WEBVTT 00:07.085 --> 00:08.709 [SPEAKER_02]: and welcome to our show. 00:09.010 --> 00:11.335 [SPEAKER_02]: The shit no one tells you about writing. 00:12.077 --> 00:16.007 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm best selling author Bianca Marie, and I'm joined by C.C. 00:16.067 --> 00:20.959 [SPEAKER_02]: Lira of Wendy Sherman Associates and Carly Waters of PS Literary. 00:22.492 --> 00:23.133 [SPEAKER_02]: Hi, everyone. 00:23.173 --> 00:29.760 [SPEAKER_02]: Today's guest is a federal reserve executive who also writes novels about people behaving badly. 00:29.820 --> 00:34.526 [SPEAKER_02]: She lives in the Chicago suburbs with her husband and two young children. 00:34.846 --> 00:37.449 [SPEAKER_02]: It's my pleasure to welcome Marissa Walsh. 00:37.469 --> 00:38.791 [SPEAKER_02]: Marissa, welcome to the show. 00:38.811 --> 00:40.473 [SPEAKER_02]: Thank you so much. 00:40.553 --> 00:41.734 [SPEAKER_00]: I'm excited to be here. 00:41.934 --> 00:44.297 [SPEAKER_00]: I've been a listener for a long time. 00:44.277 --> 00:46.821 [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, we're going to actually discuss that soon. 00:46.861 --> 00:49.485 [SPEAKER_02]: I've got a few things to discuss before we dive in. 00:49.525 --> 00:53.671 [SPEAKER_02]: So normally I tape one or two episodes a day. 00:54.072 --> 00:58.238 [SPEAKER_02]: Today I'm setting a record for the podcast and I'm taping four segments. 00:58.799 --> 01:08.734 [SPEAKER_02]: And for those of you who aren't watching on YouTube, I want you to see my t-shirt, which is stay trashy, and it has a raccoon doing burlesque on it. 01:08.834 --> 01:12.580 [SPEAKER_02]: So now that people have 01:12.560 --> 01:15.183 [SPEAKER_02]: huge stuff so I just wanted to show this off. 01:15.584 --> 01:30.583 [SPEAKER_02]: Okay, the next thing I'm showing off is the book cover for good intentions, such a stunning cover really grab your attention kind of simple but also not for those of you who are driving and watching please at some point check in on YouTube. 01:30.883 --> 01:37.572 [SPEAKER_02]: Okay, I'm going to read the flap copy and then I'm going to also 01:37.552 --> 01:42.645 [SPEAKER_02]: and many of you who've been listening to the podcast for a long time are going to be like Hold on a second. 01:42.986 --> 01:44.429 [SPEAKER_02]: I recognize this. 01:44.449 --> 01:46.294 [SPEAKER_02]: So here is our flat copy. 01:46.775 --> 01:54.936 [SPEAKER_02]: Katie has it all, a thriving luxury event planning business, a packed social calendar, and the man she's loved since she was 17. 01:54.916 --> 02:01.865 [SPEAKER_02]: and most importantly, she has Dana, who identical twin her mirror, her closest fond, until the day she does not. 02:02.366 --> 02:09.535 [SPEAKER_02]: For in Katy gets a call that Dana has been in a serious accident and arrives moments to late to say goodbye to her world's shatters. 02:09.916 --> 02:19.388 [SPEAKER_02]: But it's not just the last that consumes her, it's also Morgan, a grieving mother, Katy notices in the hospital waiting room the day her sister dies. 02:19.368 --> 02:33.884 [SPEAKER_02]: a stranger and yet Katie feels a pulse she can't ignore convincing herself that the only way to heal is to help those women recover from her own devastating tragedy or is it possible that Katie wants something more from Morgan? 02:33.904 --> 02:35.866 [SPEAKER_02]: Don't, don't, don't, don't. 02:35.886 --> 02:37.688 [SPEAKER_02]: Okay, would you read us that first rule? 02:37.748 --> 02:39.129 [SPEAKER_02]: Not the whole first chapter, right? 02:39.149 --> 02:44.515 [SPEAKER_02]: It's just going to be, I know, it is the first 02:45.203 --> 02:48.569 [SPEAKER_00]: Okay, the sun is leaving for the day, and I probably should too. 02:48.930 --> 02:50.032 [SPEAKER_00]: I shouldn't be here at all. 02:50.352 --> 02:51.254 [SPEAKER_00]: This has to stop. 02:51.575 --> 02:52.456 [SPEAKER_00]: Everyone says so. 02:52.957 --> 02:54.059 [SPEAKER_00]: It's not healthy, Katie. 02:54.280 --> 02:54.921 [SPEAKER_00]: It's not right. 02:55.322 --> 02:55.883 [SPEAKER_00]: Not normal. 02:56.424 --> 02:56.965 [SPEAKER_00]: Not legal. 02:57.886 --> 02:58.808 [SPEAKER_00]: But I'm only watching. 02:59.129 --> 03:00.411 [SPEAKER_00]: Watching never hurt anyone. 03:00.695 --> 03:03.639 [SPEAKER_00]: There's not much to see anyway, just another house sucked dry. 03:04.099 --> 03:06.983 [SPEAKER_00]: The only sign of life, the pulse of a television's blue light. 03:07.463 --> 03:11.008 [SPEAKER_00]: It flickers from the back of the house where I've always imagined her living room to be. 03:11.028 --> 03:12.930 [SPEAKER_00]: I can't know for sure, though. 03:13.130 --> 03:18.136 [SPEAKER_00]: I've never been invited in, despite those months when we were what I would consider, friends. 03:18.557 --> 03:22.922 [SPEAKER_00]: The house, a small brick bungalow, has the look of something kept nice out of duty, not love. 03:23.324 --> 03:27.248 [SPEAKER_00]: The driveway inside walker neatly shoveled, but that's all that suggests someone cares. 03:27.568 --> 03:30.391 [SPEAKER_00]: There's no months old Christmas breath she's too busy to take down. 03:30.831 --> 03:33.934 [SPEAKER_00]: No welcome mat for visitors to wipe their snowpacked boots on. 03:34.375 --> 03:36.116 [SPEAKER_00]: No sled, lying forgotten in the yard. 03:36.457 --> 03:37.938 [SPEAKER_00]: No smoke curling from the chibney. 03:38.539 --> 03:41.862 [SPEAKER_00]: Not even the bronze lantern hanging over the door has been left on. 03:42.743 --> 03:51.171 [SPEAKER_00]: Away from the house, closer to me, a zillion skeleton scarred her concrete walkway. 03:51.657 --> 04:05.533 [SPEAKER_00]: blowing away and decomposing beneath the weight of the snow, leaving behind a network of woody rib cages, above a gray sky, blow a dirty white carpet, snow, slash by the brown dirt of boot treads and the spray of money tires. 04:06.515 --> 04:07.676 [SPEAKER_00]: It didn't have to be this way. 04:08.117 --> 04:15.285 [SPEAKER_00]: It did not have to be like this, her and there with the TV's said blue light casting of the shadows on her pretty face. 04:15.265 --> 04:22.254 [SPEAKER_00]: Me out here in my car, lights off, and gin cold, winter biting into my bones until my muscles cramped protectively around them. 04:23.756 --> 04:35.511 [SPEAKER_00]: I tried to help her, the woman inside, the one watching TV alone, and doodably keeping her driveway shoveled, but it's hard to help someone hanging on by a thread being up, impossible if you're hanging on to the same one. 04:36.473 --> 04:44.563 [SPEAKER_00]: At some point, despite your good intentions, 04:45.421 --> 04:47.583 [SPEAKER_00]: This though, the watching, it has to stop. 04:48.224 --> 04:48.964 [SPEAKER_00]: And it will soon. 04:49.365 --> 04:50.826 [SPEAKER_00]: I promised the therapist it will. 04:51.587 --> 04:56.271 [SPEAKER_00]: We had a session tonight right before I came here and I told him I'd given myself one last visit. 04:56.932 --> 04:59.094 [SPEAKER_00]: This was when he suggested I start talking to you. 04:59.615 --> 05:02.457 [SPEAKER_00]: He thought it might be easier for me to tell you all the things I can. 05:02.838 --> 05:03.839 [SPEAKER_00]: Won't tell him. 05:04.639 --> 05:06.141 [SPEAKER_00]: Anyway, he wasn't impressed. 05:06.802 --> 05:09.664 [SPEAKER_00]: And then what he wanted to know, and then what will you do, Katie? 05:10.585 --> 05:11.286 [SPEAKER_00]: Wrong question. 05:11.706 --> 05:13.588 [SPEAKER_00]: He always asks the wrong questions. 05:14.041 --> 05:16.605 [SPEAKER_00]: It's not what I'm going to do that we should be talking about. 05:17.046 --> 05:18.288 [SPEAKER_00]: It's what's already been done. 05:19.030 --> 05:20.352 [SPEAKER_00]: But I can't tell you that, Dana. 05:20.853 --> 05:24.459 [SPEAKER_00]: I can't tell you anything without telling you everything you've missed. 05:25.120 --> 05:25.782 [SPEAKER_02]: Wonderful. 05:26.202 --> 05:26.703 [SPEAKER_02]: Okay. 05:26.863 --> 05:29.789 [SPEAKER_02]: So, you were on books with Hooks when was it? 05:30.069 --> 05:30.810 [SPEAKER_02]: You weren't on it. 05:30.890 --> 05:32.433 [SPEAKER_02]: We reviewed your critique, right? 05:32.754 --> 05:33.315 [SPEAKER_00]: Yes. 05:33.335 --> 05:33.655 [SPEAKER_00]: Yes. 05:33.956 --> 05:39.205 [SPEAKER_00]: It was February I think of 2024. 05:39.640 --> 05:41.503 [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, that'd be very 2024. 05:42.284 --> 05:43.426 [SPEAKER_02]: That's what I'm thinking as well. 05:43.446 --> 05:48.974 [SPEAKER_02]: And that must have been really close to when you sold this book considering how slowly publishing moves. 05:48.994 --> 05:58.628 [SPEAKER_02]: So I'd love to hear your journey to publication, as well as your experience with books with hocks, if you changed anything, if you didn't have that process worked for you. 05:59.080 --> 06:03.989 [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, so my history with books is well, first of all, I've always wanted to be a writer since I was a little girl. 06:04.450 --> 06:09.720 [SPEAKER_00]: Since I was at least seven, I have recorded in my diary that I'm going to be a famous author one day. 06:09.740 --> 06:20.160 [SPEAKER_00]: And I've always been writing in some capacity my whole life, whether it's for school newspapers or having my own blog or if anybody remembers the days of the easings. 06:20.360 --> 06:21.642 [SPEAKER_00]: I had a few of those. 06:22.202 --> 06:30.092 [SPEAKER_00]: I've always been writing, but I didn't really get serious about writing a novel until I had my first born, my son. 06:30.993 --> 06:49.455 [SPEAKER_00]: And I remember he was a few days old and I just looked back at him in the backseat of the car and I remember this moment in the feeling so vividly that I just really wanted him to do something with his life that excited him and just made him wake up every 06:49.435 --> 06:50.998 [SPEAKER_00]: a fire burning in his belly. 06:51.879 --> 06:58.571 [SPEAKER_00]: And I've always known and I think there's a lot of people that don't know what their thing is or it takes them a very long time to figure out. 06:58.851 --> 07:05.724 [SPEAKER_00]: And I've always known it and it just kind of hit me that I was given this gift of knowing what my thing is. 07:06.525 --> 07:08.288 [SPEAKER_00]: But I hadn't really. 07:08.825 --> 07:10.487 [SPEAKER_00]: done too much about it. 07:11.528 --> 07:14.732 [SPEAKER_00]: And I wanted to be a better example for him. 07:15.293 --> 07:19.659 [SPEAKER_00]: And so I just that day or the next day, I can't remember. 07:19.679 --> 07:24.565 [SPEAKER_00]: It was very shortly after that I really said on Ernest to write my first novel. 07:25.446 --> 07:28.690 [SPEAKER_00]: And I was like, I'm just going to write it and then I could say, I wrote it. 07:30.020 --> 07:49.800 [SPEAKER_00]: But then it was like, well, I wrote the whole thing, let's see if I can get an agent and I didn't get an agent for that book, but like I had a taste of it, the fire was lit and it was not going to go out and so I wrote several more books and I think it was, let's see, it was my third book that I had that I got to agents with we went out on submission, it died on submission. 07:50.590 --> 07:51.831 [SPEAKER_00]: So I started writing another book. 07:51.972 --> 07:53.073 [SPEAKER_00]: They didn't really love the book. 07:53.193 --> 07:55.696 [SPEAKER_00]: So I wrote another book and it was good intentions. 07:56.096 --> 08:01.783 [SPEAKER_02]: I want to just to really experience the emotions of a book dying on submission. 08:01.983 --> 08:05.026 [SPEAKER_02]: Because it's easy for us to say this book die on submission. 08:05.167 --> 08:08.050 [SPEAKER_02]: But there is so much hope in terms of getting an agent. 08:08.170 --> 08:13.476 [SPEAKER_02]: And we believe, oh my goodness, if I can just get an agent, then my book's gonna get published. 08:13.456 --> 08:24.090 [SPEAKER_02]: and to have a book that an agent says yes to you work with them on it, it goes up to all these editors and then a dies on submission is a particular kind of heartbreak. 08:24.863 --> 08:25.243 [SPEAKER_00]: it is. 08:25.544 --> 08:27.866 [SPEAKER_00]: It's absolutely devastating. 08:28.748 --> 08:41.322 [SPEAKER_00]: I will say that I read voraciously like anything that anybody, every author's substacks, every aspiring author's substacks, I listen to all the podcasts, including the shit no one tells you. 08:42.143 --> 08:47.389 [SPEAKER_00]: And so I kind of prepared myself like, okay, it might not happen this time, but you're right. 08:47.529 --> 08:50.753 [SPEAKER_00]: I thought it didn't matter because I had the safety net of agents 08:50.733 --> 09:16.150 [SPEAKER_00]: So like even if this book died on submission there are all these stories that keep you going like oh well 18 months later I thought it was dead on submission, but it really wasn't and like it's these little tiny scraps of hope that just Keep you going on and on and like Doing the crazy work of writing another whole book not knowing if anything's ever gonna happen with it But I definitely did feel like 09:16.872 --> 09:21.180 [SPEAKER_00]: You know, even if even if this book doesn't sell, I have agents now. 09:21.280 --> 09:22.001 [SPEAKER_00]: So I'm set. 09:22.382 --> 09:25.628 [SPEAKER_00]: Now all I have to do is get the right book at the right time. 09:26.249 --> 09:27.471 [SPEAKER_00]: I got the hard part down. 09:27.631 --> 09:28.633 [SPEAKER_00]: I've got the agents. 09:29.174 --> 09:29.775 [SPEAKER_00]: No, no, no, no. 09:30.416 --> 09:35.185 [SPEAKER_00]: So I wrote another book to keep myself busy while I was on submission. 09:35.958 --> 09:37.640 [SPEAKER_00]: And that really does help. 09:37.680 --> 09:40.523 [SPEAKER_00]: By the way, it really does help keep you sane. 09:41.404 --> 09:57.443 [SPEAKER_00]: And while my agents didn't really like that book, which was a huge disappointment because right now I may be like six or seven months past submission and we've gotten, you know, some nice feedback, but nothing even close to going to take this to acquisitions. 09:58.756 --> 10:06.105 [SPEAKER_00]: And so that was kind of like a double whammy because I thought this was my like, this was my backup hope right. 10:07.206 --> 10:09.629 [SPEAKER_00]: Like, okay, if that one didn't work out, then this one would. 10:10.109 --> 10:14.114 [SPEAKER_00]: And he really liked that story, but I just let it go and I wrote another whole book. 10:14.414 --> 10:18.880 [SPEAKER_00]: I wrote good intentions and I knew this book was good. 10:18.900 --> 10:20.141 [SPEAKER_00]: I loved this book. 10:20.501 --> 10:25.287 [SPEAKER_00]: I couldn't imagine that there wasn't some editor out there that was also going to love this book. 10:26.060 --> 10:28.567 [SPEAKER_00]: So I excitedly sent it off to my agents. 10:29.108 --> 10:35.585 [SPEAKER_00]: And they took a while to read it and when they finally got back to me, they did not love it. 10:35.625 --> 10:37.450 [SPEAKER_00]: They didn't even seem to think it was workable. 10:38.131 --> 10:38.753 [SPEAKER_00]: And 10:39.762 --> 11:02.952 [SPEAKER_00]: I had a writer friend at the time who she was becoming very successful in her writing career and she told me, you know, she's like a lot of writers have to leave their agents because it's such a subjective business, even though they were great people and there's no ill will between any of us, there was just a clear difference between our tastes and apparently I'd written one book that they really liked but. 11:02.932 --> 11:05.302 [SPEAKER_00]: but that seemed to be the extent of it for us. 11:05.703 --> 11:11.085 [SPEAKER_00]: It was really, really hard, but this other author, who was kind of like a mentor to me through. 11:11.217 --> 11:19.026 [SPEAKER_00]: not so much through writing, we didn't really talk about writing so much as we did the publishing industry, like how difficult it is, how unique it is, how hard protein it is. 11:19.066 --> 11:33.664 [SPEAKER_00]: And I really suggest having somebody like that in your corner, even if they're not an established published author, like just having a community is so important for getting through this to remind you that you're not alone, it's not you. 11:33.644 --> 11:39.673 [SPEAKER_00]: And to give you the good advice you need, because she really pushed me, she's like, I'm telling you, she's like, you need to find a new agent. 11:39.733 --> 11:53.895 [SPEAKER_00]: I know that's so scary it is terrifying because you really think when you get your agent that that's it that you two together will produce more and more books and one of them will work and that just didn't work for me. 11:53.955 --> 11:55.517 [SPEAKER_00]: So it was terrifying. 11:56.071 --> 12:06.549 [SPEAKER_00]: to go back in the query trends just again, but okay, I'm going to lose a lot of people here with my relatability maybe, but I kind of like the excitement of querying agents. 12:07.912 --> 12:15.826 [SPEAKER_00]: And I'd already then through such a long process with it that I felt like I kind of knew what I was doing now and what I wanted. 12:16.527 --> 12:21.015 [SPEAKER_00]: So I felt more confident going into it this next time and I started querying 12:22.210 --> 12:22.991 [SPEAKER_00]: November 2023. 12:23.131 --> 12:30.282 [SPEAKER_00]: And then I was, I don't know, I had gotten a lot of full requests and it was over the holidays and stuff. 12:30.302 --> 12:31.765 [SPEAKER_00]: And like, I could just feel it. 12:31.785 --> 12:35.110 [SPEAKER_00]: It felt like last time when I was getting close and started to get interest. 12:35.130 --> 12:36.211 [SPEAKER_00]: I was like, it's coming. 12:36.272 --> 12:37.133 [SPEAKER_00]: I think I feel it. 12:38.054 --> 12:39.797 [SPEAKER_00]: And I was getting really excited. 12:39.877 --> 12:43.082 [SPEAKER_00]: And then I found out that my query was going to be on the ship. 12:43.102 --> 12:43.823 [SPEAKER_00]: No one tells you. 12:44.003 --> 12:48.370 [SPEAKER_00]: And that was in February, early February, I think. 12:49.396 --> 13:09.177 [SPEAKER_00]: And yeah, so I got the feedback on the show and I, you know, I don't, I don't think it was like that bad there would I distinctly remember there was like everybody unanimously agreed that I had to take the Birken out there was like a Birken mentioned in the opening scenes. 13:10.388 --> 13:21.442 [SPEAKER_02]: And I was probably not that person because I know nothing about Session I know nothing about bags, but I know Collie generally has a broken problem. 13:22.063 --> 13:25.828 [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, the book and stay or did it get taken. 13:26.229 --> 13:30.354 [SPEAKER_00]: It's stayed in my editor and nobody, nobody else said anything else. 13:30.374 --> 13:31.736 [SPEAKER_00]: So I let it stay. 13:31.876 --> 13:32.717 [SPEAKER_00]: I I 13:32.967 --> 13:39.396 [SPEAKER_00]: I mean, maybe it's one of those things like we have to suspend a little belief and fiction, but also she's a multi-million dollar company and her husband does too. 13:39.416 --> 13:41.338 [SPEAKER_00]: So I was like, I think this is reasonable. 13:41.979 --> 13:53.014 [SPEAKER_00]: But anyway, yeah, I didn't actually have time to implement any feedback because within a couple weeks of the podcast being aired, I landed the agent that I have now. 13:54.516 --> 14:00.544 [SPEAKER_00]: And it was such a relief and it felt, it just felt so good and so right. 14:00.929 --> 14:12.626 [SPEAKER_00]: And I knew I'd been there before and had those same feelings before, but you still have to trust that it was right because I still don't require those first two agents because like it all was leading me here. 14:13.127 --> 14:19.556 [SPEAKER_00]: So if you have a good feeling, get, I mean, or a bad feeling, I think in this industry, you just really have to trust that. 14:19.617 --> 14:21.700 [SPEAKER_00]: It's the main thing that you really have to go on. 14:22.561 --> 14:30.092 [SPEAKER_00]: And yeah, so we started working on some revisions to the story and 14:31.557 --> 14:35.703 [SPEAKER_00]: Then my agent told me that we were going to go out on submission in June. 14:35.803 --> 14:41.491 [SPEAKER_00]: She was aiming for, and I was like, because you know, like I said, I listened to all the podcast. 14:41.731 --> 14:48.320 [SPEAKER_00]: I, I, I read all the substags like I'm in all the forums, like, I know you don't go on submission in the summer. 14:48.360 --> 14:49.702 [SPEAKER_00]: This was going to be a disaster. 14:49.722 --> 14:51.945 [SPEAKER_00]: I was going to have another book die on submission. 14:51.985 --> 14:53.587 [SPEAKER_00]: But I was like, okay, she's my agent. 14:53.607 --> 14:54.689 [SPEAKER_00]: She knows what she's talking about. 14:54.709 --> 14:57.733 [SPEAKER_00]: She must feel good about it. 14:58.051 --> 14:59.153 [SPEAKER_00]: That's not my job, right? 14:59.173 --> 15:01.956 [SPEAKER_00]: That's her job, and I have to trust her through that. 15:02.818 --> 15:05.702 [SPEAKER_00]: So anyways, we go out on a Thursday in June. 15:07.224 --> 15:12.471 [SPEAKER_00]: And that Saturday night, I met my husband's work party. 15:12.671 --> 15:16.397 [SPEAKER_00]: Sorry, this is a little detour, but this is like one of my favorite parts of the story. 15:16.457 --> 15:21.083 [SPEAKER_00]: That Saturday night, my husband has a work party downtown. 15:21.344 --> 15:23.086 [SPEAKER_00]: We go, there's a terror reader there. 15:23.487 --> 15:25.189 [SPEAKER_00]: I've never had my cards read. 15:25.709 --> 15:27.591 [SPEAKER_00]: So I was like, okay, I'm gonna try this. 15:28.232 --> 15:32.757 [SPEAKER_00]: I go with a couple other women because my husband was not interested in having his cards read. 15:33.358 --> 15:36.641 [SPEAKER_00]: And I let the other ladies go first and they're getting their cards read. 15:36.701 --> 15:39.524 [SPEAKER_00]: And it all sounds very vague and ambiguous. 15:39.544 --> 15:43.969 [SPEAKER_00]: Like it could really like apply to anybody and I'm like, okay, maybe I won't do this. 15:44.069 --> 15:44.970 [SPEAKER_00]: But I end up doing it. 15:46.312 --> 15:50.016 [SPEAKER_00]: She starts flipping the cards over and she gasped. 15:50.036 --> 15:55.362 [SPEAKER_00]: And she hasn't gotten excited about anybody else's cards. 15:56.506 --> 16:03.457 [SPEAKER_00]: She's like, something big career-wise is in the cards for you very soon, very soon. 16:03.998 --> 16:05.441 [SPEAKER_00]: And I was like, oh, okay, cool. 16:06.022 --> 16:07.003 [SPEAKER_00]: You know, I work at the Fed. 16:07.023 --> 16:08.666 [SPEAKER_00]: I'm like, what's going to happen at the Fed? 16:08.706 --> 16:09.988 [SPEAKER_00]: Nothing's going to happen at the Fed. 16:10.389 --> 16:18.362 [SPEAKER_00]: There obviously was a piece of me because when you're on submission, especially when you're like two or three days on submission, that's all you're thinking about. 16:18.848 --> 16:22.475 [SPEAKER_00]: So there was a piece of me that was like, oh, really, like, it has to be about the book. 16:22.875 --> 16:26.121 [SPEAKER_00]: But you know, I was trying to play it cool and I was like, oh, okay, nice. 16:26.762 --> 16:29.467 [SPEAKER_00]: And she's like, no, seriously. 16:29.768 --> 16:35.037 [SPEAKER_00]: She's like, something huge career-wise is coming for you in the next couple days. 16:35.498 --> 16:40.367 [SPEAKER_00]: And it's gonna be life-changing and you're gonna have to make a decision really, really fast. 16:40.988 --> 16:41.970 [SPEAKER_00]: She's like, get ready. 16:42.471 --> 16:43.453 [SPEAKER_00]: Buckle up, buttercup. 16:43.633 --> 16:44.455 [SPEAKER_00]: She really said that. 16:45.096 --> 16:49.064 [SPEAKER_00]: And she made me take, she didn't do this with anybody else. 16:49.104 --> 16:51.870 [SPEAKER_00]: She made me take a picture of my cards. 16:53.332 --> 16:55.116 [SPEAKER_00]: She's like, you're going to want to remember this. 16:56.665 --> 17:02.492 [SPEAKER_00]: The rest of the weekend, I was like, all buzzy because I was like, maybe there's something to it. 17:02.873 --> 17:06.877 [SPEAKER_00]: But you know, that huge piece of me that was like, no, no, no, like, come on, be rational. 17:07.278 --> 17:11.403 [SPEAKER_00]: It was, tried to temper my expectations because I'd been on submission before, right? 17:11.443 --> 17:16.489 [SPEAKER_00]: And I knew quick was, you know, it could be months. 17:16.509 --> 17:22.777 [SPEAKER_00]: Monday morning, my agent calls and says that Sarah Cannon from St. Martin's press wants to talk to you. 17:22.817 --> 17:24.799 [SPEAKER_00]: She read the book over the weekend and she loved it. 17:25.910 --> 17:27.092 [SPEAKER_00]: And I about died. 17:27.132 --> 17:30.517 [SPEAKER_00]: And the first thing I thought of was like the taro card readers. 17:30.618 --> 17:35.806 [SPEAKER_00]: And I was like, but my other thought was like, oh, it's finally happening. 17:36.227 --> 17:41.395 [SPEAKER_00]: Because I will say looking back like I always had this feeling from the time I was a little girl that this was going to happen. 17:41.435 --> 17:46.363 [SPEAKER_00]: And it's always been for me just a matter of when. 17:46.864 --> 17:49.909 [SPEAKER_00]: Like I was always so sure it was going to happen. 17:50.159 --> 18:00.091 [SPEAKER_00]: I don't know how to explain it and I didn't really realize that I always felt that way until it all started happening for real. 18:00.151 --> 18:05.959 [SPEAKER_00]: And then I was like, oh, you know what, this is that feeling I always knew was coming. 18:07.120 --> 18:12.246 [SPEAKER_00]: And yeah, I just, I knew it was going to happen, it was, it was really just, I didn't know when. 18:12.266 --> 18:16.892 [SPEAKER_00]: And so it was more of an impatience than anything this whole time, I think. 18:17.243 --> 18:19.306 [SPEAKER_02]: Well, a few things come back there. 18:19.326 --> 18:26.736 [SPEAKER_02]: So those of you who've been at previous deep dives, we've had Sarah Kenton be a speaker at our deep dive, so she's absolutely incredible. 18:26.776 --> 18:37.530 [SPEAKER_02]: So it's a dream, a dream editor to get to weirdly, it was also Tara Rita that got me to not give up on writing, and I never told the Tara Rita that I wrote. 18:38.011 --> 18:41.395 [SPEAKER_02]: And as I was actually leaving the table, the Tara Rita said to me, 18:41.375 --> 18:43.759 [SPEAKER_02]: you write and I said, well, I did. 18:43.899 --> 18:46.002 [SPEAKER_02]: And he said, you have to carry on. 18:46.123 --> 18:49.989 [SPEAKER_02]: There's a book about a little girl and you're going to get published with that book. 18:50.009 --> 18:53.254 [SPEAKER_02]: And that was my debut novel that I went on to write. 18:53.294 --> 18:54.777 [SPEAKER_02]: But that was very far in the future. 18:54.817 --> 18:57.200 [SPEAKER_02]: It was definitely not your year in good news soon. 18:57.902 --> 19:03.130 [SPEAKER_02]: Three, I know what are there are two questions that our listeners are wondering about now. 19:03.110 --> 19:08.559 [SPEAKER_02]: One, where is this terror being done so that they can go and visit? 19:08.579 --> 19:13.587 [SPEAKER_00]: So I did, I did take that picture and she did give me her card that night. 19:13.667 --> 19:16.251 [SPEAKER_00]: And since it happened just a couple days later, I still had her card. 19:16.592 --> 19:19.937 [SPEAKER_00]: I reached out to her on Instagram, I said, you are right. 19:19.917 --> 19:22.000 [SPEAKER_00]: And now we're actually friends. 19:22.680 --> 19:24.683 [SPEAKER_00]: And she actually helped me. 19:24.763 --> 19:28.367 [SPEAKER_00]: I was really struggling to book to a little bit a lot of it. 19:28.808 --> 19:33.954 [SPEAKER_00]: And that's a whole other story, but she gave me a reading during that time to kind of help center me again. 19:34.014 --> 19:35.997 [SPEAKER_00]: And that was amazing. 19:36.057 --> 19:42.585 [SPEAKER_00]: And then on my book launch party, I've invited her to come and she's agreed to give free terror readings to all my guests at my book launch party. 19:42.985 --> 19:46.870 [SPEAKER_00]: And so if you want her information, she does 19:47.035 --> 19:50.118 [SPEAKER_00]: she's tagged on a post on my Instagram page. 19:50.158 --> 19:53.242 [SPEAKER_00]: She'll see the terrible card reading from that actual night. 19:54.223 --> 19:57.466 [SPEAKER_02]: OK, so listeners, go and follow Marissa on Instagram post. 19:57.486 --> 20:00.850 [SPEAKER_02]: Find that link, get hold of that, that Tara reader. 20:01.270 --> 20:04.353 [SPEAKER_02]: And then, too, also, you can't sing two agents. 20:04.514 --> 20:10.280 [SPEAKER_02]: For that first book, was that junior agent and a senior agent working together, how did that work? 20:11.521 --> 20:13.363 [SPEAKER_00]: Kind of. 20:13.563 --> 20:16.908 [SPEAKER_00]: One of my agents, the one that I had queridium was most interested. 20:16.928 --> 20:20.513 [SPEAKER_00]: I don't know if her title was a junior agent, but she was a newer agent. 20:20.533 --> 20:28.545 [SPEAKER_00]: She had been in publishing for a long time as a magazine editor, but but she was new-ish to being an agent. 20:28.966 --> 20:32.972 [SPEAKER_00]: And I think maybe the genre might have been newer to her and she hadn't. 20:33.290 --> 20:36.254 [SPEAKER_00]: sold in my genre or sold much in my genre. 20:36.715 --> 20:55.821 [SPEAKER_00]: And so as she was reading and realizing that she liked my submission, she started having somebody else at her another more senior agent, yes, the agency read, which I understand is fairly common and they teamed up and they both wanted to represent me. 20:57.117 --> 20:57.979 [SPEAKER_02]: Okay, perfect. 20:57.999 --> 20:59.742 [SPEAKER_02]: So I just wanted to kill that out for our listeners. 20:59.762 --> 21:01.004 [SPEAKER_02]: Yes, and it is quite common. 21:01.605 --> 21:01.786 [SPEAKER_02]: Right. 21:01.846 --> 21:05.733 [SPEAKER_02]: We almost out of time, which is horrible because I have a whole list of questions. 21:05.773 --> 21:16.473 [SPEAKER_02]: We haven't gotten to but I'm going to ask two quick ones that are like you to tackle this is so assured for a debut that the line level writing is excellent. 21:16.493 --> 21:17.455 [SPEAKER_02]: It's exquisite. 21:17.435 --> 21:32.254 [SPEAKER_02]: And so, do you feel like this came from all of the books that came before that guide on submission and that's where you were flexing that muscle or is it a case of just revising this book over and over to get the line level two to that elevated point? 21:33.095 --> 21:37.763 [SPEAKER_00]: Yes, it's definitely my first book sounds nothing like this one. 21:37.823 --> 21:39.966 [SPEAKER_00]: It's not near as sophisticated or polished. 21:40.106 --> 21:43.732 [SPEAKER_00]: It's the line level reading is not as satisfying. 21:44.253 --> 21:48.620 [SPEAKER_00]: I'm so grateful and hindsight that nothing else had gotten published before this one. 21:48.781 --> 21:57.094 [SPEAKER_00]: I'm so proud of this one and I really feel like I needed all those other books to be able to write the way that I now can. 21:57.074 --> 22:02.145 [SPEAKER_00]: And who knows, maybe in 10 years I'll look back and be like, oh, how, geez, I wish I could go back and make good intentions again. 22:02.285 --> 22:03.895 [SPEAKER_00]: But for now, I'm really proud of it. 22:04.432 --> 22:05.794 [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, and you should be. 22:05.874 --> 22:15.186 [SPEAKER_02]: It's really, really an excellent assured debut besides the plot and the story and characterization, et cetera, like the line levels is just exquisite. 22:15.246 --> 22:17.349 [SPEAKER_02]: And you don't often see that with the debut. 22:17.369 --> 22:23.477 [SPEAKER_02]: So again, proving that nothing is wasted along the journey, no matter all the heart breaks, everything helps polish it up. 22:23.977 --> 22:29.865 [SPEAKER_02]: I wanted to discuss the hybrid sort of second person point to view that you used. 22:29.845 --> 22:35.295 [SPEAKER_02]: you know, so she is speaking to her sister, but it isn't entirely second person. 22:36.036 --> 22:37.338 [SPEAKER_02]: Is that how it began? 22:37.498 --> 22:39.582 [SPEAKER_02]: And that's the way it went through all the way through. 22:39.642 --> 22:46.214 [SPEAKER_02]: I remember Collean CC, I think saying, I hope this is hybrid second person and then getting to the name. 22:46.334 --> 22:50.301 [SPEAKER_02]: And I think CC then said, Oh, yes, it is and she was very excited about that. 22:50.787 --> 22:53.550 [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, yeah, so it is a very unique point of view. 22:53.570 --> 22:55.633 [SPEAKER_00]: I did not start out writing it that way. 22:56.373 --> 22:59.457 [SPEAKER_00]: I originally started writing it in first person. 23:00.638 --> 23:04.302 [SPEAKER_00]: And as I was writing it, I was struck by a couple things. 23:04.643 --> 23:10.990 [SPEAKER_00]: One is I had really wanted this to feel like a very intense, almost claustrophobic story. 23:11.030 --> 23:15.896 [SPEAKER_00]: Like, I wanted readers to feel like they wanted, like kind of like get away from this woman. 23:16.476 --> 23:20.541 [SPEAKER_00]: Like she made, you feel very uncomfortable 23:20.521 --> 23:31.746 [SPEAKER_00]: It wasn't coming through as strong as I want and I wasn't sure why, and I was also struck by this other thought of, you know, what you get to know, Katie, it kind of becomes unbelievable like she's. 23:32.097 --> 23:34.600 [SPEAKER_00]: Doesn't have a bot of self awareness in many ways. 23:35.260 --> 23:44.911 [SPEAKER_00]: So I've heard just like telling the story and admitting all of this to herself like I just don't really think she would have admitted all of the things in the story to herself. 23:45.352 --> 23:57.565 [SPEAKER_00]: I think she really needed somebody to open up to and Dana was gone, but Dana would have been that person out of anybody right and it was safe now to tell Dana because. 23:58.355 --> 23:59.117 [SPEAKER_00]: Dana was gone. 23:59.217 --> 24:01.563 [SPEAKER_00]: She couldn't say anything back or do anything about it. 24:02.124 --> 24:05.412 [SPEAKER_00]: So I was like, yes, she has to tell this story to Dana. 24:06.615 --> 24:06.775 [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah. 24:06.815 --> 24:09.040 [SPEAKER_00]: And so I started me writing it in second person. 24:09.141 --> 24:14.774 [SPEAKER_00]: And as I was doing it, I was like, oh, yes, this feels like you're in Katie's head. 24:14.814 --> 24:16.077 [SPEAKER_00]: Like, she's whispering 24:16.310 --> 24:19.396 [SPEAKER_00]: this dark, terrible story directly into your ear. 24:19.937 --> 24:20.899 [SPEAKER_00]: And that's what I wanted. 24:21.000 --> 24:24.407 [SPEAKER_00]: So from there on out, it was like, nobody's going to talk me out a second person here. 24:24.447 --> 24:27.373 [SPEAKER_00]: Even though it's a little, yeah. 24:27.393 --> 24:30.499 [SPEAKER_02]: No, it worked brilliantly here, because even though she has a therapist, right? 24:30.559 --> 24:32.884 [SPEAKER_02]: A lot of people aren't honest with their therapists. 24:32.864 --> 24:37.394 [SPEAKER_02]: especially when the therapist does not approve of what you're about to be doing, etc. 24:37.935 --> 24:48.619 [SPEAKER_02]: So a lot of stories have a therapist so that the character can unpack to them, but often a person is not going to be 100% honest with their therapist, in words with their sister who's just passed away. 24:48.979 --> 24:50.603 [SPEAKER_02]: Like you said, there's no reason 24:50.583 --> 24:52.045 [SPEAKER_02]: for her not to be honest with her. 24:52.445 --> 24:53.706 [SPEAKER_02]: So that worked really well. 24:54.087 --> 25:07.921 [SPEAKER_02]: So for our listeners who want to look at excellent line-level writing who want to explore the hybrid second person or who just really want to really good read, we're linking to good intentions on a bookshark or affiliate page. 25:08.241 --> 25:13.086 [SPEAKER_02]: If you get the book, you support an independent bookstore and the podcast at the same time. 25:13.467 --> 25:16.590 [SPEAKER_02]: Theresa, we wish you so much luck with this book. 25:16.570 --> 25:17.591 [SPEAKER_00]: Thank you so much! 25:17.671 --> 25:18.793 [SPEAKER_00]: I'm so glad to be on here. 25:18.813 --> 25:22.036 [SPEAKER_00]: It feels like a little bit of a full circle moment, especially with this book. 25:22.096 --> 25:28.924 [SPEAKER_00]: This was the first time anybody ever heard any of these words and now we're back here again. 25:29.765 --> 25:30.746 [SPEAKER_02]: I absolutely love it. 25:30.806 --> 25:35.111 [SPEAKER_02]: I love nothing more than celebrating our supporters who get published for me. 25:35.131 --> 25:37.774 [SPEAKER_02]: It's always an absolute thrill, so congratulations. 25:38.395 --> 25:39.456 [SPEAKER_02]: Thank you. 25:39.976 --> 25:40.697 [SPEAKER_02]: Hi everyone! 25:40.737 --> 25:52.491 [SPEAKER_02]: Today's guest is a former software engineer who writes steamy contemporary romance, English is a second language, and the use of the articles that is her kryptonite. 25:52.871 --> 25:59.158 [SPEAKER_02]: She loves an Atlanta with her husband, two kids, and two naughty cats, Harry Houdini, and Best. 25:59.178 --> 26:09.190 [SPEAKER_02]: Besides writing, she enjoys travelling and experimenting with cooking, and most of the time ends up eating the new meals herself because her family has a limit on how much they love her. 26:09.170 --> 26:14.501 [SPEAKER_02]: She is a member and volunteer at Georgia romance writers and the Atlanta writers club. 26:14.822 --> 26:17.408 [SPEAKER_02]: It's my pleasure to welcome Olivia Jackson. 26:17.608 --> 26:18.891 [SPEAKER_02]: Olivia, welcome to the show. 26:18.931 --> 26:21.677 [SPEAKER_01]: Hi, thank you so much for having me here. 26:21.697 --> 26:25.525 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm a huge fan and it's a huge honor to be here. 26:25.505 --> 26:27.168 [SPEAKER_02]: It's so lovely to have you here. 26:27.208 --> 26:37.324 [SPEAKER_02]: We love chatting to people who've listened to the podcast for a long time and what they've learnt along the way and it's especially wonderful to celebrate their books when they come out. 26:37.505 --> 26:48.863 [SPEAKER_02]: So take us through your publishing journey from your first book to now when your second book's about to come out and I really want to pick your brain about the lessons learned 26:48.843 --> 26:59.156 [SPEAKER_02]: by being a debut author because, yes, the thing, there's so much that we don't know until we publish, and then we having to trade water, figuring a lot of the stuff out is we go along. 26:59.737 --> 27:15.137 [SPEAKER_02]: And for authors out there who don't want to go through the same thing, hearing your experiences are going to be so incredibly helpful. 27:15.539 --> 27:29.899 [SPEAKER_01]: in 2017 and I made pretty much every single mistake the new writers make when they try to find the agent and I'm saying almost because I have not tried to pass the query letter to an agent through the stall in the bathroom. 27:30.780 --> 27:42.036 [SPEAKER_01]: So, but everything else I made those mistakes and as I was 27:42.269 --> 27:42.770 [SPEAKER_01]: partners. 27:43.771 --> 27:48.256 [SPEAKER_01]: Some of them have found through your better reader matchup and they're worth fantastic. 27:48.376 --> 27:58.949 [SPEAKER_01]: They brought my writing to the next level and I think that's how I was able to successfully find my agent. 28:00.391 --> 28:10.943 [SPEAKER_01]: And gosh once I found my agent she sent me a 11 pages long 28:11.412 --> 28:20.181 [SPEAKER_01]: of my novel, and I had a summer to rewrite it, and then we went on submission in October of 2023. 28:22.684 --> 28:26.748 [SPEAKER_01]: And in February of 2024, we had an offer through one-month chapter. 28:26.788 --> 28:30.171 [SPEAKER_01]: It's a Harpa Collins imprint in England. 28:31.973 --> 28:35.276 [SPEAKER_01]: And a year later, my first book came out. 28:35.777 --> 28:36.778 [SPEAKER_01]: It was in May, 28:37.450 --> 28:38.512 [SPEAKER_01]: second of 2025. 28:38.592 --> 28:41.676 [SPEAKER_01]: It was really big year for me. 28:41.696 --> 28:42.177 [SPEAKER_01]: I turned 45. 28:42.497 --> 28:50.409 [SPEAKER_01]: I had my first book come out and it was like nine months later my second book is coming out in February. 28:50.449 --> 28:56.198 [SPEAKER_01]: So it was very fast debut year in the February. 28:56.218 --> 29:02.507 [SPEAKER_01]: I am now longer going to debut author because I have a second book. 29:02.527 --> 29:04.690 [SPEAKER_01]: So that's in that show how it happened. 29:06.273 --> 29:08.139 [SPEAKER_01]: And the lessons. 29:08.400 --> 29:09.002 [SPEAKER_01]: Oh, good god. 29:09.303 --> 29:10.146 [SPEAKER_01]: How many lessons? 29:11.109 --> 29:12.775 [SPEAKER_01]: I don't think we have enough time to list them. 29:12.895 --> 29:17.751 [SPEAKER_01]: Oh, but I'll go over the main one as a debut author. 29:18.760 --> 29:42.272 [SPEAKER_01]: We all have expectation what it's going to be when the book comes out and we all dream of book signing and hitting the best seller list and this and that and my first mistake was I did not understand what digital first means and that's what one more chapter is. 29:42.532 --> 29:48.480 [SPEAKER_01]: It's a digital first 29:49.388 --> 29:53.352 [SPEAKER_01]: it was available in England but it was not available in that state. 29:54.313 --> 30:00.619 [SPEAKER_01]: So I was not able to do book signing events, nobody knew about my book here. 30:00.679 --> 30:18.737 [SPEAKER_01]: So my excitement crashed so hard and with it I crashed and it's nobody's fault is just basically me not exactly understanding what it means 30:18.953 --> 30:23.037 [SPEAKER_01]: expectations that no, you know, it's still going to be in the bookstores. 30:23.617 --> 30:28.442 [SPEAKER_02]: So when you say digital first does that mean that the first run of it is only on Kindle. 30:28.502 --> 30:34.167 [SPEAKER_02]: It's only available on Kindle or what what does that mean for our listeners who don't know what that means? 30:35.108 --> 30:47.340 [SPEAKER_01]: So yes, it first comes out as an ebook and audiobooks and then a week later in my case because for I think for 30:47.759 --> 30:53.527 [SPEAKER_01]: In my case, it came out as a ebook and audio book in the United States first. 30:54.589 --> 30:59.876 [SPEAKER_01]: But in England, it came out as paperbook, ebook, and audio book. 30:59.896 --> 31:16.399 [SPEAKER_01]: And then two months later, the indie book stores in the United States were able to order my book to put on their shelves. 31:17.122 --> 31:20.846 [SPEAKER_01]: you were able to order it online through print on demand. 31:22.507 --> 31:26.471 [SPEAKER_01]: So on an Amazon and on Barnes & Noble, you could order the book. 31:26.692 --> 31:39.945 [SPEAKER_01]: I made my trip to Barnes & Noble, and I talked to the booksellers, and they said they see it online, but they cannot order to put on a shelf, but readers can order it through online. 31:40.205 --> 31:42.147 [SPEAKER_01]: So I guess that's what it means. 31:42.167 --> 31:45.711 [SPEAKER_01]: It's just print on demand first, 31:46.096 --> 31:48.639 [SPEAKER_01]: it comes out as a paperback. 31:48.659 --> 31:53.686 [SPEAKER_01]: So, and it's a slightly similar situation with my second book. 31:53.726 --> 31:55.509 [SPEAKER_01]: It also comes out as a ebook first. 31:56.911 --> 32:04.140 [SPEAKER_01]: And then it comes out as a paperback, but this time around in United States, it's coming out everywhere. 32:04.421 --> 32:10.489 [SPEAKER_01]: And bunch of novels, they were put it on the shelves and indie book stores already pre-ordering them. 32:11.050 --> 32:13.833 [SPEAKER_01]: So, it's a slightly different situation. 32:14.254 --> 32:15.816 [SPEAKER_01]: Don't ask me why I don't know. 32:16.268 --> 32:16.749 [SPEAKER_02]: Oh, yeah. 32:16.769 --> 32:17.971 [SPEAKER_02]: I was about to go, why? 32:17.991 --> 32:18.572 [SPEAKER_02]: Because it's what? 32:18.632 --> 32:19.974 [SPEAKER_02]: It's the same publisher, right? 32:20.855 --> 32:21.135 [SPEAKER_02]: Yes. 32:21.536 --> 32:24.320 [SPEAKER_02]: Was it, was it, was it, did you sell it on a two book deal? 32:24.561 --> 32:25.783 [SPEAKER_02]: Like was it a two book deal? 32:26.664 --> 32:26.944 [SPEAKER_01]: Yes. 32:27.045 --> 32:33.775 [SPEAKER_01]: I was lucky to have already two book written and they similar, they're both action adventure, both treasure hunting books. 32:34.256 --> 32:37.180 [SPEAKER_01]: So my agent was able to sell them together. 32:38.071 --> 32:42.417 [SPEAKER_02]: perhaps it's because I mean digging Dr. Jones so that was your debut. 32:42.998 --> 33:06.829 [SPEAKER_02]: Perhaps those sales were so good that that set you up to show that it's worth printing them earlier because I mean they have quite digging Dr. Jones has got quite a lot of good reviews for a debut you know so you know I don't know if it was because of sales or whatever but also here's the thing is 33:06.809 --> 33:36.259 [SPEAKER_02]: I think something that gave you all those don't do because when they're so grateful to just have a book deal and to they don't want to rock the boat and I know I did this a lot I would get a cover I didn't like or whatever and I would be like I'm just going to keep quiet because I don't want to seem like I'm not grateful etc but communication is so important being able to have meetings with your editor with your marketing team with your publishers having your agent they aren't all these questions is so important and what I'm 33:36.239 --> 33:39.449 [SPEAKER_02]: Thinking here is that that's also something that you did. 33:39.469 --> 33:44.444 [SPEAKER_02]: You would just like, I'm going to be so grateful and I'm going to such a and be quiet and not be too demanding. 33:45.447 --> 33:46.570 [SPEAKER_01]: Yes, I. 33:46.904 --> 34:16.742 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, I did not want to bother my agent with too many questions because well, she's also very busy and here I am being like constantly bugging her with question what's going on and this and that so yes and also my book came out in the beginning of May and then we rode into summer and summer such a quiet time and publishing because everybody going on vacations that I I thought they 34:17.060 --> 34:35.457 [SPEAKER_01]: like they forgot about me, they didn't like me and I was like spiraling into this dark place of worry and at the same time I'm a part of a debut discord where people sharing their stories and of course I'm focusing only on 34:36.010 --> 35:03.553 [SPEAKER_01]: bad things that people are sharing scary stuff how their books failed like the first book is failed and their contracts got revoked or they're not getting a nice second cover for the second book and i'm just sitting there's like oh my god this is me that's it that's the end and then i think not only the view author i think is the any author but again i'm very new to this 35:04.040 --> 35:13.957 [SPEAKER_01]: I was comparing myself to other authors on social media, because I have to promote my book on social media. 35:13.977 --> 35:15.399 [SPEAKER_01]: So you can't really avoid it. 35:15.459 --> 35:18.685 [SPEAKER_01]: You can't not look at other things. 35:19.847 --> 35:28.461 [SPEAKER_01]: And social media, the best way I can compare it now that I understand it. 35:28.778 --> 35:56.727 [SPEAKER_01]: When I was young, I would look at the magazines of celebrities, and their airbrushed bodies and faces, and I'll say, oh my god, look at me, I'm like, oh, and not even thinking that this is partially kind of fake. 35:57.078 --> 36:03.886 [SPEAKER_01]: not actually all the hard hardache and broken hearts and tears that actually stands behind those happy moments. 36:05.268 --> 36:21.668 [SPEAKER_01]: But you know, you don't think about it, you don't stop your brain and say, wait a minute, this is this is great for this authors that they have signing events, the traveling, they have so many people coming to their book signing, 36:23.318 --> 36:42.336 [SPEAKER_01]: And then you talk to them and they say, well, actually, all those people came not for me, but the author next table, but it just kind of looks like they came over for me or they say, no, I actually paid for all my traveling and I did the hard work of connecting with booksellers and creating those events. 36:43.397 --> 36:50.524 [SPEAKER_01]: And yes, it's my tip here, that it's all great, but in reality, 36:51.483 --> 36:54.126 [SPEAKER_01]: Uh, I guess that's great. 36:55.448 --> 36:56.449 [SPEAKER_01]: Okay, I'm humbling here. 36:56.470 --> 36:58.692 [SPEAKER_02]: No, not at all. 36:58.753 --> 37:00.675 [SPEAKER_02]: That makes, that makes complete sense. 37:00.875 --> 37:08.966 [SPEAKER_02]: I mean, I know that, you know, for me, a lot of people looked at my lunch and they were like 400 people there and it was like, wow. 37:09.406 --> 37:14.453 [SPEAKER_02]: But again, I paid for that, helping myself, it cost me an absolute fortune. 37:14.433 --> 37:23.288 [SPEAKER_02]: And again, it was me reaching out to all the friends and inviting them to be a part of it and reaching out to the bookstagram community and reaching out to the podcast community. 37:23.308 --> 37:26.734 [SPEAKER_02]: So it's definitely not something that my publisher did for me at all. 37:26.754 --> 37:34.988 [SPEAKER_02]: And you know, for my first book I went on a book tour and my publisher paid for that for subsequent ones not. 37:35.088 --> 37:36.932 [SPEAKER_02]: If I did that, I had to do it myself. 37:37.312 --> 37:40.137 [SPEAKER_02]: And this time around as a Canadian, I had to say, 37:40.117 --> 37:48.324 [SPEAKER_02]: and I prepared to go to the US with the way things are they now, to travel in the US and I was like, no, I'm not prepared to do that right now. 37:48.524 --> 37:50.866 [SPEAKER_02]: And so that affected my sales in the US. 37:51.267 --> 38:01.776 [SPEAKER_02]: So there are so many considerations, you know, and like you say, you do look at other authors and you're going, oh my goodness, you are with my publisher and yet you are getting x, y and z. 38:02.196 --> 38:10.123 [SPEAKER_02]: But when you do speak to them about it, they will show the picture of them doing some signing table and you'll go, wow, that was amazing. 38:10.103 --> 38:16.852 [SPEAKER_02]: Showed up for the signing, or two people showed up for whatever, so it is so important to not be comparing yourself to others. 38:17.413 --> 38:26.164 [SPEAKER_02]: So Olivia, in terms of the questions you would have asked up front, because I think this is so important now for our listeners to kind of think of that. 38:26.585 --> 38:34.255 [SPEAKER_02]: If you had it to do over again, and the one, perhaps, should have, and I don't want to say demand because, 38:34.235 --> 38:38.059 [SPEAKER_02]: You know, it's a hell that I'm going to say demand because male writers demand things. 38:38.159 --> 38:41.743 [SPEAKER_02]: Female writers are like, oh, I'm so sorry to bug you and I'm so sorry. 38:42.063 --> 38:49.371 [SPEAKER_02]: But it should be like I want to have a group meeting, a Zoom meeting with my editor, with my publishers, with my marketing people. 38:49.671 --> 38:55.056 [SPEAKER_02]: And I really want to understand what's going to go on so that I can manage my expectations. 38:55.517 --> 38:59.381 [SPEAKER_02]: Like, if you'd had that meeting, what kind of questions now do you wish you'd asked? 38:59.421 --> 39:01.423 [SPEAKER_02]: They would have helped you down the line. 39:01.403 --> 39:04.667 [SPEAKER_02]: in terms of not having that kind of disappointment. 39:05.108 --> 39:06.610 [SPEAKER_01]: Well, I would have that meeting. 39:06.850 --> 39:08.272 [SPEAKER_01]: I didn't demand that meeting. 39:08.613 --> 39:17.024 [SPEAKER_01]: Now, I would have, and I would have asked him to spell it out in the planning list what to expect. 39:17.545 --> 39:31.343 [SPEAKER_01]: And hopefully I would have got those answers because they did explain, 39:32.285 --> 39:36.761 [SPEAKER_01]: And in the email, I didn't want to, well, can you please explain more? 39:36.821 --> 39:42.160 [SPEAKER_01]: Then, because then, I feel like, well, I probably an idiot who's supposed to know it, and I don't want to, and then it's like, 39:42.764 --> 39:44.066 [SPEAKER_01]: almost the work was the idiot. 39:44.526 --> 39:48.552 [SPEAKER_02]: So people do use like publishing contractions. 39:48.732 --> 40:05.616 [SPEAKER_02]: Any business has got like contractions, you know, they'll be an RNR and a P&F and a P&L or whatever and they used to use in those words and as a debut you like I have no idea what any of that means and I think it's completely 40:05.596 --> 40:07.299 [SPEAKER_02]: Acceptable to say, I'm so sorry. 40:07.359 --> 40:08.281 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't understand that. 40:08.301 --> 40:09.743 [SPEAKER_02]: Could you please explain it to me? 40:09.783 --> 40:11.165 [SPEAKER_02]: You know, this is my debut. 40:11.185 --> 40:12.628 [SPEAKER_02]: This is the first time I'm doing this. 40:13.149 --> 40:24.989 [SPEAKER_02]: And in order for me to be a big asset to you, as the publisher and a big asset to this book, I really need to understand where I can add value and how I'm going to do that. 40:26.130 --> 40:30.658 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, and like when they send the home marketing, 40:30.875 --> 40:31.756 [SPEAKER_01]: list and stuff. 40:31.776 --> 40:38.004 [SPEAKER_01]: This is where I learned the word POD and I had to google it because I didn't want to ask anybody what's POD means and it's print on demand. 40:38.965 --> 40:58.671 [SPEAKER_01]: So and it's just it's a fear of being that nuisance and annoying I guess author and since publishing is such a small world, everybody knows somehow everybody and then you know your word will, the word will get out that 40:58.887 --> 41:01.450 [SPEAKER_01]: age, there's no anything, and then she's like the men's a question. 41:01.530 --> 41:11.422 [SPEAKER_01]: So because if I was I guess the best seller, I had some muscle to flex. 41:12.102 --> 41:27.240 [SPEAKER_01]: I probably would ask questions, but as absolutely new person to this world and being a very, very small fish in a very big, big, big 41:27.693 --> 41:46.697 [SPEAKER_01]: very good in bugging people so but I also didn't bug her too much because I did not want to be too big of a pain in neck and so yeah so authors don't be afraid to be pain in the neck that's my advice 41:47.150 --> 41:59.288 [SPEAKER_02]: You know, I'm even going to take it further than that because I think the publishers want to work with authors who know the industry, who know what to expect from the industry, who know how to promote themselves, etc. 41:59.388 --> 42:05.057 [SPEAKER_02]: Like, I think with my last book, it served to me well that I, 42:05.037 --> 42:09.702 [SPEAKER_02]: work on this podcast and that I know how publishing works, et cetera, and that comes from experience. 42:10.162 --> 42:15.828 [SPEAKER_02]: But I think a publisher would always rather work with an author who is informed. 42:16.028 --> 42:21.133 [SPEAKER_02]: And the only way you can be informed besides asking other authors is to ask them. 42:21.373 --> 42:22.695 [SPEAKER_02]: And it's the way you do it. 42:22.755 --> 42:33.205 [SPEAKER_02]: Like, if you're going to email people every day, something snappy like, why don't I have ox or why don't I have this or why don't I have that or why does this author have this and I don't have it? 42:33.185 --> 42:35.730 [SPEAKER_02]: Then, of course, they're going to view you as difficult. 42:36.571 --> 42:40.639 [SPEAKER_02]: I also have done a little problem with women being viewed as difficult because me and you don't have a problem with that. 42:41.040 --> 42:42.402 [SPEAKER_02]: But there is a way to do it. 42:42.443 --> 42:50.177 [SPEAKER_02]: And I feel like if you put down a document with all of your questions and just ask them, please answer it for you. 42:50.338 --> 42:53.363 [SPEAKER_02]: And even if you do that once a month, that is not harassing them. 42:53.684 --> 42:55.868 [SPEAKER_02]: And it's showing how much time 42:55.848 --> 42:59.473 [SPEAKER_02]: how invested you are in the book, how much value you want to add. 43:00.013 --> 43:04.739 [SPEAKER_02]: So yeah, I think we need to move away from this mindset where, you know, I should be grateful. 43:04.839 --> 43:12.389 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't want to ask any questions and I don't want to bother anyone because at the end of the day you and your agent, it's a partnership. 43:12.409 --> 43:13.811 [SPEAKER_02]: It's a very important partnership. 43:13.831 --> 43:17.856 [SPEAKER_02]: It's like a marriage and no one's going to go, well, I'm not going to ask my 43:17.836 --> 43:36.184 [SPEAKER_02]: person who are married to for this or that because they're going to view me as a pain, you know, so you do need to view that as an equal relationship, and I certainly think that when it comes to an editor as well, you know, there's, there's a way to do it that is not going to make you come across as difficult. 43:36.204 --> 43:45.598 [SPEAKER_02]: So now with the second book, like, how are you going into the second book in a different mindset compared to the first. 43:46.979 --> 44:10.309 [SPEAKER_01]: my anxiety was spiring so hard that I haven't heard much for anything really from I was getting royalties so I knew that they still like I had a contact with my publisher but everybody were on vacations and they're in England and I think they have better vacations than we do here so anyway so can I say so one more time? 44:11.350 --> 44:14.995 [SPEAKER_01]: I received email with my second book 44:15.397 --> 44:34.367 [SPEAKER_01]: cover sketch and this is my second book and I cried because I loved it so much and I got such a huge relief that I probably still loved me because they still used the same awesome illustrator and maybe if 44:35.056 --> 44:41.404 [SPEAKER_01]: same week or a few days later, I received my manuscript with editorial notes and there was not that many of them. 44:42.625 --> 44:50.295 [SPEAKER_01]: So, I got back on a brighter side, or was I honest that paying attention to the nice stories that the author shared? 44:50.335 --> 44:54.040 [SPEAKER_01]: And I became happy. 44:54.921 --> 45:04.152 [SPEAKER_01]: I finished my edits and I also found 45:04.283 --> 45:14.721 [SPEAKER_01]: Barnes and Noble and the bookseller looked up my book because I was talking about them and about my book, the Hunter Stranger and she said, oh, we already have some on order. 45:15.863 --> 45:18.828 [SPEAKER_01]: I like, oh my god, that's fantastic. 45:20.150 --> 45:20.571 [SPEAKER_01]: And 45:21.378 --> 45:40.599 [SPEAKER_01]: I knew that since it will be available right away to the readers here in the bookstores, I start planning my book events because now I could have readers to come and actually have a book to sign for me. 45:41.720 --> 45:46.525 [SPEAKER_01]: And I feel like it was a book too, this actually feels like my debut book. 45:47.095 --> 45:49.898 [SPEAKER_01]: because it's going like it's supposed to go. 45:49.918 --> 45:53.743 [SPEAKER_01]: Or at least in my in my mind, I have a book tour. 45:54.064 --> 45:56.847 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm calling it book tour because I'm going to two different states. 45:57.187 --> 45:59.811 [SPEAKER_01]: Even the Georgian floated next to each other, but doesn't matter. 45:59.851 --> 46:04.036 [SPEAKER_01]: In my mind, this is my old song, it's a book tour. 46:04.096 --> 46:05.938 [SPEAKER_02]: That is a book tour. 46:05.958 --> 46:08.121 [SPEAKER_02]: I hope you can go to FoxTail bookstore. 46:08.221 --> 46:08.942 [SPEAKER_02]: Are you going there? 46:09.663 --> 46:11.685 [SPEAKER_01]: Yes, they actually, 46:12.222 --> 46:15.688 [SPEAKER_01]: having an early book release party on Valentine's Day. 46:15.989 --> 46:29.672 [SPEAKER_01]: They secured early copies with Harpa Collins and we're having this big party in my mind, big with Prosecutor and Nanakaholic Babos and Cookies and what's not. 46:30.093 --> 46:32.998 [SPEAKER_01]: And we're having a treasure bag 46:33.164 --> 46:37.510 [SPEAKER_01]: Ruffo was a bunch of beachy stuff for people to win who comes there. 46:37.550 --> 46:42.416 [SPEAKER_01]: So yes, they are my biggest fan and I'm very grateful for them. 46:42.456 --> 46:46.642 [SPEAKER_02]: Shout out to FoxTail, absolutely love them. 46:47.263 --> 46:48.064 [SPEAKER_02]: Love them, love them. 46:48.144 --> 46:52.830 [SPEAKER_02]: What day is your party so that any of our listeners who might be around can pop in? 46:52.931 --> 46:54.513 [SPEAKER_02]: Is an open party? 46:54.573 --> 46:59.239 [SPEAKER_02]: Is the closed party 46:59.911 --> 47:03.555 [SPEAKER_01]: February 14th, Valentine's Day at 2 o'clock. 47:04.195 --> 47:14.246 [SPEAKER_01]: So yeah, if you in Atlanta area and want to drive to the Fox Tales, which is in Woopstak, Georgia, please come by, enjoy some good food and Carly Walker. 47:14.406 --> 47:17.630 [SPEAKER_01]: She will be with me as a partner and conversation. 47:18.510 --> 47:20.773 [SPEAKER_01]: And it's it will be fun. 47:20.893 --> 47:24.737 [SPEAKER_01]: So yes, now I feel very excited about my book. 47:25.645 --> 47:29.049 [SPEAKER_01]: And everything, what happened was my first book. 47:29.830 --> 47:31.292 [SPEAKER_01]: I, it's all forgotten. 47:31.752 --> 47:32.854 [SPEAKER_01]: It's like, it still was all great. 47:32.934 --> 47:37.660 [SPEAKER_01]: It was still very good debut, what, nine months. 47:38.881 --> 47:40.423 [SPEAKER_01]: It's just, I think this is going to be better. 47:41.364 --> 47:54.420 [SPEAKER_01]: And I'm a little bit brave right now to talk to readers, because I had few book signings and with Digit at the John and other stores, 47:55.480 --> 48:20.526 [SPEAKER_01]: and I'm ready to meet more readers and yeah it's just it's feels different and I also now taking a publicity class so I can learn more how to do it myself because a lot of it's and it's not only my imprint you you can I don't know talk to an author from Berkeley a lot of publicity marketing 48:21.417 --> 48:23.088 [SPEAKER_01]: authors, shoulders. 48:24.034 --> 48:25.262 [SPEAKER_01]: So I'm learning. 48:25.342 --> 48:27.073 [SPEAKER_01]: I'm taking classes. 48:27.172 --> 48:55.002 [SPEAKER_01]: and anyone who's new or about to become a debut author, they can reach out to me and I will share any knowledge I have learned and I will advise I'll direct them on to websites, books, classes that helping me to become better writing the sense of not actually crafting, but managing a business of writing, or business of being an author. 48:55.707 --> 49:10.729 [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, because they're two very different things, you know, when you're sitting with your imaginary friends writing that's one thing that the business side of writing's different and I remember the thing that I still haven't actually got to accept about publishing because I am such a control freak. 49:10.709 --> 49:13.753 [SPEAKER_02]: is how much hurry up and wait there is. 49:14.334 --> 49:22.245 [SPEAKER_02]: Like you aren't here from your editor, anyone at your publisher for like eight months, and you kind of want to be, hello, do you remember me? 49:22.265 --> 49:34.202 [SPEAKER_02]: I saw the book to you, and then suddenly boom, you have a cover, and suddenly boom, there's the flat copy, and they need you to sign up on the flat copy, and then suddenly there's copy edits, and then suddenly there's developmental edits and you, 49:34.182 --> 50:00.848 [SPEAKER_02]: you know, and nobody like says to you, this is when it's coming through, you should get some idea of the workflow, they should be like, these are the dates that you're getting your developmental edits, these are the dates you get to copy at it because I like to sort of put it in my calendar, keep open this week because you can have to be working on this, but that doesn't happen, you busy working on a million other things and then suddenly your inbox full of 50:00.828 --> 50:30.025 [SPEAKER_01]: so that's a part of publishing that still drives me nuts and that I still cannot manage and I've just had to realize okay as a control freak just give up on it that stuff is just gonna happen but there's nothing you can do about yes agree it does happen like that when you don't hear from them for a long time I mean you can try to focus on your next book but then when you're getting a really good part of your new book that you're writing then you get that email that interrupts 50:30.477 --> 50:32.860 [SPEAKER_01]: Can you get us back in a week or in three days? 50:32.900 --> 50:39.307 [SPEAKER_01]: And since that other book is under the contract, you obligated to get back. 50:39.347 --> 50:47.576 [SPEAKER_01]: So yeah, you have to pause your great scene that you're writing and do other under the contract job. 50:47.716 --> 50:52.721 [SPEAKER_01]: But no, it's been, second book been great experience. 50:52.741 --> 50:58.948 [SPEAKER_01]: And I was going to show you, I was very nervous 50:59.232 --> 51:02.188 [SPEAKER_01]: In the fantasy treasure, they exchange. 51:02.843 --> 51:08.571 [SPEAKER_01]: notes on a paper because they're on deserted island so they couldn't use their cell phones. 51:09.272 --> 51:20.767 [SPEAKER_01]: And I had this idea that we would actually have images in the book and I hand-drawn the images, not hand-drawn them on a paper but on an iPad. 51:21.508 --> 51:26.334 [SPEAKER_02]: And I'm just going to say for our listeners who are listening to the podcast and not watching on YouTube. 51:26.735 --> 51:28.137 [SPEAKER_02]: Olivia is holding up the drawing. 51:28.177 --> 51:32.142 [SPEAKER_02]: Hold up again for our YouTube. 51:32.527 --> 51:33.268 [SPEAKER_02]: They go great. 51:34.008 --> 51:34.269 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah. 51:35.530 --> 51:44.919 [SPEAKER_01]: And I proposed to my editor, what if we will have an images throughout the book of the exchanges. 51:45.679 --> 51:54.588 [SPEAKER_01]: And I thought you're going to say no, because it's extra work for them to figure out the images and then put them in the book and the whole layout and she loved them. 51:55.609 --> 51:59.192 [SPEAKER_01]: And all those images in the books that people going to see 51:59.662 --> 52:02.825 [SPEAKER_01]: those are my drawings and my stuff. 52:02.845 --> 52:05.508 [SPEAKER_01]: So if you don't like my cats butt over here. 52:05.588 --> 52:06.349 [SPEAKER_01]: Sorry. 52:06.409 --> 52:07.791 [SPEAKER_02]: I love the cat butt. 52:07.811 --> 52:08.611 [SPEAKER_02]: Love the cat butt. 52:09.052 --> 52:11.514 [SPEAKER_02]: But again, like you don't know until you ask, right? 52:11.574 --> 52:14.097 [SPEAKER_02]: Until you say to them, this is what I'd like to see. 52:14.257 --> 52:15.118 [SPEAKER_02]: Are you able to do it? 52:15.178 --> 52:17.280 [SPEAKER_02]: Sometimes it's like no, it's too expensive. 52:17.661 --> 52:20.704 [SPEAKER_02]: We can't add that and sometimes they're like, yeah, I absolutely love that. 52:21.825 --> 52:28.352 [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, so this is like the most excited part of the book that I'm going to have my doodles there. 52:30.138 --> 52:31.000 [SPEAKER_02]: amazing. 52:31.541 --> 52:33.684 [SPEAKER_02]: Well, Olivia, we've come to the end of our time. 52:33.745 --> 52:51.657 [SPEAKER_02]: Thank you so much for being so candid and for being so open because, you know, the podcast is called The Shook No One tells you about writing and a lot of the times authors just be like, well, we're going to complain until we get an agent or until we get published and after that, we can't actually like tell the truth or we can't really 52:51.637 --> 52:53.600 [SPEAKER_02]: be transparent about things. 52:54.121 --> 53:01.634 [SPEAKER_02]: And I think it's so important to manage expectations and to know the mistakes other people have made to that you can avoid making those mistakes yourself. 53:01.654 --> 53:07.705 [SPEAKER_02]: And that's something that you are really helping around your future debut authors avoid, which is incredible. 53:07.685 --> 53:12.211 [SPEAKER_02]: So for our listeners, we are going to link to the book on our bookshop.org affiliate page. 53:12.672 --> 53:19.160 [SPEAKER_02]: If you buy the book there, you can support the podcast and you can support an independent bookstore at the same time. 53:19.241 --> 53:27.412 [SPEAKER_02]: And if you can come out to Olivia's launch party at Fox Tale, please be there to support Fox Tale and to support Olivia. 53:27.592 --> 53:29.254 [SPEAKER_02]: Thanks so much for joining us. 53:29.234 --> 53:30.378 [SPEAKER_02]: Thank you so much for having me. 53:30.900 --> 53:32.766 [SPEAKER_02]: And that's it for today's episode. 53:33.167 --> 53:34.913 [SPEAKER_02]: I hope you'll join us for next week's show. 53:34.953 --> 53:36.699 [SPEAKER_02]: In the meantime, keep at it. 53:37.000 --> 53:39.649 [SPEAKER_02]: Remember, it just takes one yes.