annoyed that they're not there yet And then he makes that joke because he's trying to because he's also trying to lighten his like mood Yeah, like so he's like oh so he kind of feels he feels like he's being selfish in that moment Yeah, yeah
[SPEAKER_01]: And then that night washes away because it's not your memory, you just remembered parts of it when you felt it as they go to the next floor and ding, ding, you know who's memory that is and you know who's weight that is.
[SPEAKER_01]: What do you do?
[SPEAKER_03]: Oh, so I look up because I'm assuming it's one of those old-timey ones that shows like the arrow.
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_03]: So I wait and see where the, which floor it's going to do.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: So you would be on the third floor currently.
[SPEAKER_01]: It stops at nine.
[SPEAKER_01]: Okay.
[SPEAKER_01]: How do you stand there?
[SPEAKER_01]: And this is the first time outside of the cold.
[SPEAKER_01]: You felt the cold.
[SPEAKER_01]: You feel the cold air.
[SPEAKER_01]: Hit you.
[SPEAKER_01]: Probably two or three hours a after and you realize two or three hours after like oh shit And you ran outside wherever you were and you were hot because you were inside somewhere that was that was busy And a lot of things were happening in the cold air hit your skin and you're like oh my god And you feel that and you're like what the hell and you hear even bits of that night Maybe dance music maybe maybe people talking
[SPEAKER_01]: And then it's gone for a second, and you feel it the least, but you hear it and you feel it and you know that that is a memory you existed.
[SPEAKER_04]: The heck is going on.
[SPEAKER_01]: Clim.
[SPEAKER_01]: You've stood in this elevator at one point for just a moment.
[SPEAKER_01]: You.
[SPEAKER_01]: You pass one of the floors, you see, just ding ding ding.
[SPEAKER_01]: You hear the laughter and the splashing and the crackling campfires of camp and your friends.
[SPEAKER_01]: And then you hear the roar and the vibration of an engine and the same jokes and similar feelings.
[SPEAKER_01]: But they've been just shy of being exactly as they were and until it's gone as you're on the next floor.
[SPEAKER_01]: What does Clim do or feel in that moment?
[SPEAKER_05]: I think she's just thinking about the walk she took to Zix.
[SPEAKER_05]: It was so cold and she didn't wear the proper clothing because she didn't think she was going to be waiting outside for so long and the walk was so quiet and it was
[SPEAKER_05]: So much of just things that had been happening, you know, there were times we were supposed to go to the movies together.
[SPEAKER_05]: We're just hang out, L-ZX.
[SPEAKER_05]: And Harvey said he would come and then he didn't.
[SPEAKER_05]: Harvey always said he had practice, so he couldn't hang out after school.
[SPEAKER_05]: Harvey didn't sit with us at lunch.
[SPEAKER_05]: Harvey said hi once in the cafeteria.
[SPEAKER_05]: Then I stopped sitting in the cafeteria.
[SPEAKER_05]: And it was hard because we had existed so much of our lives together, and then all of a sudden we weren't.
[SPEAKER_05]: And I know he was busy and I know he was doing sports.
[SPEAKER_05]: But I thought he cared enough, staying out with us, and then he left me outside in the cold.
[SPEAKER_05]: And we were supposed to go watch movies.
[SPEAKER_05]: He know I didn't want to be at that dance.
[SPEAKER_05]: He knows how much this meant for her and how much I didn't want to be there and how much that this hang out afterwards was gonna mean for me.
[SPEAKER_05]: And he didn't show.
[SPEAKER_01]: You are thinking these things and the last thought you have for a moment is he didn't show and you're about to bounce the next thought.
[SPEAKER_01]: You fill a hand on your shoulder and it's heavy and it's cruel but nonetheless it's on you.
[SPEAKER_01]: You've accepted it and you hear it because he doesn't care.
[SPEAKER_00]: But that's okay, because we're all here, and we'll all care together.
[SPEAKER_00]: I've had eventually.
[SPEAKER_01]: We can remind them all to care once there's enough of us here.
[SPEAKER_00]: You feel that pressure and doom of the door open, you begin to walk in.
[SPEAKER_00]: Back to you guys.
[SPEAKER_01]: Harvey, you've had the first moment of, like, is that down there?
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: Oh.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke, the elevator stopped, but it hasn't come back down yet.
[SPEAKER_01]: You know, they've gone to the ninth floor.
[SPEAKER_01]: What do you do?
[SPEAKER_03]: Um, I'm going to call the elevator.
[SPEAKER_01]: You, uh, you click it.
[SPEAKER_01]: You've just stepped out this weight as long as shoulders.
[SPEAKER_01]: And it closes.
[SPEAKER_01]: And because we're going down here.
[SPEAKER_01]: Fufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufufuf
[SPEAKER_01]: Let's go.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you, this is the second time now, that this thing that's offering you this place to rest has had pods.
[SPEAKER_01]: I don't know, is it rolling forwardly, huh?
[SPEAKER_01]: You're walking toward your room.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's coming down, it's taking its time.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's an old elevator.
[SPEAKER_01]: You walk four paces to the fourth room on the right hand side.
[SPEAKER_01]: you open it.
[SPEAKER_01]: You go in.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's a room for just a moment as you step in.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's just the long strip of road that you have to take to get into the cul-de-sax and you sit on a bench.
[SPEAKER_01]: I think you did sit on a bench for a bit.
[SPEAKER_01]: Your feet were sore.
[SPEAKER_01]: You were stupid.
[SPEAKER_01]: They were new and you wore the and you knew you shouldn't have, but also you weren't supposed to walk all the way to Ziggs and you sit
[SPEAKER_01]: are there alone.
[SPEAKER_01]: All come back.
[SPEAKER_01]: Once all the rooms are full, and then we can teach everybody just how lonely things can be.
[SPEAKER_00]: But for now, just know that you have neighbors to your left, to your right, and across the way.
[SPEAKER_00]: The door closes.
[SPEAKER_01]: opens, you get it, this elevator has come down.
[SPEAKER_01]: I will note, Zeke did not push the elevator, button, Zeke stood there, the elevator button turned on, and then it came down.
[SPEAKER_01]: You push into your dream.
[SPEAKER_01]: The two of you get into this elevator, yes?
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: You click nine.
[SPEAKER_01]: Well, you don't click nine.
[SPEAKER_01]: In your dream, you click nine, you see Zeke pointedly, not click nine,
[SPEAKER_01]: There's no one here.
[SPEAKER_03]: Is he what do you want to do?
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm going to step out to the hallway.
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm just kind of looking each direction and see.
[SPEAKER_03]: Is there's anything that stands out?
[SPEAKER_03]: Roll me.
[SPEAKER_03]: Roll me something.
[SPEAKER_03]: I guess I'll go brain again.
[SPEAKER_01]: 10 the real again.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke's been on fire three 13 you again this a similar and you you feel it again Havi similar to when Zeke moved and then landed as if something had helped him Zeke begins walking and then I think you even see it for just a moment, Havi
[SPEAKER_01]: the buzz of the lights, not unlike the buzz of the lights when you first left where your journey inside of the gas station are irritating you and you hear it for a second and you're like, and then I'm the same kind of lights, but you hear that buzzing that electricity, and you see this outline of
[SPEAKER_01]: It's hands, and they're see through, they're clear, you can't see them, but you see them for just a second, you perceive them maybe.
[SPEAKER_01]: Maybe it's a mixture of sound and scent and even taste of stale air, but you see this amalgamation, this corridor of hands slowly grabbing and gently pushing
[SPEAKER_01]: you are following behind Havi or if you let go of the rope again.
[SPEAKER_04]: No, I'm following.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're following behind Havi, you feel...
[SPEAKER_01]: air you know a night you know walking yes yeah walking you begin walking in and it's as for you it's this long strip of street you've never been here you know the street but you've never been in this moment the rope snaps and the door closes have a year outside
[SPEAKER_01]: Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
[SPEAKER_01]: And I will note that when the voice started, it was soft, and that it quickly became crude.
[SPEAKER_01]: That doesn't matter who you and why are you here.
[SPEAKER_04]: I'm just looking for my friend.
[SPEAKER_01]: I want you to make me, how do you, how do you prevent something from reading your soul from touching your spirit?
[SPEAKER_04]: I run away from it and use flight.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, we're going to try to take off Me or mentally run away from me close it Give me a flight roll.
[SPEAKER_01]: I love Taylor trying to come up with how she can use flight Well, it's like yeah, it's good.
[SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, it's just he runs away from stuff.
[SPEAKER_01]: He has no great emotionally You run away from it.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's not the first time It's a four on the die You feel
[SPEAKER_01]: to hands, kind of, grip what you can only perceive as your emotions.
[SPEAKER_01]: Oh, you are not lonely.
[SPEAKER_04]: What?
[SPEAKER_01]: You are here for your friend.
[SPEAKER_01]: Because you left her?
[SPEAKER_01]: What?
[SPEAKER_01]: How else would she end up here?
[SPEAKER_01]: How else would your friends end up here?
[SPEAKER_01]: We were all here.
[SPEAKER_01]: We're, we're taking an app, she's sleepwalks and then for a second you hear a voice and this thing has taken on a voice my own son can't even
[SPEAKER_01]: you're going to play college ball and that is final.
[SPEAKER_01]: I understand there's pressure involved.
[SPEAKER_01]: I understand that your mother says these things, but none of that matters how the area because you have the physicality.
[SPEAKER_01]: You have the strength.
[SPEAKER_01]: You have the athleticism.
[SPEAKER_01]: You can get a college degree faster than any of your friends by
[SPEAKER_01]: Shooting a basket.
[SPEAKER_01]: Do you understand that hobby air?
[SPEAKER_01]: I don't care what you want to do.
[SPEAKER_04]: Are we just shot into this like memory?
[SPEAKER_01]: Oh, you're not in the memory.
[SPEAKER_01]: This voice is saying.
[SPEAKER_01]: Okay, as you and I'll say these are Boy, you're not in a memory.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're standing in this hallway being berated by your father again or your father's voice with words He has used.
[SPEAKER_01]: I do not care.
[SPEAKER_01]: Havier Your better than that your better be better
[SPEAKER_01]: your door slam.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you feel that isolation of being left in your room up to being reamed for no reason.
[SPEAKER_01]: But you're still not alone, have you?
[SPEAKER_01]: Those things were said to you and you're still not alone.
[SPEAKER_01]: Do you know why?
[SPEAKER_01]: Because no one left you.
[SPEAKER_01]: No one left you behind.
[SPEAKER_01]: You left them.
[SPEAKER_01]: You have to pick right and you end it up halfway in between both.
[SPEAKER_01]: And what does that make you?
[SPEAKER_01]: Someone who's need doesn't actually hurt.
[SPEAKER_01]: Someone who pretends to be hurt, so they don't have to face anything.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're halfway between two things that could make you great, meaning you're nothing.
[SPEAKER_01]: And your dad knows it, and you know it, and every single person you've ever met knows it.
[SPEAKER_04]: I think he's crumbling in on himself.
[SPEAKER_04]: 100% sinking to the floor, just like just full on panic attack.
[SPEAKER_01]: sit there and think about it.
[SPEAKER_01]: And when you're done, I'll let you leave.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you can continue with your nothing life.
[SPEAKER_01]: You are no threat to what I have here because you're nothing.
[SPEAKER_01]: When you're done crying, go press for the ground floor and you can go.
[SPEAKER_01]: And then there's just a silence.
[SPEAKER_01]: Ziki walked in or walked down this road now a bit and you see your friends sitting on the cement bench that she sat on for a moment on her way and you pretty quickly know now that this is her memory of a night you have memories of also but in a different way because they're your memories
[SPEAKER_01]: Climb you, just look up and you see in the distance and you feel the warmth of Zik who you felt the warmth of them because he's your friend before and Zik is funny and boisterous and brings too much in his bag of camping and you see his outline but not.
[SPEAKER_01]: See, how do you present yourself here?
[SPEAKER_01]: Are you in this memory with Clim or are you an intruder on this memory?
[SPEAKER_01]: Are you presenting yourself, is Zik so in this memory that he's coming as Zik that night or is Zik coming in to find Clim?
[SPEAKER_03]: Um, yeah, I think he's coming in as an intruder.
[SPEAKER_01]: He's coming in to find Clim.
[SPEAKER_01]: You see the outline of an older Zeke.
[SPEAKER_01]: A Zeke, you know.
[SPEAKER_01]: And even though you're in this memory, you're stuck here, you're just like it there.
[SPEAKER_01]: And it, you begin searching.
[SPEAKER_01]: And there's little pieces missing in your brain, but you're reaching out to it and you know that this isn't the only night that exists.
[SPEAKER_01]: But it feels that way and you see Zeke, but you still feel that wait.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you're here because you're supposed to be because you're alone, Clim.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're walking down the street towards Climmy Seacum.
[SPEAKER_03]: You do?
[SPEAKER_03]: Um, oh, I'm good at it.
[SPEAKER_03]: Kind of wave me a climb, and I'm gonna start picking up the pace to get to her.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're doing this little trot.
[SPEAKER_05]: I think, um, from that night, I sat here.
[SPEAKER_05]: And the light started flickering, like it was about to go out, and that's why I got up and started walking again.
[SPEAKER_05]: I think it started doing that again, and I get up and I start walking.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, you're walking, um, down this way.
[SPEAKER_01]: See, you see, come walking away.
[SPEAKER_01]: The light flickers for just a moment.
[SPEAKER_03]: You pick up the pace a little more, start picking up like, and you're just walking, yeah.
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah, I'm just walking, and I think I think I'm conscious of someone calling out to me being like, hey, I think I pick up the pace slightly, but I don't acknowledge it.
[SPEAKER_03]: Oh, hopefully he doesn't think I'm chasing her.
[SPEAKER_03]: This is a man.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: You closed the distance fairly quickly.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're moving much faster than clay.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: I'm going to start like running.
[SPEAKER_01]: You start to be like, I'm going to be like, I'm quickly into this moment.
[SPEAKER_01]: You hear Zeke's voice yell out to you.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke, do you reach for climbers?
[SPEAKER_01]: You closed that distance?
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm just going to try to touch your shoulder.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: You feel a hand grab your shoulder.
[SPEAKER_01]: And it's not that heavy hand.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's a hand of a friend.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you're still here, but you're not alone here for the moment.
[SPEAKER_01]: Do you turn around?
[SPEAKER_05]: You have to roll!
[SPEAKER_05]: I'll just turn around.
[SPEAKER_05]: Even, I don't.
[SPEAKER_01]: You stand there, hand on your shoulder.
[SPEAKER_01]: Clim hasn't turned around.
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm gonna kind of look around and be like, just say, like, well, I'm, I'll walk with you to my house then.
[SPEAKER_03]: So you're not alone.
[SPEAKER_03]: And I'm just going to kind of follow her.
[SPEAKER_03]: There's kind of going to be close by, so she can still hear my footsteps there, even if she's not going to follow.
[SPEAKER_05]: Because I have envisioned this night so many times in my head in which someone would join me on this walk.
[SPEAKER_01]: and you walk.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're still walking in.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: You just both of you walk.
[SPEAKER_03]: Like every now and then I was like, I'm chilling night and for you guys.
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, because I think it's kind of like real quiet.
[SPEAKER_03]: He's kind of uncomfortable with the quiet.
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, it's just like big and little comments.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, you guys walk and everyone's all you'll hear these little little tidbits from the week, but there's that bit of lightness every time.
[SPEAKER_01]: Because the week brings a bit of levity.
[SPEAKER_01]: But you walk and you just walk for longer than this road actually is in your hometown.
[SPEAKER_01]: Back outside, you've closed it on yourself, Harvey.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, I'm on the floor.
[SPEAKER_04]: Hands and knees, just like,
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, trying to catch your breath.
[SPEAKER_01]: You feel is it's present still here.
[SPEAKER_01]: You know it hasn't left But it's left you Harvey How do you stop these when this happens you've had panic attacks before games before?
[SPEAKER_01]: You probably had one that night when three hours had gone by and you realized you were in an after party and you were supposed to drive with a club somewhere and I think you ran outside and freaked out and then went home.
[SPEAKER_01]: Did you go by six place?
[SPEAKER_01]: You walk that way.
[SPEAKER_04]: I don't think so.
[SPEAKER_01]: You've had these before.
[SPEAKER_01]: How do you handle them?
[SPEAKER_01]: Or do you?
[SPEAKER_04]: I don't.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're sitting there and this might be the worst one.
[SPEAKER_01]: You felt this way before when your dad said those things to you, but you weren't in a memory, something else that touched your soul said these things to you.
[SPEAKER_01]: And then on top of that, this journey that's been a lot, but at least has been fun, has been,
[SPEAKER_01]: have that little juxtaposition of the fact that you don't call Amanda club and you don't know why everyone else does and everyone's all you look at Amanda expecting her to know what you're thinking and she doesn't.
[SPEAKER_01]: and you're sitting here recognizing that not only do you feel like nothing, but the people that could help you feel better are in that room stuck.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're breathing heavy in your heart hurts.
[SPEAKER_01]: And I would like you to roll a
[SPEAKER_01]: they they feel like bad electricity you can't move them they tingle and they hurt and they're almost limp and you're at this point you're not on all fours on your hands you're on your like elbows you're on your forearms breathing and you begin to heave you can't stop it all your body is trying to get rid of this feeling of this weight of this pressure and you feel
[SPEAKER_01]: what you'd seen before, or what you'd perceived before, you feel hands on you, you feel one kind of cos it's fingers around yours as they're kind of open to the sides as you're on your elbows, and you just feel multiple hands and they're not levelant.
[SPEAKER_01]: They're not the thing that said this to you.
[SPEAKER_01]: There, has their touching you, has their hands or wrapping around your ankle and put it on your shoulders and there's someone in your chest moving with your breath and you feel them putting pressure to slow your breath's down and they're so, so lonely.
[SPEAKER_01]: Every single one of these hands.
[SPEAKER_01]: But they're still here holding you.
[SPEAKER_01]: They all are in so much pain.
[SPEAKER_04]: He's like, oh, stop!
[SPEAKER_04]: He's like, like, he just can't, can't fath of it.
[SPEAKER_01]: Like, it's just, it's, they push you up right and sit you down and slide you against the wall.
[SPEAKER_01]: And again, you're still freaking out telling them to stop.
[SPEAKER_01]: And again, you feel all their emotions.
[SPEAKER_01]: They hurt just like you do, but they're still holding you.
[SPEAKER_01]: Some of them hurt more than you do and they're still holding you.
[SPEAKER_01]: you cry.
[SPEAKER_01]: And then you just think how have you been able to piece together parts of what's going on?
[SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, I think he's there fully.
[SPEAKER_04]: And it's that thing of like, he never wants to think about it.
[SPEAKER_04]: So why would that be the case if he's, you know, and it's just, and it can't be.
[SPEAKER_01]: How do you, if you could, or if you had the chance to undo that, would you?
[SPEAKER_04]: See, that's a question.
[SPEAKER_04]: Think of it from his point of view.
[SPEAKER_04]: He, you know, went to homecoming.
[SPEAKER_04]: He's getting noticed by all the varsity seniors.
[SPEAKER_04]: His dad's going to be so happy that he's hanging out with them.
[SPEAKER_04]: Maybe they can get him in next season, right?
[SPEAKER_04]: This is his big break.
[SPEAKER_04]: Finally, you know, his dad's going to get off his back.
[SPEAKER_04]: He's going to, he's going to do this.
[SPEAKER_04]: He's going to be great.
[SPEAKER_04]: He's going to do the things that his dad wants him to do.
[SPEAKER_04]: and then he'll go fuck off and play college basketball who gives a shit and it'll be over and it'll be fine and it'll be great and they're nice and John's kind of cute and this is fun I'm having a fun time so much fun that I'm forgetting everything that I'm supposed to be doing and I don't know if I ever want to not have that.
[SPEAKER_01]: You think about that, and the fact that there were nice moments regardless on either side of where you ended up in the middle of.
[SPEAKER_01]: Havi, do you really, really believe that you're nothing?
[SPEAKER_04]: I think...
[SPEAKER_04]: He, he doesn't think that he's nothing, right?
[SPEAKER_04]: But he does believe that people believe that he's nothing.
[SPEAKER_04]: And that's enough.
[SPEAKER_01]: You sit here, just way down, thinking about how you're so sad that that night went the way it did, because there's a way you could have handled it, I'm sure, that could have been better.
[SPEAKER_01]: You've got your breath back to yourself.
[SPEAKER_01]: The hands help you up.
[SPEAKER_01]: You feel the hands grip you and pull you up.
[SPEAKER_01]: Do you go to the elevator?
[SPEAKER_04]: Well now, what do you do that?
[SPEAKER_04]: Stance there for a little bit.
[SPEAKER_04]: You can't just leave.
[SPEAKER_04]: Well, what do I think if I, I don't have a car first of all, what am I going to do?
[SPEAKER_04]: I'm going to go out there and, and what?
[SPEAKER_04]: At least I have like a chance with something again with my friends here, you know.
[SPEAKER_04]: I go back out there, I'm alone, my dad doesn't want me.
[SPEAKER_04]: I don't even think if I call, he'd pick up if I needed it.
[SPEAKER_04]: I think you just like kind of just slowly, slowly just walk you towards the door.
[SPEAKER_04]: Snuck you.
[SPEAKER_04]: Really, weekly.
[SPEAKER_01]: You two have walked for quite some time.
[SPEAKER_01]: Still not turned around.
[SPEAKER_05]: No.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke, you just walk with her.
[SPEAKER_01]: Make your little comments from time to time.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke, I would like you to give me
[SPEAKER_01]: Another role for your spirit, your soul, what you've been doing here.
[SPEAKER_03]: Nothing, grit.
[SPEAKER_01]: Eight.
[SPEAKER_01]: This walk should be forever and you know because you were in that Tundra before but here you don't know how you don't know if it's you were clamped But you know you see your house.
[SPEAKER_01]: You see the cul-de-sac you would dip into to walk towards your house Clim that's the way you would walk you haven't walked infinitely here yet You don't know what this place supposed to be are you just taking the road you took to get there?
[UNKNOWN]: Yeah
[SPEAKER_03]: I think I'm gonna make a comment like, oh, finally, rumble's there.
[SPEAKER_05]: I think she, like, mindlessly sort of sniffles and is like, to what movies do you have?
[SPEAKER_03]: Oh, yeah, that was a couple.
[SPEAKER_03]: I thought we'd watch some older stuff.
[SPEAKER_03]: I thought I was, I don't know, I was like in this cowboy mood recently.
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm watching some cowboy movies.
[SPEAKER_03]: I thought that would be fun.
[SPEAKER_03]: We'll spaghetti Westerns.
[SPEAKER_05]: cowboys.
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, they're always fun.
[SPEAKER_03]: They write in the town and then there's some problem and then they solve the problem and then they leave.
[SPEAKER_03]: It's just the fun, you know, it's just fun.
[SPEAKER_05]: Oh, I guess you're right.
[SPEAKER_01]: So yeah, you guys get to the door.
[SPEAKER_01]: You just talked about your westerns.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke you walk in.
[SPEAKER_01]: You see for a moment that there's that you and you hear the joke get made, but quickly you kind of become one in this space.
[SPEAKER_01]: It can't be too zeaks in this memory.
[SPEAKER_01]: you put the movies on?
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: You guys sit down and you start getting the popcorn.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're kind of just doing meander talk, I think.
[SPEAKER_01]: I don't think you straight up vomit out while you're upset or might walk.
[SPEAKER_01]: Do you just do little bits here and there?
[SPEAKER_01]: You guys have sat popcorn made, snacks out, drinks out, movie on, and you hear a knock on the back of the door, and you all know what hobbies knock, and I was like, because he was the heaviest hand.
[SPEAKER_01]: And even though he's a delicate boy, he's still such a clumsy giant asshole, and he... Buh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-
[SPEAKER_03]: I think I'll look to Clem to let her decide and I'm gonna stand up.
[SPEAKER_03]: It's like I'm gonna go open the door, but I'm gonna look to Clem if she wants me to.
[SPEAKER_05]: Um, I think I give you that sort of look, or it's like, yeah, you can go ahead and open the door.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, so I'll go and open the door.
[SPEAKER_01]: You open the door.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're still in this dream, you're still in this moment.
[SPEAKER_01]: Havi, the door opens you see now.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke, blood has now covered his mouth from his nose, and you see bits of blood coming on of his eyes.
[SPEAKER_01]: You see his eyes have turned mostly red from like little burst blood vessels.
[SPEAKER_01]: Whatever Zeke has been doing in the sleepwalk, whatever has been going on is hurting him.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you see the edge of the bed comes feet.
[SPEAKER_01]: You see her shoes that she's been wearing on the trip.
[SPEAKER_01]: you've seen a scene like this, except the body was so, so thin and weak, what do you do?
[SPEAKER_04]: I think I, well, first, I've got to wake Zeke up because, yeah, on this cave, and good for his noggin.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke, you fill yourself being shaken and you know now that there's this place and there's that place and right now you've been in between.
[SPEAKER_01]: Uh, what does Zeke do?
[SPEAKER_03]: I think I'm gonna try to stay and do it.
[SPEAKER_03]: So I'm gonna try to like, just put- I'm not like, violently push him back, but I'm just gonna kind of like push him back a little.
[SPEAKER_01]: You feel Zeke's hand kind of press onto you and so, so similar to the hands that have helped you up and forced your breath to go back to normal, it is heavy and weighted, but there for you but Zeke has stopped you from doing what you were doing
[SPEAKER_04]: Seek, I'm just gonna take funny, you're bleeding, I'm just like, I'm gonna try again, that's sick.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, you hear kind of this distant like, you hear that voice distantly, you hear, you hear, you're bleeding, but it's so far, and you feel you should get shaken again.
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, I think since I'm kind of in this, in between state, I think I'll feel my face and see the blood and then I'll wake up.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, you come to, and the minute you're like, you just collapse.
[SPEAKER_01]: Your body has really had a toll put on it.
[SPEAKER_01]: Had a strain to put on it, and you're just kind of, you're awake, but like, blood has come out of your nose all over your face, your eyes have been dripping a bit of blood in here at this point, and you're just kind of sitting in the hallway.
[SPEAKER_01]: or in this like in between like the room entrance area yeah you see hobby standing there a hobby has these puffy like red eyes a little bit of like clearly like like glossy face from like crying and like freaking out shit dude what's going on
[SPEAKER_01]: things got weird and you're bleeding and is that clump yeah yeah I think I'm gonna start like wiping my face like with my with my shirt like yeah yeah it's it's clump we should we should try to get her out of here you kind of move to get up a bit zique in your arms and legs are a little weaker than you expected I think you just sloped down for a moment um hobby clumps over on the bed zique just said I think we need to get her out of here
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, you walk over, um, grab her.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, you put your hand on her.
[SPEAKER_01]: Clim that door got opened and Havi, no one was there for a moment and then Zeke is young Zeke again.
[SPEAKER_01]: And then next to you on this like old dingy couch that's in the dead.
[SPEAKER_01]: you feel heavy.
[SPEAKER_01]: And then you feel as hand on your arm and have your as you grab clam are here.
[SPEAKER_01]: You've been pulled into this.
[SPEAKER_01]: You've been in this den before, but not on this night.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you see young clam who's mascaraed and hold up as much as she'd like, she'd have liked it too.
[SPEAKER_01]: No.
[SPEAKER_01]: And she sees you, but you see adult
[SPEAKER_05]: I think she's at the edge of this couch doing that thing of like having her back towards you and like not looking at you.
[SPEAKER_05]: She sniffles.
[SPEAKER_04]: Looking at his hair.
[SPEAKER_04]: I think we should, we have to leave.
[SPEAKER_04]: Where were you?
[SPEAKER_04]: Some of the guys we're talking about going to an after party and I drove.
[SPEAKER_04]: It was cold.
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm going to say that you're a busier something.
[SPEAKER_04]: I just got caught up.
[SPEAKER_04]: You know?
[SPEAKER_05]: You usually do.
[SPEAKER_05]: You know I didn't want to be there.
[SPEAKER_04]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_04]: I'm not...
[SPEAKER_04]: I...
[SPEAKER_04]: I'd say, I'm sorry, but I don't think it matters because it happened, and it already happened.
[SPEAKER_05]: I just want to know why you didn't talk to us after.
[SPEAKER_05]: You just kind of disappeared.
[SPEAKER_04]: You know?
[SPEAKER_04]: Always busy.
[SPEAKER_04]: didn't think he wanted to talk to me.
[SPEAKER_05]: He thought it'd be better if he just left.
[SPEAKER_05]: Wasn't it?
[SPEAKER_04]: Do you think it was?
[SPEAKER_04]: I don't know.
[SPEAKER_04]: You guys kind of start hanging around other people.
[SPEAKER_04]: You'd everyone called you Clim.
[SPEAKER_04]: I didn't know why I didn't really understand that.
[SPEAKER_04]: And I just thought, well, that's it.
[SPEAKER_05]: Do you think our time meant so little that I wouldn't have said hi to you again?
[SPEAKER_05]: Talk to you again?
[SPEAKER_05]: It's not like it was something we couldn't have talked out.
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah, but I'm stupid.
[SPEAKER_05]: I thought you just didn't like us anymore.
[SPEAKER_05]: No.
[SPEAKER_04]: I just thought you didn't like me anymore.
[SPEAKER_04]: And I didn't really know how to fix it.
[SPEAKER_04]: And I had things I needed to do and I failed at that too.
[SPEAKER_04]: So...
[SPEAKER_05]: I showed up here at graduation.
[SPEAKER_05]: My mom sent you soup after you're knee got hurt.
[SPEAKER_05]: Those aren't the signs of someone who hates you.
[SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, maybe I'm just... Maybe I wanted you too.
[SPEAKER_01]: As you say that, you wanted, come to hate you, you wanted to hate you.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zee, you've...
[SPEAKER_01]: bloody nose, you've wiped your face a bit, you kind of sit there like, man, this is wild.
[SPEAKER_01]: You see how they walk over and grab a climb and it's now kind of frozen there.
[SPEAKER_01]: You know, you remember what's going on, what do you want to do?
[SPEAKER_03]: Um, I think I'm gonna, alright.
[SPEAKER_01]: Can I move like or am I to like yeah, I think you crawl a bit like you're maybe you're like the stand up a little bit take a couple stuff Like oh, I take it back down.
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, I think I'm just gonna kind of push myself to the to the door and kind of like just sort of look out and look around at these Hulls and then I'm gonna just yell back To to hobby you like hobby you need to get her out of there
[SPEAKER_01]: you hear it, uh, you hear Zeke's voice talking to you in the space.
[SPEAKER_01]: You remember, I think you forgot that you weren't here.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you remember, like, oh, yeah, we're here.
[SPEAKER_01]: Like, I need, we need to go.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zeke, you, after yelling that, remember that Sarah had to go with you.
[SPEAKER_01]: You had to talk to her and get her to leave, and you don't know how long Sarah had been there.
[SPEAKER_01]: It's not like just yanking someone out.
[SPEAKER_03]: You know, I'm gonna, I mean, it's gonna go like, just, just apologize, say you're sorry.
[SPEAKER_04]: Back to you guys.
[SPEAKER_04]: Why?
[SPEAKER_04]: I don't know.
[SPEAKER_04]: That's who.
[SPEAKER_04]: I guess no one.
[SPEAKER_04]: Or maybe everyone?
[SPEAKER_04]: I don't know.
[SPEAKER_04]: I think I have a lot of shit I need to work out.
[SPEAKER_04]: And I can't do it without you, where's Eek?
[SPEAKER_04]: So can we like...
[SPEAKER_04]: He's like, oh well, he like, can we like fix this when we're out of here?
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_01]: You are back in the room.
[SPEAKER_01]: Harvey, Clim is still laying there.
[SPEAKER_01]: She said, yeah, about getting out of there.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you look at her.
[SPEAKER_01]: Clim, what's after saying yes?
[SPEAKER_01]: And you're back in your body, you're back in the space, you're not in that night anymore.
[SPEAKER_01]: What's the first thought you have?
[SPEAKER_05]: I think the first thought I have is us back at summer camp.
[SPEAKER_05]: That first time we went together.
[SPEAKER_05]: And how scary it was.
[SPEAKER_05]: to be told to go to a cabin line and pick a cabin line and how Zeex suggested that we go to the Golden Trout and how Zeex made that kid super embarrassed so he would go to another line and how we spent that whole summer together and how it was kind of weird but magnets I guess and how we
[SPEAKER_05]: And how I miss it?
[SPEAKER_01]: Harvey, you look down at your friend who's sleeping maybe in still some kind of fugues say you're not quite sure, but for the first time and such a long time.
[SPEAKER_01]: what she is thinking is what you were thinking, and you feel it all kind of flood in for a moment.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you're not sure if this is a thing that's gonna go back to normal, but you know that this is at least a doorway, and you wake up, Clem.
[SPEAKER_01]: You know you're sharing that thought for just a second, and then it's gone for both of you, and you're in this room, and the lights.
[SPEAKER_01]: I'll begin shaking the doors.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're gonna rumbling.
[SPEAKER_01]: Zik, you're lifted up a bit and I don't know if dream Zik remembers I don't know if I'll wake Zik remembers, but you've been getting guided you've been getting helped and suddenly you feel hands-cracking you and lifting you up You're stood up and held right and then kind of given like a little shove towards the Elevator What do you guys do?
[SPEAKER_01]: I'm gonna start hanging a little bit like, let's get out of here, let's get out of here, let's get out of here Yeah, yeah Zeke stumbles I fell home Yeah, I'm around your shoulder Clim, you're running up behind them
[SPEAKER_01]: Everything's quaking and shaking, and you all for a moment feel that pressure on your shoulders.
[SPEAKER_01]: There's a moment where you're reaching for Zik, Zik, you're the front but stumbling.
[SPEAKER_01]: Amanda, you're just behind, because Harvey's moving to grab Zik, and for a second, a split second, you're all not in line together, you're all not in stepped together, and you all feel that weight and feel that pressure.
[SPEAKER_01]: and feel the isolation, and then the minute your hand touches Zeeek's wrist, Zeeek, your light again, your and your body again, that weight is gone.
[SPEAKER_01]: Havi, you throw Zeeek over your shoulder and the weight pressing you down of isolation is gone as the weight of Zeeek has replaced it, and Amanda, your the last person in line, they're just ahead of you.
[SPEAKER_01]: You've agreed to go.
[SPEAKER_01]: You see them.
[SPEAKER_01]: You feel that weight, what do you do?
[SPEAKER_05]: Um, I think after I see hobby, like help seek up, I think I try to go for his other side.
[SPEAKER_01]: your two steps to Zika are maybe the hardest steps you have ever taken and you've taken a lot of hard steps.
[SPEAKER_01]: You've had a lot of hard walks and a lot of shitty things occur.
[SPEAKER_01]: But you make those steps.
[SPEAKER_01]: You grab Zika's wrist.
[SPEAKER_01]: You throw him over your shoulder and similarly, that weight that you felt is replaced by the weight of your friend and the three of you make it
[SPEAKER_01]: yeah yeah you click it you get any quick ground floor it goes and the elevator itself quakes the lights all flicker you three all know that whatever this has been or whatever this is it cannot do anything to you that you cannot do to yourself
[SPEAKER_01]: and the wind opens on the ground floor, it's what you can tell is like the back half of some kind of like maybe like worker room and you walk out into it and the door closes and then you see as it closes what's there is wall.
[SPEAKER_01]: The front of these two sliding doors is made to look like a wall.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you recognize now that this elevator is just hidden.
[SPEAKER_01]: Similarly, there's everything else about that backside of the hotel's hidden.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you hear bustling just outside.
[SPEAKER_01]: You hear a kitchen.
[SPEAKER_01]: You hear workers.
[SPEAKER_01]: And you know that you're on the ground floor.
[SPEAKER_03]: I think we're good, and I'm gonna start wiping my face and there's like blood, I'm just like smearing it all over my face, so I'm trying to clean myself.
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah, that, I like grab my like sleeves, I like roll it back up and like try to get some blood off your face.
[SPEAKER_03]: Well, that was crazy, right?
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah, that was bad.
[SPEAKER_05]: We should get out of here.
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, let's find another hotel.
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah, let's find another hotel.
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, let's find another hotel.
[SPEAKER_03]: Let's find another hotel.
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah, let's find another hotel.
[SPEAKER_05]: Let's find another hotel.
[SPEAKER_03]: Let's find another hotel.
[SPEAKER_01]: Let's find another hotel.
[SPEAKER_01]: Run upstairs, really quickly.
[SPEAKER_01]: You grab your stuff.
[SPEAKER_01]: I think you all like link ours together So you don't have to close the rope.
[SPEAKER_03]: That's still tight around.
[SPEAKER_03]: I think I untow you don't have to hold it.
[SPEAKER_01]: Like you don't have to hold your rope.
[SPEAKER_01]: You're all holding onto this rope You all quickly make your way up.
[SPEAKER_01]: You make your way out.
[SPEAKER_01]: The lady's like, I'm glad to see you all, you know, you're all heading out I'm gonna leave a bad one.
[SPEAKER_03]: You help exist.
[SPEAKER_04]: So I'm gonna read the pamphlet You should put an asterisk.
[SPEAKER_04]: You guys shouldn't be open
[SPEAKER_04]: He shouldn't be open.
[SPEAKER_03]: I put a note on my character.
[SPEAKER_01]: She read the pamphlet and you all gather your stuff You all make haste out of this place.
[SPEAKER_01]: It is now night time like middle of the night probably like almost 1 a.m. And you still head out into the night like no way every staying here and I think that's where we're gonna close off on this episode of 5 GM's in a trench coat
[SPEAKER_01]: Good morning Jesus Christ.
[SPEAKER_01]: I think this one can do it that the sign-off is yeah Thank you.
[SPEAKER_05]: Thanks for listening.
[SPEAKER_05]: I'll have sign-off on post.
[SPEAKER_05]: We're good.
[SPEAKER_01]: Bye.
[SPEAKER_01]: Wow, good upset guys.
[SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, I throw up and I died.
[SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, okay.
[SPEAKER_01]: Did you guys have fun?
[SPEAKER_01]: Those are fronies in the right way.
[SPEAKER_01]: That was a honkered dude.
[SPEAKER_04]: Yeah.
[SPEAKER_04]: Oh my god.
[SPEAKER_04]: I told you I was sorry Yeah, that was real real smoke.
[SPEAKER_01]: I was like him.
[SPEAKER_01]: Why am I crying?
[SPEAKER_01]: We're around like the halfway
[SPEAKER_05]: A special thank you to Supria, Soup, Remy, Badheo's podcast, Lee Carnell, Inkmaster, Theresa Jacino, and Imaginif Media for making 5 GM Season 5 from Inside The 10 Happen.