WEBVTT 00:00.304 --> 00:04.047 [SPEAKER_02]: Where P.G. 00:04.127 --> 00:04.707 [SPEAKER_02]: presents. 00:11.152 --> 00:11.572 [SPEAKER_02]: Where, where? 00:12.653 --> 00:13.434 [SPEAKER_02]: What the hell? 00:14.675 --> 00:15.896 [SPEAKER_02]: A new game showcase. 00:16.436 --> 00:18.838 [SPEAKER_01]: Harper, please, please let me in. 00:22.581 --> 00:22.941 [SPEAKER_02]: Harper? 00:29.552 --> 00:30.656 [SPEAKER_02]: What the hell happened to you? 00:30.676 --> 00:33.105 [SPEAKER_00]: However, please, please, please, please. 00:53.562 --> 00:55.022 [SPEAKER_02]: This is a game about love. 00:55.943 --> 00:56.923 [SPEAKER_02]: I am still human. 00:57.523 --> 00:58.684 [SPEAKER_01]: This is a game about love. 00:59.464 --> 01:01.845 [SPEAKER_01]: The last time you saw me, I was human. 01:02.945 --> 01:03.725 [SPEAKER_01]: I am a vampire. 01:04.185 --> 01:07.206 [SPEAKER_01]: In mere hours, the sun will rise, and I will buy. 01:07.686 --> 01:10.007 [SPEAKER_01]: Unless you invite me in. 01:10.447 --> 01:14.048 [SPEAKER_02]: We will now find the card that reads sunrise in each of our decks. 01:14.869 --> 01:19.330 [SPEAKER_02]: We will remove this card, shuffle our prompt cards, and place our decks face down. 01:19.750 --> 01:23.733 [SPEAKER_02]: We then place our sunrise cards on the bottom of our respective decks. 01:24.374 --> 01:28.237 [SPEAKER_02]: At the end of the game, we will flip our decks over and read our sunrise cards. 01:28.757 --> 01:33.141 [SPEAKER_01]: We will take turns, beginning with me, drawing cards and responding to prompts. 01:33.761 --> 01:37.524 [SPEAKER_01]: Most cards are questions or statements spoken aloud to the other player. 01:38.465 --> 01:41.566 [SPEAKER_01]: When you read a prompt, I respond and vice versa. 01:42.086 --> 01:45.327 [SPEAKER_02]: Some cards will say read silently at the top. 01:46.148 --> 01:50.069 [SPEAKER_02]: These will be read silently, prompting a thought or feeling about the other. 01:50.889 --> 01:53.570 [SPEAKER_02]: We may speak if compelled after reading these cards. 01:54.095 --> 01:59.820 [SPEAKER_01]: When responding to prompt cards, we can ask follow-up questions, respond freely, and linger in the silence. 02:00.680 --> 02:05.744 [SPEAKER_01]: We might establish truths about each other's characters, our relationship, and the world around us. 02:06.205 --> 02:10.268 [SPEAKER_01]: We will let the conversation flow into a natural pause, then draw a new card. 02:10.608 --> 02:13.610 [SPEAKER_02]: The following two cards will be read silently by each of us. 02:14.491 --> 02:15.692 [SPEAKER_02]: Look at me when you are finished. 02:16.293 --> 02:19.035 [SPEAKER_02]: When we next make, I contact the story begins. 02:20.370 --> 02:22.051 [SPEAKER_02]: Are you against becoming a vampire? 02:23.072 --> 02:24.533 [SPEAKER_02]: What are you afraid of losing? 02:25.174 --> 02:30.117 [SPEAKER_02]: You may choose to reveal this to your partner during play or hold onto it until the bitter end. 02:30.778 --> 02:34.240 [SPEAKER_01]: Did you choose to become a vampire or did it happen to you? 02:35.321 --> 02:39.645 [SPEAKER_01]: You may choose to reveal this to your partner or hold onto it until the bitter end. 02:40.505 --> 02:43.307 [SPEAKER_02]: At the end of the game, I will be presented with a question. 02:44.428 --> 02:45.728 [SPEAKER_02]: do you invite them in? 02:46.429 --> 02:48.509 [SPEAKER_02]: My answer to this is entirely up to me. 02:49.669 --> 02:51.690 [SPEAKER_02]: I must then allow the vampire to end the game. 02:52.550 --> 02:58.031 [SPEAKER_01]: Throughout play, keep track of how many hunger cards the vampire encounters in a separate discard pile. 02:58.711 --> 03:03.593 [SPEAKER_01]: If I encounter four or more of these might even be in play, my monstrous nature takes over. 03:04.673 --> 03:08.854 [SPEAKER_01]: Should my partner invite me in, I will consume them, unable to control myself. 03:10.054 --> 03:14.015 [SPEAKER_01]: Whether or not I am invited in, it is up to me to end the game. 03:23.266 --> 03:24.547 [SPEAKER_02]: Why are you looking at me like that? 03:25.527 --> 03:32.890 [SPEAKER_02]: Because you're standing on the opposite side of my porch door looking a little crazed. 03:33.490 --> 03:40.893 [SPEAKER_01]: There may have been some recent developments in my biology. 03:41.814 --> 03:42.594 [SPEAKER_01]: You don't say. 03:43.539 --> 03:57.988 [SPEAKER_01]: Listen, I am happy to answer questions talk through this as much as we need to, but this son is going to come up in a bit and I'm a little, we're a little too far out from me to find any braids to shelter now. 03:58.488 --> 04:00.970 [SPEAKER_01]: So if you just let me in then we can talk and 04:02.531 --> 04:10.597 [SPEAKER_01]: I know I know how it looks and I know how I sound, like asking to be invited in with the chief and everything, but you know me. 04:11.178 --> 04:14.200 [SPEAKER_01]: So obviously, I don't have any intention to hurt you. 04:14.920 --> 04:15.621 [SPEAKER_01]: You sure about that? 04:16.302 --> 04:16.502 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah. 04:17.242 --> 04:18.123 [SPEAKER_01]: You're salivating. 04:18.843 --> 04:22.366 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm nervous because of the aforementioned sun. 04:22.386 --> 04:23.907 [SPEAKER_02]: And I've had a long night. 04:25.008 --> 04:26.249 [SPEAKER_01]: I'd like to just like to rest. 04:30.072 --> 04:31.253 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not going to open that door yet. 04:31.924 --> 04:32.204 [SPEAKER_01]: Okay. 04:33.124 --> 04:38.986 [SPEAKER_01]: What, what, what do you need in order to open it certainty? 04:40.186 --> 04:46.428 [SPEAKER_01]: Okay, uh, how would you like me to provide that? 04:47.468 --> 04:48.248 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't really know. 04:49.709 --> 04:53.970 [SPEAKER_02]: To be honest with you, Avery, would it help your mind do that I love you? 05:02.170 --> 05:06.452 [SPEAKER_02]: Their smell once such a comfort has changed into something animalistic. 05:10.573 --> 05:12.354 [SPEAKER_02]: What did you get into before you came over here? 05:13.194 --> 05:13.534 [SPEAKER_02]: Trouble? 05:14.334 --> 05:25.599 [SPEAKER_01]: So I got curious and hooked my nose where I shouldn't have and you were right. 05:26.339 --> 05:28.260 [SPEAKER_01]: There's some things that I don't need to know. 05:30.861 --> 05:33.684 [SPEAKER_01]: I couldn't help myself, and so I followed. 05:34.664 --> 05:39.549 [SPEAKER_01]: I was trying to get more information on how all these works. 05:40.409 --> 05:46.595 [SPEAKER_01]: And I thought that I was being safe and clever, but I got out smarted. 05:47.336 --> 05:53.701 [SPEAKER_02]: You know that perfume, you wear, like if it's like amber and cocoa or something? 05:54.162 --> 05:54.342 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah. 05:55.064 --> 05:58.706 [SPEAKER_02]: It's like warm and sweet and inviting. 05:59.206 --> 05:59.446 [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah. 06:00.407 --> 06:02.648 [SPEAKER_02]: You smell like the dog after he's molest squirrel. 06:03.728 --> 06:04.228 [SPEAKER_01]: All right. 06:04.809 --> 06:06.509 [SPEAKER_01]: Already had a rough night. 06:06.630 --> 06:08.991 [SPEAKER_01]: Don't need to be called stinky on top of it. 06:09.411 --> 06:10.631 [SPEAKER_01]: Well, you stink, Avery. 06:11.652 --> 06:13.953 [SPEAKER_02]: And a way that makes me want to hose you down outside. 06:13.973 --> 06:17.255 [SPEAKER_02]: The word you could let me in and I could take a shower. 06:17.935 --> 06:19.936 [SPEAKER_02]: No, you can air out for a bit, I think. 06:25.752 --> 06:28.593 [SPEAKER_01]: This card represents the hour's passing before sunrise. 06:29.273 --> 06:31.013 [SPEAKER_01]: The dark of the night hangs over us. 06:31.613 --> 06:33.074 [SPEAKER_01]: What do we hear in the quiet? 06:39.675 --> 06:51.578 [SPEAKER_02]: We're at the front door of Harper's trailer, which sits on a mode patch of lands within a bunch of wheat and corn fields. 06:55.905 --> 07:02.552 [SPEAKER_02]: The stalks, crickets, a dog barking far off somewhere. 07:05.796 --> 07:15.306 [SPEAKER_01]: Avery, here's not just all these things, but their senses are heightened almost to hang over a level where it's like 07:17.204 --> 07:18.284 [SPEAKER_01]: all the likes are too bright. 07:18.825 --> 07:22.026 [SPEAKER_01]: All the sounds are too sharp, even if they're not too loud. 07:22.906 --> 07:33.370 [SPEAKER_01]: And they hear towards the east, they can start hearing song birds in the far distance waking up, which normally is a welcome sound. 07:33.790 --> 07:42.553 [SPEAKER_01]: But right now it's a bit bone chilling because they know song birds are the herald of the sun and the sun is the herald of their end. 07:44.092 --> 07:51.577 [SPEAKER_01]: and they're also desperately trying to ignore the sounds of harbour's pulse. 08:04.966 --> 08:08.088 [SPEAKER_02]: What kind of future do you see for us? 08:10.089 --> 08:10.349 [SPEAKER_01]: I mean, 08:11.887 --> 08:12.727 [SPEAKER_01]: the same future. 08:13.848 --> 08:15.368 [SPEAKER_01]: As always, I'll be it. 08:15.408 --> 08:18.889 [SPEAKER_01]: We'll have to make some adjustments, but that's what really some steps are about. 08:19.429 --> 08:30.712 [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, really the same future, as always, because my day starts with the rising sun, and now your seems to end with it, and so one would be ever see each other. 08:31.192 --> 08:32.832 [SPEAKER_01]: I mean, I don't really need to sleep. 08:33.692 --> 08:36.413 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't think from from what I read, so like, 08:38.578 --> 08:41.722 [SPEAKER_01]: I can beat the home. 08:41.962 --> 08:47.309 [SPEAKER_02]: So I have to, we have to black out curtain every window in the place. 08:48.298 --> 09:00.442 [SPEAKER_01]: Well, we can have sunny rins for you, like, uh, but, like, I can, you know, work a night shift somewhere, and then make sure there's always, you know, boat cooked for you and keep the house maintained during the day. 09:01.042 --> 09:02.103 [SPEAKER_02]: What do you want to live? 09:02.963 --> 09:04.584 [SPEAKER_02]: Avery, I live in a trailer. 09:05.144 --> 09:06.784 [SPEAKER_02]: There aren't rooms to keep sunny. 09:07.545 --> 09:10.166 [SPEAKER_02]: That's why we can know who we need to get out of the shit hole anyway. 09:10.806 --> 09:12.106 [SPEAKER_01]: You hate living here. 09:12.126 --> 09:14.407 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't hate living here. 09:15.613 --> 09:16.454 [SPEAKER_02]: What's keeping you here? 09:17.715 --> 09:29.826 [SPEAKER_01]: Everything, the farm, my family, you, the farm that you keep hurting yourself, working on, the family that you moved out of the house and got your own shade trailer as soon as you could. 09:30.226 --> 09:33.989 [SPEAKER_01]: And me, who is actively saying, we can go somewhere else. 09:35.130 --> 09:36.672 [SPEAKER_01]: Those are weak excuses and you know that. 09:38.144 --> 09:48.028 [SPEAKER_01]: We can go somewhere, we can go somewhere where they have nightlife and subways or something, underground, travel, so you may skip out in the day. 09:48.629 --> 09:49.549 [SPEAKER_01]: What would I do? 09:49.569 --> 09:54.491 [SPEAKER_01]: We can still walk during the day, as long as we like, you know, stick to shadows, or work. 09:54.691 --> 09:55.812 [SPEAKER_02]: No, every for work. 09:56.112 --> 09:57.012 [SPEAKER_02]: What would I do? 09:57.032 --> 10:00.054 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't have any skills except for the farm. 10:01.214 --> 10:02.295 [SPEAKER_02]: What am I going to do in a city? 10:03.173 --> 10:23.610 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't have all the answers right now, okay, I don't know if you can tell, but I'm kind of going through something right now, Harper, and I am trying really hard to look on the positive side, and and treat her how to make this work, and it's starting to sound like you are looking for an out instead, and that's staring more than these fucking teeth. 10:24.650 --> 10:28.574 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm just not seeing how this works. 10:29.751 --> 10:32.732 [SPEAKER_01]: It's also been like 20 minutes. 10:33.472 --> 10:42.514 [SPEAKER_01]: We're not going to see how everything works until we take the time to talk through everything together, but we can't do that if I'm a pile of ash on your front porch. 10:43.595 --> 10:44.255 [SPEAKER_02]: We had hours. 10:45.495 --> 10:46.075 [SPEAKER_02]: We can talk here. 10:47.756 --> 10:47.996 [SPEAKER_01]: OK. Yeah. 10:49.376 --> 10:50.417 [SPEAKER_01]: Yep. 10:51.357 --> 10:51.697 [SPEAKER_01]: I get it. 10:58.621 --> 10:59.782 [SPEAKER_01]: You still haven't forgiven me. 11:01.683 --> 11:02.824 [SPEAKER_01]: What are you holding on to? 11:02.844 --> 11:08.008 [SPEAKER_02]: I get that you really needed a friend. 11:09.529 --> 11:12.151 [SPEAKER_02]: When we were in high school, I get it. 11:13.312 --> 11:23.539 [SPEAKER_02]: I get that everybody knew and being the only queer kid in a small town is hard. 11:24.380 --> 11:25.961 [SPEAKER_02]: Okay, I get it. 11:29.567 --> 11:34.549 [SPEAKER_02]: but you ruined my life a little bit when you outed me. 11:35.669 --> 11:46.473 [SPEAKER_02]: And I just think that I didn't move out because I was trying to be more independent that because I hated my home and my family. 11:46.513 --> 11:49.174 [SPEAKER_02]: I moved out because they started not to like me there. 11:50.494 --> 11:51.275 [SPEAKER_02]: And that's on you. 11:51.295 --> 11:55.016 [SPEAKER_02]: And I know I've said before that it was in the past or whatever, 11:57.947 --> 12:02.131 [SPEAKER_02]: It's not really something that's just in the past, follows you. 12:03.232 --> 12:05.214 [SPEAKER_02]: Shouldn't it follow me to my grave though? 12:06.655 --> 12:08.417 [SPEAKER_01]: Pretty fucking serious thing, every. 12:09.927 --> 12:13.230 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, and I have a public that you know how summary I am. 12:13.390 --> 12:15.892 [SPEAKER_01]: I, and I'm not trying to make excuses. 12:16.973 --> 12:22.257 [SPEAKER_01]: I just, I just genuinely don't know what one else I can do to make it up to you. 12:22.417 --> 12:35.728 [SPEAKER_01]: I've spent the last, however many years doing everything I can to prove that I'm not, that personality more and that I care about you. 12:36.148 --> 12:36.989 [SPEAKER_02]: I know, I know. 12:40.287 --> 12:44.469 [SPEAKER_02]: It's still there, you know, it just kind of sits there in the back of my mind all the time. 12:45.730 --> 12:57.357 [SPEAKER_02]: And you know, no, I don't want it to fall you to your grave, like I also don't want to end up in my grave tonight either. 12:58.258 --> 12:59.478 [SPEAKER_01]: Do you really think I'd hurt you? 12:59.498 --> 13:02.020 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know if I know you right now. 13:03.001 --> 13:03.441 [SPEAKER_01]: Harper! 13:06.210 --> 13:11.753 [SPEAKER_01]: I would rather bite off my own leg than see you hurt. 13:11.773 --> 13:31.062 [SPEAKER_01]: Because I'll just say I'm hurt even the past, and I know what that feels like to bring you pain, and I- the thought is genuinely incomprehensible to me, but I like- I don't know how to get you to understand how 13:32.302 --> 13:39.726 [SPEAKER_01]: Strongly I steal about that and I know like we vampire's are dicks I- I- I- I- I trust me. 13:39.786 --> 13:43.748 [SPEAKER_01]: I know Subfirst hand tonight how cool they can be. 13:43.908 --> 13:46.949 [SPEAKER_01]: I just- but I'm not like that. 13:47.029 --> 13:47.950 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm still me. 13:47.970 --> 13:56.154 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't know if it's because I'm so early in the transition or whatever but like I 13:57.688 --> 14:07.595 [SPEAKER_01]: If I thought that me entering your house would bring you in any sort of danger, I would run towards the sun, as I'm trying to get in here right now. 14:08.696 --> 14:09.656 [SPEAKER_02]: That's the problem. 14:09.716 --> 14:12.318 [SPEAKER_02]: You aren't ever thinking about the danger. 14:13.319 --> 14:17.302 [SPEAKER_02]: I told you specifically, don't go there and you did it anyways. 14:17.322 --> 14:22.165 [SPEAKER_02]: You talk about not wanting to continue to hurt me and yet you do it over and over and over again. 14:22.185 --> 14:24.947 [SPEAKER_02]: And if you would just listen for a single second, 14:26.832 --> 14:30.494 [SPEAKER_01]: But this was to me though, this wasn't to you, you didn't get hurt. 14:31.774 --> 14:34.775 [SPEAKER_01]: I-I'm reckless sure, but not with you, not anymore. 14:35.356 --> 14:37.677 [SPEAKER_02]: Well, I don't know if I can trust that. 14:38.097 --> 14:42.619 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know if I can trust you knowing how you're gonna act. 14:43.562 --> 14:46.604 [SPEAKER_02]: When you said it yourself, you're so new to all of this. 14:47.644 --> 14:53.027 [SPEAKER_01]: I knew it like this, but I am in full control of my faculties. 14:53.587 --> 14:56.989 [SPEAKER_01]: I had a bunch before, I got lunched on. 14:57.369 --> 15:04.893 [SPEAKER_01]: Like, I'm not feeling any of the typical, like, a blood thirsty bullshit. 15:06.254 --> 15:07.234 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm just scanard. 15:08.215 --> 15:08.655 [SPEAKER_01]: You ate? 15:10.143 --> 15:15.469 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, there was like some leftover casserole or something that took with me on the steak. 15:15.749 --> 15:17.811 [SPEAKER_01]: Oh, not okay. 15:18.052 --> 15:18.812 [SPEAKER_01]: No, oh God. 15:19.053 --> 15:23.297 [SPEAKER_01]: No, no, no, no, no, these fangs are these are virgin fangs. 15:23.878 --> 15:25.780 [SPEAKER_01]: They have, well, that was a bad way to put it. 15:27.322 --> 15:27.862 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, but. 15:29.964 --> 15:30.245 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah. 15:36.772 --> 15:42.087 [SPEAKER_02]: Recall their laughter, how you couldn't help but catch it, speak if compelled. 15:51.264 --> 15:56.650 [SPEAKER_02]: can you still, what I was going to say was going to sound so inappropriate. 15:56.670 --> 16:01.656 [SPEAKER_01]: I mean, I think would pass the point of, honestly, with each other. 16:01.676 --> 16:02.117 [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, no. 16:02.137 --> 16:06.762 [SPEAKER_02]: It just was like, I felt like this wasn't the time for an innuendo, but maybe it would have been. 16:06.822 --> 16:08.364 [SPEAKER_01]: No, no, line the move, go ahead. 16:09.313 --> 16:13.417 [SPEAKER_02]: I was gonna say, can you still do what you do with those things and in my brain? 16:13.437 --> 16:17.241 [SPEAKER_02]: I was thinking about you laughing, but I also know how that sounds. 16:18.983 --> 16:24.529 [SPEAKER_01]: I mean, I might want to put, I don't know, do they have, like, dental goals? 16:24.629 --> 16:25.690 [SPEAKER_01]: No, they don't. 16:26.151 --> 16:30.135 [SPEAKER_01]: They don't because this is such a crazy scenario we're in. 16:30.735 --> 16:32.276 [SPEAKER_01]: Oh my god, then that could be a job. 16:32.296 --> 16:33.316 [SPEAKER_01]: You could be an inventor. 16:33.476 --> 16:36.197 [SPEAKER_01]: You know, let's be in six toys for vampires. 16:37.718 --> 16:39.558 [SPEAKER_01]: Hey, look, we're finding solutions. 16:39.598 --> 16:43.920 [SPEAKER_01]: We got to rubber toothpicks, rubber toothpicks, exactly. 16:43.940 --> 16:45.200 [SPEAKER_01]: I figured out. 16:45.841 --> 16:46.761 [SPEAKER_02]: You always do, don't you? 16:46.781 --> 16:53.083 [SPEAKER_01]: I try, but I think we can both agree you're the smarter one of the two. 17:07.205 --> 17:12.027 [SPEAKER_01]: They smell intoxicating, like the best meals ever across your lips. 17:12.968 --> 17:14.929 [SPEAKER_01]: Have they always smell like that? 17:22.453 --> 17:26.155 [SPEAKER_01]: So what did you do today? 17:26.415 --> 17:29.776 [SPEAKER_01]: I guess, did you cook dinner? 17:30.077 --> 17:32.438 [SPEAKER_01]: Have you just been sort of hanging out? 17:34.248 --> 17:38.370 [SPEAKER_02]: I mean, I was on the farm earlier. 17:38.390 --> 17:42.253 [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, and then I just heat up leftovers from the weekend. 17:42.273 --> 17:44.754 [SPEAKER_02]: Okay, cool, cool. 17:45.415 --> 17:48.036 [SPEAKER_01]: Can you, um, can you smell it? 17:48.336 --> 17:49.017 [SPEAKER_01]: I ate earlier. 17:49.997 --> 17:58.161 [SPEAKER_01]: I can smell more settings than the my bulgjnos like everything on a space a little heightened right now. 17:58.901 --> 18:02.683 [SPEAKER_01]: Like I can hear better I can see in the dark. 18:03.503 --> 18:04.924 [SPEAKER_01]: I want to come over here. 18:04.964 --> 18:07.705 [SPEAKER_01]: I turn my flashlight on out of habit and it damn you're blinded me. 18:08.765 --> 18:14.068 [SPEAKER_01]: I can smell like the food you heated up the earth beneath 18:19.852 --> 18:35.836 [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, yeah, I can smell a lot a lot of things You always had a weird thing about sniffing at my neck So maybe this was inevitable Well, I mean you're intoxicated Too sad, all right. 18:36.397 --> 18:38.157 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know what's too soon in anymore. 18:38.177 --> 18:39.477 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know what's allowed anymore. 18:39.517 --> 18:40.878 [SPEAKER_02]: It all feels a little mixed up 18:41.792 --> 18:47.475 [SPEAKER_01]: I think there's a certain beauty in that we can make up our own rules, figure out our own time-longing. 18:48.475 --> 18:51.376 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm clearly in no rush, any more for anything. 18:51.396 --> 18:52.657 [SPEAKER_01]: Great. 18:53.697 --> 18:54.318 [SPEAKER_01]: Oh shit. 18:55.238 --> 18:55.518 [SPEAKER_01]: Huh. 19:03.262 --> 19:06.643 [SPEAKER_02]: So, why don't you just walk away? 19:10.030 --> 19:13.071 [SPEAKER_01]: The only shelter from imminent death? 19:14.371 --> 19:17.132 [SPEAKER_01]: Gee, let me see if I can come up with our reason. 19:17.872 --> 19:24.034 [SPEAKER_02]: Sure, if you wanna be that specific about it, no, you just said it, you have all the time in the world. 19:25.174 --> 19:29.996 [SPEAKER_02]: Why would you stay here backing me for something you don't know if I'm gonna give you? 19:30.956 --> 19:38.278 [SPEAKER_01]: All the time in the world is like and fun and sheltered for sunrise, but I don't think any of you are, 19:40.092 --> 19:51.539 [SPEAKER_01]: close by neighbors would be willing to let me in and my house is certainly too far to get to right now. 19:52.239 --> 20:00.384 [SPEAKER_01]: I could have run to my granddad's farmhouse that was in the other direction, 20:11.175 --> 20:40.110 [SPEAKER_02]: need comfort or to feel safe the only size I can think of is by you okay so hypothetically say I let you in what about tomorrow or the next day or the day after that I know we talked about the supposed future that I don't agree with you on and it kind of stands if you have everything out there ahead of you 20:41.838 --> 20:45.940 [SPEAKER_02]: Why would you stay here or why would you want to bring me with you? 20:46.781 --> 20:47.941 [SPEAKER_02]: You'll last, I won't. 20:49.182 --> 20:51.023 [SPEAKER_01]: You're the only comment of her, no Harper. 20:51.043 --> 20:52.404 [SPEAKER_01]: I... 20:55.045 --> 21:03.009 [SPEAKER_01]: I couldn't imagine spending a human lifetime without you, let alone forever. 21:03.389 --> 21:08.452 [SPEAKER_01]: And so right now, honestly, I'm just trying to take it day by day until I can figure out 21:09.884 --> 21:10.384 [SPEAKER_01]: what to do. 21:10.804 --> 21:14.925 [SPEAKER_01]: But I know I can't figure it out without you. 21:14.945 --> 21:17.066 [SPEAKER_01]: I know I don't want to. 21:17.086 --> 21:23.387 [SPEAKER_02]: In like almost a decade and it just feels like we keep circling. 21:24.608 --> 21:25.188 [SPEAKER_01]: What about you? 21:25.208 --> 21:34.510 [SPEAKER_01]: I mean, I've given you plenty of reasons to leave me before now if this is the last straw, 21:39.199 --> 21:49.225 [SPEAKER_01]: In my life, for as long as you have been, ease the known church. 21:51.166 --> 21:52.727 [SPEAKER_02]: Also, you're my best friend, Avery. 21:54.408 --> 21:55.129 [SPEAKER_02]: I do love you. 21:55.149 --> 22:02.073 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm just wondering if it's enough to make this work this way. 22:09.554 --> 22:12.175 [SPEAKER_01]: recall the hour's lost in conversation. 22:18.237 --> 22:30.602 [SPEAKER_01]: Remember those sleepovers in middle school, when everyone else gone to sleep, we'd sneak into the kitchen, and steal ice cream or 22:31.751 --> 22:49.255 [SPEAKER_01]: any other bullshit we weren't allowed to have marshmallows does knock off Oreos that were somehow better in the real ones yeah it might be nostalgia talking yeah i don't think they're good actually they hit incredibly hard 22:49.835 --> 23:00.359 [SPEAKER_01]: Now, I'm going to stand by that actually to an incredible, I know that was like before, I came out in the drama, I really started, but I think that's when I first started to fall for you. 23:00.619 --> 23:03.100 [SPEAKER_01]: You know, I didn't know that wasn't the time. 23:03.500 --> 23:17.586 [SPEAKER_01]: I, the closet was glass, but I still couldn't see through it, you know, but it just didn't so much to me that someone else wanted to just exist next to me. 23:19.481 --> 23:26.145 [SPEAKER_01]: and talk about absolutely nothing and I'll just get in trouble over absolutely nothing. 23:26.165 --> 23:41.856 [SPEAKER_02]: I was remembering that night we were made the blanket for across my bed to my closet and we were just laughing so loud and it was like 2 a.m. in Derek first through my door yelling about telling mom and 23:43.052 --> 23:45.854 [SPEAKER_02]: And I was like, she can hear you, you're yelling. 23:46.695 --> 23:48.256 [SPEAKER_01]: She also couldn't hear us too. 23:48.317 --> 23:50.598 [SPEAKER_01]: Like, she accidentally didn't get a shit. 23:50.979 --> 23:54.222 [SPEAKER_01]: God, Derek, such a stick up as ass. 23:55.963 --> 24:07.593 [SPEAKER_02]: No, he is that little house right off dad's land and the twins, that's not a possible future for us anymore. 24:08.989 --> 24:10.971 [SPEAKER_02]: Did you want kids? 24:11.672 --> 24:13.193 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know, I've never really thought about it. 24:13.213 --> 24:20.300 [SPEAKER_02]: I just like, it's not even a possibility if I did think about it one day. 24:23.003 --> 24:23.764 [SPEAKER_02]: Did you want kids? 24:25.265 --> 24:25.766 [SPEAKER_01]: God no. 24:26.286 --> 24:26.627 [SPEAKER_01]: Okay. 24:28.048 --> 24:32.873 [SPEAKER_01]: But like, I did, you know, like the idea of one day, 24:34.322 --> 25:03.692 [SPEAKER_01]: being the cool aunt, who like, would come at Christmas to all, like the niece doesn't have to use and just spoil everyone because they didn't have to worry about taking care of a kid and spending money on them throughout the years, like they just come in and like get all of the glory for the best Christmas gifts and being the one they go to if they have like relationship troubles or if they get to drunk at a party and need to call someone to come pick them up but they don't want to call their parents 25:05.821 --> 25:06.662 [SPEAKER_02]: There too, they don't know. 25:07.582 --> 25:09.063 [SPEAKER_02]: There'll be a sleep when you come over. 25:12.305 --> 25:29.475 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't want to be the one that limits you and your options and puts you in a box or is there a reason you can or can't do certain things. 25:30.316 --> 25:31.316 [SPEAKER_01]: So I understand if 25:37.812 --> 26:01.885 [SPEAKER_01]: I understand it's building a life like together, together, ends up loving feasible, I so want it to be, I still want to try and figure that out, but if not, I long as I still have you in my life in some capacity, I'd be happy, or at least content, you know, I 26:07.465 --> 26:11.867 [SPEAKER_02]: I think this might have been something to think about before you made the choice you made tonight. 26:13.348 --> 26:15.049 [SPEAKER_02]: Because you have limited the options. 26:15.069 --> 26:18.891 [SPEAKER_01]: Let me ask Salt Meat won't. 26:24.774 --> 26:28.556 [SPEAKER_02]: They look different as if a creature wears the skin of the one you love. 26:29.536 --> 26:30.777 [SPEAKER_02]: Try to find the seams. 26:37.658 --> 26:38.539 [SPEAKER_01]: Have you looked in a mirror? 26:40.000 --> 26:48.747 [SPEAKER_01]: Honestly, haven't come across one from between the attack and then the running through the court and fields and then they hear. 26:49.307 --> 26:53.591 [SPEAKER_01]: There's not really a lot of reflective surfaces and dirt. 26:55.112 --> 26:55.792 [SPEAKER_02]: Right, yeah. 26:57.093 --> 26:57.914 [SPEAKER_02]: I just really can't. 26:59.916 --> 27:01.097 [SPEAKER_02]: Your eyes are different. 27:02.658 --> 27:03.298 [SPEAKER_02]: Oh, God, are they like, 27:07.738 --> 27:09.919 [SPEAKER_02]: No, not like in Twilight. 27:10.959 --> 27:18.901 [SPEAKER_02]: No, they're like darker, more like, it's like all people and no whites. 27:19.041 --> 27:28.564 [SPEAKER_02]: And just everything's like a little, you described noises and sense earlier as being sharper, but so are you. 27:28.644 --> 27:32.105 [SPEAKER_02]: It's like, so I'm looking at something carved. 27:33.166 --> 27:34.646 [SPEAKER_02]: You just don't really look like you anymore. 27:36.285 --> 27:45.008 [SPEAKER_02]: And I've been trying to push past it and see my girlfriend, person I've known for my whole life. 27:46.508 --> 27:52.010 [SPEAKER_02]: And I, she's kind of there, but on Kenny Valley. 27:52.030 --> 27:58.071 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't know what to say to that. 27:58.151 --> 27:59.612 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't know how to fix it. 27:59.652 --> 28:01.812 [SPEAKER_01]: No, I just thought you should know. 28:04.860 --> 28:12.788 [SPEAKER_02]: perspective on his conversation, I, and Stinky, and I look freaky. 28:13.849 --> 28:15.031 [SPEAKER_02]: The stench comes and goes. 28:15.511 --> 28:16.732 [SPEAKER_02]: It was just surprising. 28:18.735 --> 28:21.397 [SPEAKER_02]: I can usually smell you like a mile down the road. 28:22.238 --> 28:23.580 [SPEAKER_02]: You are so much of that shit. 28:24.561 --> 28:26.362 [SPEAKER_01]: Is there like at least anything 28:27.868 --> 28:30.329 [SPEAKER_01]: Cool, that's different. 28:30.530 --> 28:34.032 [SPEAKER_01]: Like, clearly, uncanny valley. 28:34.312 --> 28:35.172 [SPEAKER_01]: Boo, bad. 28:35.533 --> 28:40.435 [SPEAKER_01]: Where a mask or a verlet sack or something, or my head, no, I want to see it. 28:40.876 --> 28:42.537 [SPEAKER_02]: And it needs to be real. 28:43.277 --> 28:45.118 [SPEAKER_02]: We have to have this conversation for real. 28:46.279 --> 28:54.704 [SPEAKER_02]: Despite the danger of them, I think the things are kind of cool. 28:55.562 --> 28:56.183 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah. 28:56.804 --> 28:57.324 [SPEAKER_01]: Okay. 28:57.384 --> 28:58.666 [SPEAKER_01]: See, silver lining. 28:59.366 --> 29:00.888 [SPEAKER_02]: Doesn't mean I want them anywhere near me. 29:00.908 --> 29:01.749 [SPEAKER_01]: Nope. 29:01.889 --> 29:02.650 [SPEAKER_01]: Not going to do that. 29:02.670 --> 29:04.072 [SPEAKER_02]: I think they're cool. 29:04.833 --> 29:07.395 [SPEAKER_01]: These things will remain in cells. 29:07.415 --> 29:08.417 [SPEAKER_01]: No piercing. 29:08.697 --> 29:09.678 [SPEAKER_01]: God, they're still bad. 29:09.818 --> 29:10.559 [SPEAKER_01]: Still a bad metaphor. 29:10.599 --> 29:12.882 [SPEAKER_02]: I think I don't think it's going to get better. 29:13.692 --> 29:16.874 [SPEAKER_01]: No, no, it's not... Can I tell you something? 29:17.434 --> 29:17.674 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah. 29:18.474 --> 29:21.276 [SPEAKER_01]: I've like, bit the inside of my cheek. 29:22.176 --> 29:23.457 [SPEAKER_01]: Like, seven times. 29:24.057 --> 29:24.637 [SPEAKER_01]: New teeth? 29:25.278 --> 29:25.658 [SPEAKER_01]: Weird. 29:27.439 --> 29:28.279 [SPEAKER_02]: Can I ask you something? 29:29.080 --> 29:29.940 [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, of course. 29:31.221 --> 29:34.582 [SPEAKER_02]: What does it taste like? 29:35.983 --> 29:40.265 [SPEAKER_02]: Is it just how it always tastes it or is it more for you? 29:41.138 --> 29:49.950 [SPEAKER_01]: Honestly, it's a really weird, like I can feel like when I bite and like it hurts the inside of my cheek, but like 29:51.710 --> 29:55.151 [SPEAKER_01]: I think it just feels so quickly, it doesn't get the chance to bleed. 29:56.071 --> 30:00.732 [SPEAKER_01]: Or maybe I don't bleed anymore, or, oh my god, no periods. 30:01.232 --> 30:03.173 [SPEAKER_01]: Oh, oh, oh, that's a game-changer. 30:03.453 --> 30:05.533 [SPEAKER_01]: That's not something to rub in my face. 30:05.553 --> 30:05.874 [SPEAKER_01]: Sorry. 30:06.194 --> 30:06.474 [SPEAKER_01]: Sorry. 30:07.174 --> 30:07.394 [SPEAKER_01]: Sorry. 30:07.414 --> 30:11.755 [SPEAKER_01]: I mean, you could always join me over here and not undead, and it would both be period free. 30:13.795 --> 30:16.016 [SPEAKER_01]: No, I take that back, that was, that was important. 30:16.356 --> 30:18.217 [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, I think that was too... 30:21.078 --> 30:21.438 [SPEAKER_01]: Mm-hmm. 30:22.139 --> 30:22.599 [SPEAKER_01]: Wrong. 30:22.619 --> 30:24.321 [SPEAKER_02]: Time for jokes. 30:29.504 --> 30:30.785 [SPEAKER_01]: We're thinking hiding from me. 30:33.047 --> 30:35.249 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not hiding anything from you, Avery. 30:35.889 --> 30:39.452 [SPEAKER_01]: You see, I can tell when you lied even before I could like. 30:41.062 --> 30:44.985 [SPEAKER_01]: hear the change in your heartbeat and and see the adrenaline, whatever. 30:45.165 --> 30:45.445 [SPEAKER_01]: Sure. 30:45.485 --> 30:47.806 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, whatever, whatever it is, science will. 30:48.587 --> 30:57.573 [SPEAKER_01]: If there's something else that like is keeping you from, you know, wanting to save my life, I think I should deserve to know, right? 30:58.774 --> 30:59.154 [SPEAKER_02]: Sure. 30:59.174 --> 31:04.677 [SPEAKER_02]: I am not hiding anything from you that has anything to do with saving your life. 31:06.379 --> 31:08.460 [SPEAKER_02]: You don't have one anymore, though, right? 31:10.050 --> 31:14.874 [SPEAKER_02]: I'd like to think of it as more of a disability than a death sentence. 31:16.955 --> 31:19.918 [SPEAKER_02]: I submitted a grant for what? 31:20.738 --> 31:27.323 [SPEAKER_02]: To update the farm, to make it more eco-friendly. 31:28.484 --> 31:30.766 [SPEAKER_02]: This wasn't like I was hiding it just from you. 31:30.786 --> 31:32.347 [SPEAKER_02]: I was kind of hiding it from everybody. 31:32.367 --> 31:35.710 [SPEAKER_02]: My dad is not going to be happy. 31:36.510 --> 31:37.531 [SPEAKER_02]: Your dad's never happy. 31:38.458 --> 31:39.138 [SPEAKER_02]: I haven't gotten it. 31:39.299 --> 31:40.619 [SPEAKER_02]: It doesn't matter. 31:40.639 --> 31:42.140 [SPEAKER_02]: Um, one way or the other. 31:43.001 --> 31:45.042 [SPEAKER_02]: It wasn't like I haven't her back yet. 31:45.122 --> 31:47.044 [SPEAKER_01]: So, and this is on the yet. 31:47.224 --> 31:48.184 [SPEAKER_01]: You're brilliant. 31:48.304 --> 31:51.427 [SPEAKER_01]: You will get back and they're going to want to throw so much money out. 31:51.447 --> 31:53.968 [SPEAKER_01]: You say that like I don't just have a high school degree. 31:54.569 --> 31:55.009 [SPEAKER_01]: Okay. 31:55.769 --> 31:57.470 [SPEAKER_01]: First of all, we've been through this. 31:58.151 --> 32:01.293 [SPEAKER_01]: A high school degree is still by the half the Dictionary's in Miss Town. 32:01.533 --> 32:03.695 [SPEAKER_01]: And, too, you're the smartest person I know. 32:04.712 --> 32:31.482 [SPEAKER_01]: book smarts like education that's not a very high bar if you just called half the town dipshits okay but I've known other people outside of this town too I might not have gotten a full degree but I spent a couple years at state no there are lots of many people over there and none of them held a candle to you flattery will get you know where but that doesn't keep me from telling truth 32:33.176 --> 32:37.438 [SPEAKER_02]: see, I told you had nothing to do with whether with tonight or you or anything. 32:38.459 --> 32:47.544 [SPEAKER_01]: No, but it's important to you that something to be proud of and it's things I want you to feel like you can tell me. 32:47.564 --> 32:55.047 [SPEAKER_02]: I just didn't want it to accidentally get out and it's not that I wasn't like jinxing it if you talk about it, you know. 32:55.668 --> 32:56.128 [SPEAKER_02]: I get that. 32:56.488 --> 32:58.069 [SPEAKER_02]: But hey, knock on wood, 33:03.106 --> 33:05.447 [SPEAKER_02]: Maybe a win-mill and I don't know. 33:05.487 --> 33:13.670 [SPEAKER_02]: There's all that empty space in the back and not doing anything with it right now. 33:13.730 --> 33:19.153 [SPEAKER_02]: And I think my dad's getting to an age where he just can't take care of that much space. 33:19.193 --> 33:20.933 [SPEAKER_02]: So why not turn it into something good? 33:21.974 --> 33:23.294 [SPEAKER_02]: Get the energy bills done at least. 33:24.335 --> 33:29.737 [SPEAKER_01]: I was just about to say, class the energy skyrocketing, might as well put in some win-ellls. 33:33.377 --> 33:39.959 [SPEAKER_01]: My energy bills would probably be like, apparently, well, if I don't need a turn, lights, nice. 33:40.619 --> 33:44.301 [SPEAKER_01]: Sorry, not trying to get bread, though we had kind of forgotten about that for a sec. 33:44.981 --> 33:57.725 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm honestly a tarpaer, I am just desperately trying to find silver lighting with my situation, because if I start thinking about all the ways that things can go wrong or bad or bad, 33:59.742 --> 34:01.863 [SPEAKER_01]: inconvenient or whatever. 34:02.063 --> 34:06.766 [SPEAKER_01]: I might start freaking out genuinely freaking out. 34:06.907 --> 34:09.028 [SPEAKER_01]: And I can't do that right now. 34:09.068 --> 34:13.371 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm just trying to, I'm just trying to make it through the warning. 34:14.751 --> 34:15.652 [SPEAKER_01]: One surprise at a time. 34:15.672 --> 34:21.956 [SPEAKER_01]: I already supposed to survive. 34:24.425 --> 34:45.040 [SPEAKER_01]: I do like nothing changes for you, I'll do all the accommodating, I'll figure out how to, I don't know, maybe like volunteer to let Benink where I'll see if like, you know how like the sausage or like the meat market has those like the blood pudding or whatever, I'll see if there's like 34:46.404 --> 34:47.185 [SPEAKER_01]: alternatives. 34:48.006 --> 34:54.612 [SPEAKER_01]: I also don't know if my guy has to be fully, you know, or if like, I can't eat other things. 34:54.913 --> 34:56.554 [SPEAKER_01]: Or like, how often I have to eat. 34:56.634 --> 35:01.439 [SPEAKER_01]: These are all things that I was trying to figure out. 35:01.459 --> 35:06.625 [SPEAKER_01]: If we can figure these things out, then we can maybe figure out how to reverse this sort of bullshit. 35:06.805 --> 35:08.567 [SPEAKER_02]: And I just think it's reversible. 35:09.513 --> 35:11.035 [SPEAKER_01]: Oh, I wanted to see this possible. 35:11.055 --> 35:13.398 [SPEAKER_01]: We haven't no one's really tried, if you like. 35:14.178 --> 35:16.401 [SPEAKER_01]: And I want to do something useful. 35:16.421 --> 35:23.249 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't want to just be a burden on you or whoever the fuck gets saddled with me. 35:23.269 --> 35:27.934 [SPEAKER_01]: And I thought that, you know, why not a big? 35:32.051 --> 35:34.734 [SPEAKER_02]: I think we should be able to do more than survive. 35:35.315 --> 35:44.326 [SPEAKER_01]: And I agree, but in order to figure out how to properly live, we have to get the survival part down first. 35:44.466 --> 35:47.490 [SPEAKER_02]: Are you not scared that anybody's going to come after you for this? 35:47.990 --> 35:51.535 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't really think that your kind is taken likely to. 35:52.645 --> 35:56.867 [SPEAKER_01]: When I said, I was really scared about like all the things that could go wrong. 35:57.267 --> 36:05.412 [SPEAKER_01]: And was actively trying not to think about, you know, the more scary aspects that were just going to live in fear then. 36:05.912 --> 36:08.593 [SPEAKER_02]: No, live in the dark, live in fear. 36:09.994 --> 36:12.295 [SPEAKER_02]: Not really have a life outside of that. 36:12.955 --> 36:16.237 [SPEAKER_01]: Like I said, I want you to have the life you deserve. 36:17.833 --> 36:32.563 [SPEAKER_01]: And if that is a life without me as your girlfriend, that is okay, but I would rather live in fear than die. 36:34.845 --> 36:45.392 [SPEAKER_02]: You can look me in the eye right now, until me, if I were to open this door, you wouldn't be overcome by your new nature. 36:46.713 --> 36:48.555 [SPEAKER_02]: I would not be overcome by making nature. 36:49.436 --> 36:51.178 [SPEAKER_01]: You can't smell it, you don't want it. 36:51.911 --> 37:12.809 [SPEAKER_01]: I mean, I can smell you, and you smell hot, but that's because you're hot, and my girlfriend and I'm attracted to you, but I don't, I'm not like hungry, and I don't know if that's just because, you know, it takes a while for a certain change just to kick in, or how I prefer to think. 37:13.470 --> 37:16.092 [SPEAKER_01]: My loving care for you surpasses any sort of like, 37:17.093 --> 37:18.414 [SPEAKER_01]: vampire bullshit. 37:19.094 --> 37:20.154 [SPEAKER_02]: That's great and theory. 37:20.955 --> 37:24.736 [SPEAKER_02]: What happens one day when you are really hungry? 37:25.677 --> 37:29.558 [SPEAKER_02]: You live in the middle of nowhere and I'm the only one and you know a 20 mile radius. 37:30.979 --> 37:31.559 [SPEAKER_02]: What happens then? 37:32.379 --> 37:36.021 [SPEAKER_01]: Okay, we'll then that's the question for you, Harper, like theoretically. 37:37.081 --> 37:41.023 [SPEAKER_01]: You let me in today and then I leave your life forever. 37:42.887 --> 37:54.734 [SPEAKER_01]: didn't that wouldn't be an issue because so like video chat, if you don't want to see me in person, we could still call and you can move on with your life and I'll figure out how to move with my un-life. 37:55.394 --> 37:59.977 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't know how I'm going to survive if you don't save me. 38:01.338 --> 38:08.742 [SPEAKER_01]: That is a guaranteed, if you don't let me in, I will die, harbor, and I understand from your perspective 38:10.457 --> 38:34.374 [SPEAKER_01]: letting me in is a gamble on your own life, and I would never ask you to do that if I wasn't sure of your safety, but from where I'm standing is starting to seem like my girlfriend would rather let me definitively die than maybe risk getting bit, or whatever the fuck. 38:35.965 --> 38:41.648 [SPEAKER_02]: You're putting a lot of the onus on me for your own bad decision making right now. 38:42.809 --> 38:49.112 [SPEAKER_02]: It's my fault if the sun rises, not your fault that you did the one thing you weren't supposed to do. 38:50.097 --> 38:51.257 [SPEAKER_02]: Do you always say I'm an idiot? 38:52.018 --> 38:53.118 [SPEAKER_01]: I already know you know that. 38:53.938 --> 38:56.579 [SPEAKER_01]: Should I be punished for being stupid with my life? 38:56.919 --> 38:57.579 [SPEAKER_01]: Like what do you mean? 38:57.599 --> 39:00.660 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't know, every this is just a lot, okay? 39:01.320 --> 39:02.981 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, it's a lot for me too. 39:03.701 --> 39:06.722 [SPEAKER_01]: Whether or not you let me in tonight, your life stays the same. 39:07.442 --> 39:10.803 [SPEAKER_01]: Mine, whether you let me in or not, is changed forever. 39:11.403 --> 39:13.304 [SPEAKER_01]: My life is quite literally over. 39:13.904 --> 39:16.265 [SPEAKER_02]: You don't think my life is changed forever. 39:17.365 --> 39:18.305 [SPEAKER_02]: based off this choice. 39:18.625 --> 39:23.827 [SPEAKER_02]: If I let you in, my life is changed forever because I'm living with a vampire and our whole lives are upturned. 39:24.107 --> 39:26.727 [SPEAKER_02]: If I don't let you live, I just say, what will happen to me there? 39:26.747 --> 39:27.308 [SPEAKER_02]: I could leave. 39:27.328 --> 39:30.328 [SPEAKER_02]: Okay, well then I've lived without my best friend for the rest of my life. 39:30.928 --> 39:35.290 [SPEAKER_02]: And if I don't let you in, then I have to live with the knowledge that I killed you. 39:35.710 --> 39:40.411 [SPEAKER_02]: So I'm a little bit, it's a no-win situation, quite frankly. 39:41.250 --> 39:45.432 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm sorry that I thought that coming here directly, that you would let me in. 39:45.452 --> 39:49.113 [SPEAKER_01]: I didn't think that this would be a big existential question. 39:49.133 --> 39:51.354 [SPEAKER_02]: You thought that I would just let you in now? 39:52.134 --> 39:53.595 [SPEAKER_02]: You're not you anymore. 39:53.615 --> 39:55.496 [SPEAKER_01]: I am Harper. 39:56.736 --> 39:59.417 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm looking right at you and I barely recognize you. 39:59.797 --> 40:06.160 [SPEAKER_02]: Oh my god, you're going on and on about shit that doesn't really matter. 40:07.472 --> 40:11.194 [SPEAKER_02]: We're talking, we're talking about things that we've never talked about before. 40:11.534 --> 40:14.956 [SPEAKER_02]: Why are we all of a sudden talking about the future when we've literally never considered that before? 40:15.136 --> 40:17.938 [SPEAKER_02]: We've never sat down and had a serious conversation about anything. 40:18.958 --> 40:21.360 [SPEAKER_02]: Why didn't we ever do this before all of a sudden your life is in danger? 40:21.400 --> 40:26.242 [SPEAKER_02]: And now you're like, worried that you need to prove something to me for me to, what, still love you? 40:26.923 --> 40:30.965 [SPEAKER_01]: Or maybe I'm thinking this is the last chance I get to say any of it. 40:30.985 --> 40:35.387 [SPEAKER_01]: That doesn't really sit, that doesn't change. 40:51.978 --> 40:58.442 [SPEAKER_01]: can we please focus on the good here for a minute. 40:58.462 --> 41:12.229 [SPEAKER_01]: Let's just as a thought exercise try to find silver linings and any sort of positivity that we can because I don't want to be arguing with you. 41:13.570 --> 41:17.132 [SPEAKER_01]: What would be the ideal outcome if you get the 41:19.733 --> 41:25.658 [SPEAKER_02]: My father accepts that I've gone by and is back to do it with no issues whatsoever. 41:26.338 --> 41:29.220 [SPEAKER_02]: It goes into effect and eventually I take over the farm. 41:30.001 --> 41:32.503 [SPEAKER_01]: What would be your favorite thing about running the farm? 41:33.324 --> 41:37.867 [SPEAKER_01]: Once you get, once you take control of it, because you're well, because... 41:39.788 --> 41:41.130 [SPEAKER_02]: I know how it works, it'd be... 41:41.850 --> 41:42.630 [SPEAKER_02]: I mean, not easy. 41:42.670 --> 41:45.272 [SPEAKER_02]: It's not easy, but I know how it works. 41:45.312 --> 41:46.572 [SPEAKER_02]: It's something that I understand. 41:46.733 --> 41:48.754 [SPEAKER_02]: And I'm halfway decent at it. 41:49.134 --> 41:51.055 [SPEAKER_02]: Think you're a little more than halfway decent, but... 41:51.955 --> 41:53.396 [SPEAKER_02]: So it won't be wasting my life. 41:54.156 --> 41:55.857 [SPEAKER_02]: Do you feel like you're wasting your life right now? 41:56.838 --> 41:58.759 [SPEAKER_02]: That's not in... that's not in... uh... 41:59.719 --> 42:04.004 [SPEAKER_02]: line with the game you said, we're looking at silver linings and we're looking at best outcomes. 42:05.006 --> 42:16.800 [SPEAKER_01]: Okay, so then best outcome, whether it be the farm or not, whether it be meat or not, what does the ideal helper look like in five years? 42:18.237 --> 42:23.503 [SPEAKER_01]: If there were no limitations, be it your education, my location or anything. 42:23.824 --> 42:28.009 [SPEAKER_02]: What would you, I think I just don't think this is working. 42:28.169 --> 42:35.177 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't think this thought exercise is working because we're still talking about the future and we don't do that. 42:36.319 --> 42:37.220 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't do that. 42:38.560 --> 42:40.501 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know where I'll be like in five years. 42:41.502 --> 42:47.246 [SPEAKER_02]: Okay, well then, let's try and find the good in the present or the recent past. 42:47.846 --> 42:52.069 [SPEAKER_02]: The good in the present is that the vampires in an outright kill you and rip your throat out. 42:52.610 --> 42:54.051 [SPEAKER_02]: Glad to hear that's a positive for you. 42:54.711 --> 43:00.075 [SPEAKER_02]: That's unfortunately that's kind of the only positive that I'm seeing is that you're not dead already. 43:00.815 --> 43:03.377 [SPEAKER_01]: Well, the good I see there are 43:04.217 --> 43:21.352 [SPEAKER_01]: fireflies, sort of twinkling above the healthy crop, the trailer, that my best friend lives in the new reef is still folding, I don't hear any leaks or creeks or anything, you don't have to remind to either if you were wondering, that's good. 43:22.092 --> 43:34.697 [SPEAKER_01]: It is, despite everything, a beautiful night out, slight breeze, I think those kind of humid that doesn't really, is not an oppressive humanity, Harper Lewis is standing in front of 43:49.968 --> 44:03.324 [SPEAKER_01]: and despite everything, especially everything that I've put her through, she's still on her own two feet and is despite what she says, making plans for the future. 44:03.684 --> 44:07.108 [SPEAKER_01]: She just wrote a killer grant that she's going to get appranged. 44:07.909 --> 44:08.530 [SPEAKER_01]: She's going to... 44:09.110 --> 44:11.452 [SPEAKER_01]: have a beautiful day in the next few hours. 44:12.172 --> 44:18.336 [SPEAKER_01]: Maybe go on a grocery run, maybe she's going to go, visit friends or family in town, and she's just going to have a day to herself. 44:18.756 --> 44:22.239 [SPEAKER_01]: We read her favorite book, put on that shitty album. 44:22.679 --> 44:23.419 [SPEAKER_01]: She likes so much. 44:24.280 --> 44:32.765 [SPEAKER_01]: Eat good food, hopefully no more leftovers, hopefully she has plans to cook a real meal for yourself, but if not, there's always a next day. 44:39.220 --> 44:41.981 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, my circadian rhythm was always a little fucked up. 44:42.301 --> 44:44.962 [SPEAKER_01]: Winters would be easier. 44:46.283 --> 44:51.785 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, send them down around 4 or 5 p.m. That's not too late to go out and do things. 44:58.049 --> 45:00.150 [SPEAKER_02]: We have responsibilities. 45:00.930 --> 45:05.032 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm gonna have a lot of responsibilities if this grant gets approved. 45:05.592 --> 45:12.055 [SPEAKER_02]: And if we were gonna build a life together, I kind of expected you to do it with me. 45:12.235 --> 45:17.197 [SPEAKER_02]: So now am I just supposed to take care of it all on my own? 45:17.217 --> 45:17.377 [SPEAKER_01]: Do know, 45:20.732 --> 45:35.119 [SPEAKER_01]: I mean, it sounds like you're still entertaining the idea of a life together, which is great news for me, but no, say you like are trying to build solar panels and then something blah blah blah and you can't get to all of that day. 45:35.139 --> 45:38.340 [SPEAKER_01]: I can work on things during the night. 45:39.100 --> 45:48.865 [SPEAKER_02]: A one woman construction crew just wasn't really picturing living separate lives with a partner. 45:50.605 --> 45:54.970 [SPEAKER_02]: And that's just kind of what this feels like it's going to be, separate. 45:55.991 --> 45:57.192 [SPEAKER_01]: This is if you're trying to harp on this. 45:57.473 --> 45:59.014 [SPEAKER_01]: I just would like clarification. 45:59.755 --> 46:06.643 [SPEAKER_01]: Can you let me know if you still want me as your partner like this? 46:07.744 --> 46:10.127 [SPEAKER_01]: Or if you want us to just be friends, 46:11.799 --> 46:30.044 [SPEAKER_01]: I will give you everything I can, but I do have extra limitations now and I don't want those to be the minutes for you, but I need to know where you're at so I can know how to approach where I sit in your life now. 46:31.024 --> 46:35.365 [SPEAKER_02]: Are you honestly saying that you don't 46:38.851 --> 46:45.078 [SPEAKER_02]: Do you think that this vampire thing is the first time I started thinking about whether or not we were going to last? 46:45.778 --> 46:50.123 [SPEAKER_02]: Well, it's the first time you've told me that, what the, what, what? 46:50.663 --> 46:51.985 [SPEAKER_02]: I didn't mean that to be rude. 46:52.005 --> 47:00.333 [SPEAKER_02]: I just thought that we would be more on the same page about this about our lives together, or 47:02.075 --> 47:07.837 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, I mean, it's hard to be on the same page if you don't tell me about things that are important, like the grant. 47:08.658 --> 47:09.598 [SPEAKER_01]: Sure, sure. 47:09.618 --> 47:12.679 [SPEAKER_01]: It's hard to be on the same page if you don't like talking about the future. 47:12.799 --> 47:16.081 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm not trying to harp on that either, Harper, but like, no, no. 47:17.541 --> 47:23.304 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm just like, we've broken up about half a dozen times over the past couple of years. 47:24.784 --> 47:25.865 [SPEAKER_02]: You didn't want to move in. 47:25.885 --> 47:30.587 [SPEAKER_02]: I mean, I just don't know, like, in my eyes, 47:31.891 --> 47:32.792 [SPEAKER_02]: Sure, I listen. 47:32.932 --> 47:34.914 [SPEAKER_02]: I did not want you not to go to school. 47:35.194 --> 47:38.376 [SPEAKER_02]: I promise you when I said I want you to go, I wanted you to go. 47:38.416 --> 47:45.222 [SPEAKER_02]: But when you came back to me, that signal that maybe you were ready to like fully be in this. 47:45.402 --> 47:50.226 [SPEAKER_02]: But then I got the trailer and you weren't interested in living here full time. 47:50.827 --> 47:54.390 [SPEAKER_02]: And so that kind of maybe think that you weren't interested in the full time of it. 47:55.530 --> 48:03.132 [SPEAKER_01]: Harper, I've been trying to find other like jobs and things to make sure you can afford something besides a trailer. 48:03.152 --> 48:06.173 [SPEAKER_01]: I can't work on a farm I'm useless out here. 48:06.193 --> 48:09.554 [SPEAKER_01]: I wouldn't have been able to help you like on the land. 48:10.414 --> 48:11.995 [SPEAKER_01]: I was trying to find like 48:13.265 --> 48:30.661 [SPEAKER_01]: I know some shitty marketing job or something that pays way too much and is remote or whatever the fuck and get you out of the trailer and to like a proper house that you can manage your farm from in a way that doesn't feel like cramped. 48:32.912 --> 48:40.898 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't want to get in your way, I probably should have told you all of that, so I didn't really think that you would have gotten in my way. 48:40.918 --> 48:51.185 [SPEAKER_02]: I was asking you to live with me, I think I was, well, aware that this place is small, but it feels like maybe we just haven't been talking to begin with. 48:52.446 --> 48:53.667 [SPEAKER_01]: Hey, no time left to present. 48:54.908 --> 48:55.809 [SPEAKER_02]: What a present it is. 49:03.142 --> 49:06.906 [SPEAKER_01]: recall their smile, the particular way it's neck across their face. 49:12.191 --> 49:19.579 [SPEAKER_01]: I think given before tonight, we need to be had, I've had some issues we should like. 49:21.320 --> 49:21.921 [SPEAKER_01]: Work through I. 49:23.648 --> 49:31.070 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't remember the last time I saw you smile that wasn't for me trying to diffuse tension. 49:32.110 --> 49:43.713 [SPEAKER_01]: You have that very specific smile that sort of creeps up all in the corner of like the left side of your mouth, absolutely nothing is going on. 49:45.340 --> 49:54.707 [SPEAKER_01]: like if you're just sitting, looking out at the grass or drinking a cup of tea or it's your smile of contentment. 49:55.648 --> 50:11.839 [SPEAKER_01]: It only happens when you're, at least when I think you're like really relaxed and I haven't seen that particular smile in a while and whatever happens tonight, I want you to smile like that more often. 50:11.859 --> 50:11.980 [SPEAKER_01]: I want 50:13.960 --> 50:22.848 [SPEAKER_01]: I want you to be happy and I don't want to be part of the reason that you have less things to smile about. 50:22.968 --> 50:23.769 [SPEAKER_01]: I guess I don't know. 50:23.949 --> 50:27.012 [SPEAKER_01]: I think I'm just rambling at this point. 50:27.052 --> 50:27.533 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm sorry. 50:27.553 --> 50:28.533 [SPEAKER_02]: It took a good point. 50:30.916 --> 50:35.680 [SPEAKER_02]: That maybe I haven't really been living anyway. 50:37.081 --> 50:39.123 [SPEAKER_02]: Is that been my fault? 50:41.475 --> 50:49.661 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm sure it's a mix of things, but we haven't really... We both been concerned with very separate things. 50:51.562 --> 50:57.346 [SPEAKER_02]: And I don't necessarily remember the last time we just did something fun the two of us. 50:58.587 --> 51:05.972 [SPEAKER_02]: I mean, I know like, you'll come over and have dinner, we'll meet at the bar, but, you know. 51:06.752 --> 51:08.834 [SPEAKER_01]: No proper date nights in a while, huh? 51:12.171 --> 51:32.341 [SPEAKER_01]: we could put me in a trunk and then drive to the city and see the planetarium, or if you want to have like a night in, we could get some puzzles from the thrift store or the book store and hope that they have all the pieces and if they don't, you know, try to draw in our own. 51:34.142 --> 51:40.465 [SPEAKER_02]: I think there's going to be a lot of nights in depending on what happens tonight. 51:42.222 --> 51:52.689 [SPEAKER_01]: And I know this is my fault, and so I want to take your lead, but I also don't want you to feel like you have to plan and do everything. 51:53.790 --> 51:59.254 [SPEAKER_01]: But just let me know what you want, and I will leave heaven and earth to make it happen. 52:02.616 --> 52:03.457 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't know what I want. 52:24.624 --> 52:27.745 [SPEAKER_02]: This card represents the hours passing before sunrise. 52:29.246 --> 52:31.286 [SPEAKER_02]: This is the second time record drawn. 52:32.707 --> 52:33.967 [SPEAKER_02]: Dawn approaches. 52:35.007 --> 52:37.268 [SPEAKER_02]: What are we avoiding in this conversation? 52:44.012 --> 52:48.435 [SPEAKER_02]: We are avoiding not breaking up in this moment. 52:49.276 --> 52:50.957 [SPEAKER_01]: We've been sort of dancing around that. 52:51.557 --> 53:09.550 [SPEAKER_02]: We are avoiding the reality of the fact that we are in a relationship because we are each other's only options, and we're not accepting the question of would we be together if that wasn't the case? 53:11.198 --> 53:23.644 [SPEAKER_01]: They're also with the dawn sort of like turning very far edges of the sky like that really like light grayish blue and like the the morning mist sort of like getting closer. 53:25.385 --> 53:28.867 [SPEAKER_01]: I think there also is avoiding the reality that. 53:29.675 --> 53:34.117 [SPEAKER_01]: every very well could die tonight, harbor very well could die tonight. 53:34.178 --> 53:46.424 [SPEAKER_01]: Neither one of them is really accepting the fact that the other one's life is truly in danger because it's a difficult thing to like know, let alone belief. 53:47.865 --> 53:51.427 [SPEAKER_01]: Some songbirds are now entering your hearing 54:00.168 --> 54:22.687 [SPEAKER_01]: a flicker of panic across their face because I think they lost track of how much time has been spent talking and trying to like get you to see that it's really still hurt and like seeing them as not a threat and they forgot how close dawn actually is and so they look over at the sun and they look bad at Harper and they say 54:33.571 --> 54:38.312 [SPEAKER_01]: So back to silver linings, I'm super strong now. 54:38.812 --> 54:45.293 [SPEAKER_01]: So like any help on the farm, I can do, I, I shall stronger than I ever have. 54:45.934 --> 54:49.014 [SPEAKER_01]: I, I don't know how else to be useful for you. 54:49.034 --> 54:52.775 [SPEAKER_01]: To ask for stronger than I ever have. 54:53.115 --> 54:56.936 [SPEAKER_01]: I, I'm still alive, but why, and you have me for me? 54:59.264 --> 55:21.789 [SPEAKER_02]: Oh, I don't know, every, maybe because you went and you turned yourself into some supernatural creature because you felt the need, you felt like what you weren't enough that you needed to be usable and useful to me that you haven't spent this whole night talking about how, oh, I was trying to get a different job because I can't help you on the farm. 55:21.829 --> 55:22.810 [SPEAKER_02]: I can't do anything. 55:23.270 --> 55:28.211 [SPEAKER_02]: And so you went and did what tried to change yourself to better fit into my life instead of 55:29.812 --> 55:31.433 [SPEAKER_02]: Do you think I did this one purpose? 55:32.554 --> 55:33.134 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know. 55:33.314 --> 55:35.816 [SPEAKER_02]: I said don't do this and you went in the head and did it. 55:35.896 --> 55:38.198 [SPEAKER_02]: So it feels like it was a little bit on purpose. 55:40.420 --> 55:42.462 [SPEAKER_01]: Do you want to know what happened to me tonight, Herbert? 55:43.042 --> 55:44.403 [SPEAKER_02]: I can see what happened to you. 55:44.944 --> 55:45.144 [SPEAKER_01]: No. 55:46.545 --> 55:46.765 [SPEAKER_01]: No. 55:46.985 --> 55:49.107 [SPEAKER_01]: Not the outcome. 55:50.768 --> 55:52.070 [SPEAKER_02]: What happened? 55:53.110 --> 55:54.371 [SPEAKER_01]: Right before I came to your door. 55:55.012 --> 55:56.073 [SPEAKER_01]: Do you want to hear what I went through? 55:56.708 --> 55:58.689 [SPEAKER_02]: Tell me, tell me, sure, tell me. 55:59.409 --> 56:04.112 [SPEAKER_01]: There is an open position at the local paper, and it's not just a newspaper. 56:04.172 --> 56:10.375 [SPEAKER_01]: It's also like online TikTok information videos and other bullshit, like it's trying to make buy a content. 56:12.075 --> 56:19.099 [SPEAKER_01]: And there was a tip that there was a allegedly small week. 56:20.940 --> 56:21.360 [SPEAKER_01]: Something. 56:23.255 --> 56:36.384 [SPEAKER_01]: those out as a little junkyard, terrorizing garbage men and eating rats and things and I want if you get a job because I think I'm fairly entertaining. 56:36.464 --> 56:41.468 [SPEAKER_01]: So I felt like I would do good with like, you know, maybe being like a reporter or something, I don't know. 56:42.848 --> 56:44.730 [SPEAKER_01]: And so I went 56:50.776 --> 56:51.918 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm going to be careful. 56:52.719 --> 56:58.008 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm not going to be out here at night because I thought I wasn't that stupid. 56:58.849 --> 56:59.810 [SPEAKER_01]: So I went up the gentyard. 57:01.573 --> 57:02.675 [SPEAKER_01]: I drove over. 57:05.028 --> 57:10.712 [SPEAKER_01]: I got out of my car and I sort of just walking around and it snelt bad. 57:11.233 --> 57:18.299 [SPEAKER_01]: And the sun was super bright still because it kept reflecting off of like hubcaps and other garbage. 57:18.799 --> 57:26.726 [SPEAKER_01]: But I couldn't find sight of this mysterious creature of the night that had been supposed to tear it rising in this area. 57:26.746 --> 57:28.307 [SPEAKER_01]: And so I thought, damn, this was a bust. 57:28.367 --> 57:29.948 [SPEAKER_01]: It was a fake lead. 57:30.569 --> 57:31.690 [SPEAKER_01]: I'll just head back home. 57:33.360 --> 57:41.926 [SPEAKER_01]: So I go up to my car and the engine was ripped out. 57:43.888 --> 57:45.789 [SPEAKER_01]: So I took a moment and I was like, all right, Avery. 57:46.910 --> 57:49.452 [SPEAKER_01]: The information got was probably wrong in several ways. 57:50.773 --> 57:54.075 [SPEAKER_01]: While we still have three, 45 minutes. 57:55.176 --> 57:58.399 [SPEAKER_01]: A sunlight, let's go as far away from here as possible. 58:00.700 --> 58:01.541 [SPEAKER_01]: So I started to run. 58:04.308 --> 58:09.553 [SPEAKER_01]: And I think that's what it wanted. 58:10.754 --> 58:13.056 [SPEAKER_01]: I think it liked that I was scared. 58:14.237 --> 58:16.078 [SPEAKER_01]: And I don't know how it followed me. 58:16.158 --> 58:19.702 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't know if it just weighed until there were enough shadows. 58:19.802 --> 58:26.848 [SPEAKER_01]: And it was just that fast or if it was able to track me in some other way. 58:28.329 --> 58:29.050 [SPEAKER_01]: But as soon 58:32.038 --> 58:51.822 [SPEAKER_01]: As the last bit of light disappeared from the sky, I felt this cold thread snakes through my shoulder and I looked down. 58:53.966 --> 59:14.720 [SPEAKER_01]: And I was so tired already, I had been running and Dan there passing out already because I couldn't breathe and there was something piercing through my shoulder and then hooking around my collarbone. 59:16.161 --> 59:20.324 [SPEAKER_01]: And then I lost consciousness, not for a long enough. 59:22.356 --> 59:25.058 [SPEAKER_01]: The next thing I knew, I was somewhere else. 59:25.078 --> 59:26.459 [SPEAKER_01]: It wasn't the junkyard again. 59:26.479 --> 59:31.502 [SPEAKER_01]: It was like farther down that road and it'll jack. 59:32.442 --> 59:34.804 [SPEAKER_01]: And I couldn't see anything. 59:35.864 --> 59:37.765 [SPEAKER_01]: I couldn't scream. 59:37.785 --> 59:42.748 [SPEAKER_01]: I could barely move, but all I could feel was something. 59:44.530 --> 59:44.950 [SPEAKER_01]: Nye. 59:46.895 --> 59:58.782 [SPEAKER_01]: on my arm, like it had taken several bites out of my shoulder and my bicep and was just chewing on the bone. 01:00:00.783 --> 01:00:01.944 [SPEAKER_01]: And then I felt a crack. 01:00:03.945 --> 01:00:05.526 [SPEAKER_01]: I passed out again. 01:00:05.546 --> 01:00:15.232 [SPEAKER_01]: And when I woke up, my arm was like, my 01:00:19.062 --> 01:00:19.462 [SPEAKER_01]: whole. 01:00:20.362 --> 01:00:37.626 [SPEAKER_01]: There was this rushing through my brain like every nerve in my sinuses was stripped and just cold air was hitting every exposed nerve and vessel in my brain. 01:00:37.646 --> 01:00:41.467 [SPEAKER_01]: And I could scream again. 01:00:44.818 --> 01:00:49.080 [SPEAKER_01]: And I did that for a while, but I couldn't pass out again. 01:00:49.100 --> 01:01:02.247 [SPEAKER_01]: Now, our how much I wanted to enter was and that thing was still there and it was saying something, but I couldn't hear it over the sounds of everything and 01:01:04.312 --> 01:01:06.734 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't know how I got away. 01:01:06.874 --> 01:01:13.359 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't know if I fought it off or if it let me go or if I'm not lucky some other way. 01:01:14.680 --> 01:01:32.455 [SPEAKER_01]: I can't remember anything else except the crossroads guys stumbled at one to grandads and the other one to you. 01:01:35.280 --> 01:01:36.500 [SPEAKER_01]: And I didn't even hesitate. 01:01:41.861 --> 01:01:45.242 [SPEAKER_01]: What is I am so scared? 01:01:47.483 --> 01:01:49.003 [SPEAKER_01]: And you're so good at fixing things. 01:01:49.083 --> 01:01:54.164 [SPEAKER_01]: And I know that's not fair for you to always be the one fixing things. 01:01:56.125 --> 01:01:57.525 [SPEAKER_01]: And I know I fucked up. 01:01:59.375 --> 01:02:01.877 [SPEAKER_01]: And I know, I know I get it. 01:02:02.037 --> 01:02:05.719 [SPEAKER_01]: Everything that you have said, I agree with trust me. 01:02:05.819 --> 01:02:07.361 [SPEAKER_01]: I know it better than anyone else. 01:02:08.481 --> 01:02:11.243 [SPEAKER_01]: But this is where I am now. 01:02:11.563 --> 01:02:18.368 [SPEAKER_01]: And I, I don't want my last night to have been like that. 01:02:18.608 --> 01:02:22.891 [SPEAKER_01]: I want, I'm just so tired. 01:02:22.911 --> 01:02:25.113 [SPEAKER_01]: And I just, I just want to lay down. 01:02:32.385 --> 01:02:33.686 [SPEAKER_02]: You know I would have calmed, right? 01:02:33.887 --> 01:02:38.871 [SPEAKER_02]: I mean, I know when you left, I said if you go, I'm not following you. 01:02:40.533 --> 01:02:42.795 [SPEAKER_02]: I just really thought that meant you wouldn't go. 01:02:42.815 --> 01:02:44.937 [SPEAKER_02]: I would have calmed after you. 01:02:46.539 --> 01:02:47.240 [SPEAKER_01]: I wish I hadn't. 01:02:49.382 --> 01:02:51.384 [SPEAKER_01]: God, why did you go there by yourself? 01:02:53.399 --> 01:03:04.207 [SPEAKER_01]: because it's too big, I'm not fucking idiot over or I don't think, and I am so aware of the consequences. 01:03:04.227 --> 01:03:12.954 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not happy for you because you aren't happy about this, so why would I be? 01:03:31.751 --> 01:03:37.274 [SPEAKER_02]: The timber of their voice betrays a violence, a hunger, listen closely. 01:03:38.455 --> 01:03:39.295 [SPEAKER_02]: Can you trust them? 01:03:54.263 --> 01:03:57.405 [SPEAKER_01]: I know I don't deserve you, Harper. 01:03:59.987 --> 01:04:04.250 [SPEAKER_01]: I know I get everything that's coming to me. 01:04:04.270 --> 01:04:07.992 [SPEAKER_01]: I always have a vibe as well, and I probably will never learn my lesson. 01:04:10.093 --> 01:04:18.659 [SPEAKER_01]: At least not all of them, but even if tonight's my last night, I don't 01:04:20.760 --> 01:04:21.820 [SPEAKER_01]: want you to blink yourself. 01:04:23.001 --> 01:04:26.542 [SPEAKER_01]: This is everything that happens is on me. 01:04:28.102 --> 01:04:37.425 [SPEAKER_01]: Whether you let me or not is not really a choice you should have to make either way as a consequence of my own actions. 01:04:37.445 --> 01:04:42.726 [SPEAKER_01]: So I don't want you to feel guilty or afraid either way. 01:04:45.767 --> 01:04:48.348 [SPEAKER_01]: But I just hope that 01:04:51.472 --> 01:05:17.721 [SPEAKER_01]: at least sometimes, as been as much of a comfort for you as you have been for me, because I'm not, I'm not bullshitting or trying to sound cheesy and romantic when I say that, when I think of home, I think of you. 01:05:20.390 --> 01:05:42.752 [SPEAKER_01]: It might be like a cliche saying, but it's the best India like me can come up with I'm not one to write poetry, just trying quote it badly for things that I can remember and I just hope that 01:05:44.426 --> 01:06:09.701 [SPEAKER_01]: Whoever you become home for next, whether it's this new version of me or someone different, that they appreciate what it's like to be held by you, that assurances they provide the safety and security that is felt just by being near you. 01:06:11.142 --> 01:06:11.322 [SPEAKER_01]: And I 01:06:13.543 --> 01:06:19.348 [SPEAKER_01]: I hope they take as much pride in protecting me as I have. 01:06:19.368 --> 01:06:33.140 [SPEAKER_01]: And providing as much support as you allow, I don't want mind the stake to be something that defines your life. 01:06:34.442 --> 01:06:38.185 [SPEAKER_01]: I want, I don't know, and this isn't me. 01:06:40.060 --> 01:06:46.425 [SPEAKER_01]: complaining, but the, I think I'm starting to get a migraine from the sun. 01:06:47.006 --> 01:06:53.972 [SPEAKER_01]: It's much, I think it's probably brighter to me than it is to you and it's like, it feels like daggers. 01:06:55.093 --> 01:06:56.013 [SPEAKER_01]: Oh, God. 01:06:58.676 --> 01:06:59.336 [SPEAKER_02]: That was a lot. 01:06:59.716 --> 01:07:01.078 [SPEAKER_02]: You're saying a lot of words. 01:07:01.658 --> 01:07:02.038 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah. 01:07:03.840 --> 01:07:05.701 [SPEAKER_02]: You've already talked yourself in circles 01:07:09.439 --> 01:07:10.800 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know what you mean anymore. 01:07:13.101 --> 01:07:23.226 [SPEAKER_02]: If I'd known that you were going to go there no matter what I said, I would have strapped you to the bed of my pickup truck and I would have driven a hundred miles south. 01:07:23.246 --> 01:07:31.930 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know what I would have done then, but hey, unclench your jaw. 01:07:45.447 --> 01:07:49.051 [SPEAKER_02]: recall what it felt like the moment before you kissed them for the first time. 01:07:57.160 --> 01:07:59.443 [SPEAKER_02]: In this moment, I... 01:08:01.080 --> 01:08:25.915 [SPEAKER_02]: looking at you as the sun rises and as you're speaking and you're talking about all of the things about me you don't notice it but I see your lips start to pull back like kind of like a dog growling and your things coming down and bearing at me and I can see physically manifesting 01:08:30.958 --> 01:08:40.630 [SPEAKER_02]: Yet, at the same time, with a glance at your lips when I tell you not to bear your tea things at me and you stop. 01:08:41.731 --> 01:08:46.517 [SPEAKER_02]: Without being able to see the teeth, there's a familiarity there. 01:08:49.073 --> 01:09:00.316 [SPEAKER_02]: And I remember back in high school, after you came out publicly, and everyone was in a tizzy about it, and we're not kind to you. 01:09:00.336 --> 01:09:16.461 [SPEAKER_02]: And I remember being in your house, in your bedroom, on your bed, and just feeling this fluttering and my stomach, because I hadn't ever thought about that before. 01:09:18.117 --> 01:09:37.092 [SPEAKER_02]: and now here it was a girl who I knew light girls and all of a sudden presented with that possibility there was a spark of joy and nerves and anxiety. 01:09:38.346 --> 01:09:51.953 [SPEAKER_02]: And I remember being like, wow, he really just ruined her own life by being this way, but I have never felt this way in my life. 01:09:52.133 --> 01:10:02.738 [SPEAKER_02]: And I do think I'm going to spontaneously combust if I don't know what this feeling is or if I don't follow through with this feeling. 01:10:10.738 --> 01:10:28.935 [SPEAKER_02]: They're a butterflies in my stomach again now, but they're not quite butterflies, and the anxiety is not quite joyous. 01:10:28.955 --> 01:10:32.418 [SPEAKER_01]: I am the person you fall in love with. 01:10:33.559 --> 01:10:34.540 [SPEAKER_01]: Why can't you see that? 01:10:35.682 --> 01:10:41.203 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm trying to, I really am trying to, but you're already so different. 01:10:41.263 --> 01:10:50.226 [SPEAKER_02]: I know you don't think you are, and I know you think you're saying all the right things, but there's like a look in your eye, and you're not looking at me like you used to. 01:10:50.246 --> 01:10:54.807 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm pedicain, corporate, it's not that. 01:10:56.449 --> 01:11:07.756 [SPEAKER_02]: You know, those chocolate chip pancakes, my mom used to make, and they would come down on Sunday mornings and just absolutely demolish them. 01:11:07.776 --> 01:11:13.380 [SPEAKER_02]: You know, she put many in the nemes and them too, it was really fucking good. 01:11:14.320 --> 01:11:22.826 [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, well, looking my eyes at seven year old when I saw dessert for breakfast, that's still looking at your eyes right now. 01:11:25.014 --> 01:11:30.398 [SPEAKER_01]: is there anything I can say or do to convince that that's not what's happening here? 01:11:31.919 --> 01:11:47.792 [SPEAKER_01]: But genuinely, because if not, I don't want to sit here clawing your door until the last second, I would rather just walk off than not have you see me die. 01:11:47.812 --> 01:11:51.935 [SPEAKER_02]: I just want you to accept what's happening to you and you're not. 01:11:53.080 --> 01:11:55.462 [SPEAKER_01]: wasn't the fact that I turned to a fucking vampire? 01:11:55.482 --> 01:11:58.043 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, I think I'm pretty clearly accepted that. 01:11:58.243 --> 01:12:04.748 [SPEAKER_02]: You're not trusting the possibility that if I open the door, it's over for both of us. 01:12:05.508 --> 01:12:07.029 [SPEAKER_01]: You're not hearing me. 01:12:07.389 --> 01:12:15.115 [SPEAKER_01]: You're not looking at me, you're looking at my fucking teeth, then my pointiness, and my fucking uncanny valley stinky shit. 01:12:15.735 --> 01:12:16.155 [SPEAKER_01]: You're not. 01:12:20.655 --> 01:12:29.182 [SPEAKER_01]: There's nothing that I can say or do to make you understand that what I'm saying is true. 01:12:30.123 --> 01:12:33.405 [SPEAKER_01]: But I need, I wish that you would just at least trust me. 01:12:33.425 --> 01:12:41.432 [SPEAKER_01]: The vampire bullshit aside that you trusted me enough to know that I wouldn't put you in danger, that I would never hurt you. 01:12:43.156 --> 01:13:10.721 [SPEAKER_01]: And it's, it's a little insulting that you keep insinuating that I'm some like raised monster, it's just waiting, great, yeah, it's all my fault, yeah, sure, no, that's not what I fucking said and you know it, but I'm scared, you're not the one that's about to literally die, and I don't know how long it takes for to break over the tree line, you're not hearing what I'm saying either, you're saying that you know a trust me, am I wrong, you were impulsive before, you were impulsive before, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were impulsive, you were 01:13:12.015 --> 01:13:14.257 [SPEAKER_02]: You know that, you've self-admitted that. 01:13:14.718 --> 01:13:18.301 [SPEAKER_02]: There's a difference between impulse, why can't you accept that it's a possibility? 01:13:19.382 --> 01:13:21.504 [SPEAKER_01]: Why do you want it to be a possibility? 01:13:22.185 --> 01:13:23.626 [SPEAKER_01]: Because I'm living in reality? 01:13:23.646 --> 01:13:33.636 [SPEAKER_01]: Okay, we'll say that like there is a world in which some sort of multiverse so far away from this one that there is a slight possibility that I would hurt you after I cross them it's threshold. 01:13:34.136 --> 01:13:35.418 [SPEAKER_01]: Would that change anything? 01:13:36.458 --> 01:13:41.082 [SPEAKER_01]: Do you mean, does it change the fact what I open a door not for you? 01:13:41.242 --> 01:13:45.005 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, like if we either doing what it means the door means I die. 01:13:45.025 --> 01:13:46.927 [SPEAKER_01]: Well, you're assuming that either way. 01:13:46.987 --> 01:13:53.351 [SPEAKER_01]: So it doesn't matter if I tell you what I know to be true, which is I would never hurt you or if I say, no, yeah, you're right, harder. 01:13:53.812 --> 01:13:56.014 [SPEAKER_01]: There's a possibility that I would hurt you. 01:13:56.234 --> 01:13:58.555 [SPEAKER_01]: You're saying, I'm the way I'm fucked. 01:13:59.396 --> 01:14:00.217 [SPEAKER_01]: is what you're saying. 01:14:00.457 --> 01:14:04.759 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know if I can trust you, but I would have feel a lot better if you understood my concern. 01:14:05.260 --> 01:14:05.800 [SPEAKER_02]: And you don't. 01:14:06.060 --> 01:14:07.301 [SPEAKER_02]: You're acting like it doesn't matter. 01:14:07.321 --> 01:14:09.122 [SPEAKER_02]: You're acting like I shouldn't even think it. 01:14:09.202 --> 01:14:10.223 [SPEAKER_02]: Why shouldn't I think it? 01:14:10.763 --> 01:14:13.425 [SPEAKER_02]: Of course it matters, but like it's, it's me. 01:14:14.545 --> 01:14:16.366 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm not just some random person. 01:14:18.228 --> 01:14:18.888 [SPEAKER_01]: It's me. 01:14:21.409 --> 01:14:22.210 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know that. 01:14:23.113 --> 01:14:50.084 [SPEAKER_02]: us we can't know anything so you don't know if we can't know anything then you don't know that you wouldn't that's why we trust well then I guess here we are not trusting each other but I trust you is what I've been saying why do you think I came here why do you think I chose you over trying to find some problem in the ground or my granddad's shed you've told that you've told me why you chose me I get why you chose to come here I think it was an 01:14:54.105 --> 01:14:54.725 [SPEAKER_01]: Oh my God. 01:15:02.969 --> 01:15:03.429 [SPEAKER_02]: Avery. 01:15:06.911 --> 01:15:10.772 [SPEAKER_02]: You killed yourself tonight when you made the decision to follow that lead. 01:15:12.013 --> 01:15:18.896 [SPEAKER_02]: And I thought before that, I thought there was a world I... 01:15:20.797 --> 01:15:23.018 [SPEAKER_02]: I wanted to try to grow old with you. 01:15:24.835 --> 01:15:35.438 [SPEAKER_01]: Sure, I just go, I don't know, you know, I may be in pulsoes, but at least I make decisions. 01:15:37.359 --> 01:15:39.340 [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, you do. 01:15:41.160 --> 01:15:42.861 [SPEAKER_02]: You balanced each other out that way, I think. 01:15:43.881 --> 01:15:52.824 [SPEAKER_01]: I've ever just sort of like sits down on the porch and lings their back against, like the little fence, their back to the east, 01:15:57.424 --> 01:16:06.151 [SPEAKER_02]: I know this is new for you, and now you haven't had a lot of time to think about it, but it's kind of been the only thing on my mind this whole time if I'm being honest with you. 01:16:07.091 --> 01:16:22.603 [SPEAKER_02]: You'll stay this way forever, and I won't, and I life goes on in the years will pass, and if we aren't together, if we are, you will go on changing. 01:16:24.072 --> 01:16:33.103 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know if that type of life would allow you to grow in any way, but definitely not. 01:16:35.045 --> 01:16:35.906 [SPEAKER_02]: Grow old with me. 01:16:37.390 --> 01:16:43.257 [SPEAKER_01]: So, you'd rather take the decision away entirely, the possibility away entirely. 01:16:44.038 --> 01:16:51.366 [SPEAKER_02]: You've already taken the possibility away, if you're not going to grow old with me, you can't anymore. 01:16:51.386 --> 01:16:57.994 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm not even going to make it in the next hour proper, why would I start thinking about growing older, not now? 01:16:59.354 --> 01:17:03.836 [SPEAKER_01]: back at it, not wanting to talk about the future, at least for consistent. 01:17:04.456 --> 01:17:09.639 [SPEAKER_01]: The Wii is doing a lot in that sentence, pretty sure I've been trying to bring it up. 01:17:10.459 --> 01:17:11.540 [SPEAKER_01]: Maybe not the way it's not. 01:17:12.320 --> 01:17:18.923 [SPEAKER_01]: The Wii is so willing to have a conversation instead of just finding ways excuses for how it's just not going to work in a matter of what. 01:17:21.337 --> 01:17:32.130 [SPEAKER_01]: You know, I thought I'd be able to go to like grease some day when you're like Ireland or something somewhere out of this country, hell, I'd take Canada. 01:17:33.812 --> 01:17:34.854 [SPEAKER_02]: Did you want to go with me? 01:17:34.874 --> 01:17:37.417 [SPEAKER_01]: I want to do everything with you, Parker. 01:17:38.941 --> 01:17:50.667 [SPEAKER_01]: The best part about going to like an museum, or like out of town in the camping trip or whatever, is watching Yingu look at the new things around you. 01:17:51.467 --> 01:18:02.753 [SPEAKER_01]: So while Yingu got this town so fucking badly, it's because I see what it's like, I see what you're like when you see something maybe what's interesting, but if I can have like it, 01:18:03.885 --> 01:18:04.685 [SPEAKER_01]: last wish. 01:18:05.686 --> 01:18:07.507 [SPEAKER_01]: It would be for you to just get the fuck out of here. 01:18:07.527 --> 01:18:11.168 [SPEAKER_01]: Because it's killing you. 01:18:12.729 --> 01:18:16.050 [SPEAKER_01]: Just as assuredly as some monster into the bed. 01:18:17.551 --> 01:18:18.191 [SPEAKER_01]: Just slower. 01:18:19.912 --> 01:18:20.752 [SPEAKER_01]: Do I think it's worse? 01:18:28.239 --> 01:18:34.221 [SPEAKER_01]: How do you consider what immortality will change both of us from? 01:18:35.182 --> 01:18:39.243 [SPEAKER_02]: So now you want me to go through with this, too? 01:18:39.823 --> 01:18:49.887 [SPEAKER_01]: No, let's let's let's let's let's it I know, but I also have given up on actually surviving today 01:18:54.818 --> 01:19:01.020 [SPEAKER_01]: If we can't grow old together, what would it be like to stay young forever together? 01:19:01.040 --> 01:19:04.720 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't... 01:19:07.441 --> 01:19:08.181 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't know. 01:19:10.222 --> 01:19:11.782 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't want that. 01:19:12.762 --> 01:19:16.803 [SPEAKER_01]: Do you not want it because it's meaning? 01:19:16.823 --> 01:19:21.745 [SPEAKER_02]: No, I don't want... To be young forever, I don't want to live forever. 01:19:24.463 --> 01:19:36.127 [SPEAKER_02]: In this scenario, the only way I know how to be, that way is to become a vampire, and I know what ostracization in this little town does. 01:19:36.187 --> 01:19:39.568 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't need to add a second issue on top of that. 01:19:41.028 --> 01:19:44.970 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't, I'm not willing to lose the only life I've ever known. 01:19:46.930 --> 01:19:48.011 [SPEAKER_01]: I can have that thought to stop. 01:19:49.131 --> 01:19:50.271 [SPEAKER_02]: I was glad you have a choice. 01:19:51.532 --> 01:19:52.552 [SPEAKER_02]: You should have been given one. 01:19:54.613 --> 01:19:56.355 [SPEAKER_01]: I think you made it very clear that I was. 01:19:56.575 --> 01:19:57.556 [SPEAKER_01]: I made the wrong ones. 01:19:58.097 --> 01:20:03.783 [SPEAKER_02]: No, you made the wrong choice in putting yourself in danger. 01:20:05.545 --> 01:20:08.608 [SPEAKER_02]: But you did not choose what happened to you. 01:20:09.749 --> 01:20:12.172 [SPEAKER_02]: Sorry that I said that. 01:20:13.553 --> 01:20:13.934 [SPEAKER_01]: Sorry. 01:20:14.915 --> 01:20:15.275 [SPEAKER_02]: It's not. 01:20:22.437 --> 01:20:26.902 [SPEAKER_02]: The blood stains their clothes, who does it belong to, did they kill someone? 01:20:29.565 --> 01:20:43.680 [SPEAKER_02]: The blood on Avery's clothes is very much her own, and Harper has been trying to pretend it hasn't been there this whole time. 01:21:05.399 --> 01:21:08.383 [SPEAKER_01]: This card represents the hours passing before sunrise. 01:21:09.524 --> 01:21:15.511 [SPEAKER_01]: This is the third time record drawn, flip to our sunrise cards and end the game. 01:21:17.674 --> 01:21:18.915 [SPEAKER_02]: The sun rises. 01:21:20.297 --> 01:21:21.258 [SPEAKER_02]: Look them in the eye. 01:21:22.940 --> 01:21:23.921 [SPEAKER_02]: Do you invite them in? 01:21:27.142 --> 01:21:31.584 [SPEAKER_02]: Harper has been sitting in a chair that she dragged to the door. 01:21:32.284 --> 01:21:35.385 [SPEAKER_02]: Avery showed up at like 2 AM. 01:21:35.965 --> 01:21:47.369 [SPEAKER_02]: So Harper's in pajamas pulled a chair up to sit on the opposite side of the porch screen door and stands up and looks out at the rising sun and looks at Avery. 01:21:47.389 --> 01:21:50.550 [SPEAKER_02]: And they just stare at each other for a moment. 01:21:52.089 --> 01:22:02.078 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't think that we can come back from this or at least not sure that we can, but I never wanted you to die and push his open the screen door. 01:22:03.440 --> 01:22:06.663 [SPEAKER_02]: Do you want me to strip or just hurry up? 01:22:07.203 --> 01:22:15.751 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, because they were sitting down in disbelief to sort of like stand up a little too fast and then their legs don't really catch up even quite as well. 01:22:16.632 --> 01:22:40.749 [SPEAKER_01]: and so they almost fall into my mushrooms and Harper, you can feel their muscles are so much like denser and they're more angular and like there's a lot of things wrong but despite the things their smile is the same and the relief in their eyes is genuine and they slam the front door 01:22:46.319 --> 01:22:50.640 [SPEAKER_01]: They turned to you, with that same look in their eye that they had when y'all first kissed. 01:22:53.081 --> 01:22:54.381 [SPEAKER_02]: Harper is still looking at you. 01:22:54.401 --> 01:23:09.806 [SPEAKER_02]: You know, you talked about how you haven't seen her smile in a while, and I think there's been this like, engrossed in something else, always somewhere else, but all of a sudden there's just fierce intensity that she is finally in the room with you again. 01:23:11.186 --> 01:23:14.647 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know if we can come back from this. 01:23:17.318 --> 01:23:24.866 [SPEAKER_02]: But, fuck it if this is the last time, and I think she steps forward and presses you into the door and kisses you. 01:23:40.463 --> 01:23:42.525 [SPEAKER_02]: To feel your warmth is crowdfunding now. 01:23:43.085 --> 01:23:45.968 [SPEAKER_02]: Check out the description box for a link to back this game.