[SPEAKER_00]: Hello everyone and welcome back to Room For Us.
[SPEAKER_00]: A space where queer voices thrive.
[SPEAKER_00]: I'm your host P and every single week I like to sit down, get vulnerable, and talk about all things queer with all of you.
[SPEAKER_00]: And first off I want to say happy, new year to everyone, to all of the listeners, we're finally in 2026 and I feel like
[SPEAKER_00]: We've all been, well, I would say a majority of us have been looking forward to a fresh start and I'm excited to get into it on this episode.
[SPEAKER_00]: I did a little bit of research behind like the numerology of 2025 versus 2026 and why this year is actually going to be a really, really important one and one.
[SPEAKER_00]: full of growth and courage for all of us, and I dove into a little bit of numerology in a past episode because sometimes they feel like when we understand the numbers and their meanings behind like our own personal journeys with our birthdate but also what that could mean for your year.
[SPEAKER_00]: I think that can help put a lot of things into perspective and can also help ground you into manifesting the kind of year you really, really want.
[SPEAKER_00]: And you know, not just even the year, just manifest like future years, your future decade, like how you kind of want to paint your life and like the life you want to lead for yourself.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's all possible and sometimes when I know these things and like I've understood numerology a little bit more and I'm into astrology to all of these things can help me feel very, very Grounded and calm, but I wanted to start off this episode because I did take a week off for the holidays and I hope all of you had a really, really nice holiday as well It feels like it went by really, really fast, but it was a really beautiful and cozy winter break
[SPEAKER_00]: We went to a cabin just for a couple of nights to celebrate Christmas Eve and Christmas Day and It was actually in Langley, so from Vancouver that's about like an hour and 30 minutes away by driving.
[SPEAKER_00]: So not too far at all and there's some very cute
[SPEAKER_00]: wineries.
[SPEAKER_00]: We checked out.
[SPEAKER_00]: Crystal and I are really big wine people, so we love to go to wineries and sip and have a little short cutery.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's one of my favorite things to do especially in the summer, but this was nice to do for a little like winter break, just something different and to get out of the city.
[SPEAKER_00]: And the cabin we stayed in was
[SPEAKER_00]: adorable like super cute and cozy it kind of had like a farm like vibe to it especially the area outside of it was very very different when we were leaving you know what we're used to in Vancouver so I loved that change of scenery and the wineries we went to were Shabberton and backyard vineyards and or backyard vines I actually have to triple check in the name but um they were both really really good experiences and hopefully we'll make another trip out there
[SPEAKER_00]: want to know how all of you are feeling about the new year.
[SPEAKER_00]: I mean by the time like I'm posting this it's two days into the year we're very very fresh but I feel like we've all been waiting for some newness for a while and I've talked about this in a past episode where we are actually leaving behind the year of the snake and transitioning to the year of the horse and we're actually going to still be in the year of the snake for the first month.
[SPEAKER_00]: of January, so we're still in it now.
[SPEAKER_00]: I think the year of the horse officially kicks in February 17th or so, because a lot of us are still going through that shedding, that transition, like leaving old patterns behind, and it takes a while for that kick start, I guess.
[SPEAKER_00]: So you could also be feeling that energetically as well.
[SPEAKER_00]: Right now, you might be feeling like you want to relax.
[SPEAKER_00]: you want to continue working on yourself, like maybe doing those things that really help you feel crowded and I feel like I can relate to that a lot.
[SPEAKER_00]: I think there's so much when I look back at 2025 that I am so grateful for, like being in Vancouver for all of 2025, like that was the first time I've experienced that being in a completely new city that I'm not used to, like really starting that year.
[SPEAKER_00]: getting into more like a fitness routine, falling in love with like forms of running, and kind of just being required with myself in at the same time.
[SPEAKER_00]: Because when I was living in Toronto, I feel like there was just so much energy.
[SPEAKER_00]: Like it was a very like uplifting, like fun, like high energy kind of city.
[SPEAKER_00]: And I knew a lot of people in Toronto because
[SPEAKER_00]: I was always around that for all my 20s and then even growing up in wippy, which is not that far from Toronto, I always felt this comfort of having a lot of social energy around me, which I loved.
[SPEAKER_00]: But then when I moved to Vancouver, things did get quiet because when you move as an adult, you really really have to make those like conscious efforts to like go out and seek new connections.
[SPEAKER_00]: and that can feel really different.
[SPEAKER_00]: So I know like starting 2025 was a little bit more like, like a serene, peaceful kind of vibe, which I actually really, really enjoyed.
[SPEAKER_00]: And I felt like 2025 was such a reflective year for me and I do not mean to sound generic at all, but when I think of the year of the snake, that is exactly,
[SPEAKER_00]: what I kind of went through, especially towards like the later half of the year.
[SPEAKER_00]: And it's nothing bad.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's no resentment.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's no hard feelings.
[SPEAKER_00]: I just think I've discovered so much about myself as a person and the kind of energy I like to be around what I want to bring into the new year.
[SPEAKER_00]: Even how I want to show up as a person, there's a lot that's like really important to me, and I feel like This past year really helped me Discover all of that and it's not to say that all of it's been very easy Some of it's been pretty pretty tough and kind of heartbreaking at the same time, especially when you're navigating Certain changes and different dynamics and relationships and all that, but I think that's also a part of growing up and Knowing that it's necessary that sometimes
[SPEAKER_00]: drastic change isn't always a bad thing.
[SPEAKER_00]: I think it's meant to teach you a lesson.
[SPEAKER_00]: I truly, truly believe that.
[SPEAKER_00]: So, despite some of the changes that I've been going on in my life and what I mean through that, too, is like even career shifts, like friendship changes, all that.
[SPEAKER_00]: I think sometimes
[SPEAKER_00]: it all leads to something better.
[SPEAKER_00]: If that makes sense, like I feel like everything you go through is a step towards what is actually meant.
[SPEAKER_00]: I do believe that and it's not to say you can look back at past experiences and think like oh well why was I in this like field of work for so long?
[SPEAKER_00]: Why was I in this industry if it's not really what I want to do but then
[SPEAKER_00]: You look back later and you're like, well, all of that led me to this.
[SPEAKER_00]: Like, I gained certain skills from my past careers no matter what it was and it led me to this.
[SPEAKER_00]: Or even like certain friendship dynamics, even if you notice they start to change, like, maybe one of your oldest friends and you just like aren't that close anymore or you're noticing there's a distance and it sucks because you want to hold on to it so, so tight.
[SPEAKER_00]: But if you notice there's things that just like aren't aligning anymore,
[SPEAKER_00]: it doesn't mean that you have like this anger or resentment or hate.
[SPEAKER_00]: Sometimes it's more just like a I will always like care for this person and wish them well truly like for someone to be in your life for so long like that doesn't not count for anything of course right but
[SPEAKER_00]: Sometimes when you're trying to move forward and you want to be conscious of the energy you have around, it's important to realize that and keep moving forward.
[SPEAKER_00]: But never look back with like regret.
[SPEAKER_00]: I genuinely think like that's never healthy.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's just more like it's important to know when it's okay to start walking away.
[SPEAKER_00]: As we get into this year,
[SPEAKER_00]: I'm feeling really motivated, like I can't even explain what it is I feel inside but something about it makes me feel like I want to charge forward and just like dive into so many creative ventures and I really really want to challenge myself and push myself out of my comfort zone this year.
[SPEAKER_00]: So as I was thinking that because I was feeling such like a
[SPEAKER_00]: a poll especially over the last like few days of December like something kept hitting me every single day where I was like I need to do something different just for myself and even if it's like a new hobby or like spending less time on my phone you know what I mean like these are things that I'm gonna be really consciously doing for the new year just to improve like my mental health and my physical health.
[SPEAKER_00]: This is the commonality or like the common explanation for numerology
[SPEAKER_00]: A lot of people feel when it comes to 2026 because universally I've been seeing a lot of people get Really excited about the year of the horse and I could only imagine why because horses really represent Strength and courage and like fearlessness and going fast like that's what I think of when I think of a horse
[SPEAKER_00]: So, when I looked at numerology of 2025, the years are reduced to a single digit.
[SPEAKER_00]: So in 2025, you can see that the numerology digit for this is nine, and you do this by adding up the numbers, so we have two plus zero plus two plus five, so that's nine.
[SPEAKER_00]: And nine symbolizes completion, closure, endings.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's a year associated with wrapping things up, releasing, and finishing long cycles, and that really resonated with me.
[SPEAKER_00]: And as we're looking into 2026, this number is 1, 2 plus 0 plus 2 plus 6, which equals 10, and you always reduce a double digit to a single digit.
[SPEAKER_00]: So 1 plus 0 would then be 1.
[SPEAKER_00]: So 1 is
[SPEAKER_00]: the beginning, you know, it's the initiation.
[SPEAKER_00]: It shows leadership and fresh starts.
[SPEAKER_00]: And that is often described as the start of a new cycle.
[SPEAKER_00]: You might wonder, for a lot of people like, why does 2026 feel so special?
[SPEAKER_00]: What feel so special about like number one?
[SPEAKER_00]: It's because it's like a clean transition, everyone gets excited about the new year because it's a fresh start.
[SPEAKER_00]: People are looking into their resolutions, they're taking them very seriously.
[SPEAKER_00]: They clean up their space, they get everything organized, they feel motivated, it's something new.
[SPEAKER_00]: You're starting the new year on a new, you're starting off on a different level.
[SPEAKER_00]: You know what I mean?
[SPEAKER_00]: It gives you the chance to redefine something.
[SPEAKER_00]: And going from nine, which is the end of a cycle to one, which is the beginning, feels psychologically very powerful.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's like turning a page, like a whole page of a book, rather than just like taking a step forward.
[SPEAKER_00]: I would even go on to say it's like starting a new book.
[SPEAKER_00]: That's what it feels like because it's, you're literally saying goodbye to the end of a cycle and entering something new.
[SPEAKER_00]: Some systems like look at 2026 as a reset year, it's like following like so many things that we went through even in the past year, you know, with like economic shifts and then the pandemic that we've been dealing with since 2020 and even into 2021.
[SPEAKER_00]: A lot of people are putting hope into 2026 of it being that year that cut all of us like so happy.
[SPEAKER_00]: And I'm sure some of you have seen this trend on TikTok where people say nothing hit better than summer 2016.
[SPEAKER_00]: They didn't know what it was.
[SPEAKER_00]: It just felt like there was such good music.
[SPEAKER_00]: Things were light.
[SPEAKER_00]: What was happening in pop culture.
[SPEAKER_00]: People always say like we just want a summer like it was 2016.
[SPEAKER_00]: What that feeling was.
[SPEAKER_00]: And
[SPEAKER_00]: They're saying like that's what 2026 is going to feel like for us.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's going to be like the rebuilding or like the redefinition of a year.
[SPEAKER_00]: And in some Eastern calendars, I saw the 2026 aligns with themes of movement, momentum, and chance.
[SPEAKER_00]: So it's like a very symbolic feeling.
[SPEAKER_00]: The reality is it's not that like 2026 is more powerful than 2025, but it's because we're knowing that we're going to be transitioning into something new and starting the year off in like a number one feeling, like that leadership feeling from a numerology perspective.
[SPEAKER_00]: The endings to beginnings feeling, it's motivated and it gives people those markers to like justify any change, risk, or renewal.
[SPEAKER_00]: So I'm feeling very ready for something new and
[SPEAKER_00]: When we look at the 2025, as a 9-year, the symbol is completion and release.
[SPEAKER_00]: So the core meaning of 9 is the final number in the single digit cycle.
[SPEAKER_00]: So what this means is ending's enclosure.
[SPEAKER_00]: Letting go, harvesting lessons, emotional maturity, compassion, forgiveness, and acceptance.
[SPEAKER_00]: So think of 9 as the big exhale before the reset.
[SPEAKER_00]: What a nine year tends to bring is situations coming to a natural end, jobs, relationships, identities.
[SPEAKER_00]: It doesn't have to be something super dramatic.
[SPEAKER_00]: Like I said, a lot of people will feel like things are just naturally ending.
[SPEAKER_00]: Like there's a, if it's like a job, like you're kind of outgrowing it.
[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe you are naturally transitioning into something else.
[SPEAKER_00]: It doesn't have to
[SPEAKER_00]: a lot of people too will feel like the friendship dynamic shifting maybe you're just distancing from your friend you're not keeping up with each other anymore but you're noticing like both of you aren't really putting in that effort and then even in relationships.
[SPEAKER_00]: I feel like I've seen a bit of a common theme with like romantic relationships where 2025 was almost the year where maybe a lot of long-term relationships were coming to an end and
[SPEAKER_00]: Once again, it could be that closing of a cycle.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's a whole chapter coming to an end.
[SPEAKER_00]: 2025 was also a year that was very reflective and would have felt emotionally heavy.
[SPEAKER_00]: And I don't know, like, I don't know how I can even describe it, but sometimes when I talk to people, they're like, yeah, 2025 just felt heavy.
[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know what it was, and maybe that's because we're all like looking inward and going deep with ourselves.
[SPEAKER_00]: We're also revisiting some old themes and trying to resolve them, looking at the patterns that we've carried on year after year.
[SPEAKER_00]: really analyze ourselves, be like, are we really growing or are we repeating the same things that maybe aren't the happiest?
[SPEAKER_00]: And I think many of us feel that we want to change it.
[SPEAKER_00]: And that is why that comes in with like the symbolism of being in a nine cycle when you know something is ending, you don't want to take that same energy into the same year.
[SPEAKER_00]: Like that just feels completely wrong.
[SPEAKER_00]: The shadow side of nine is that they're
[SPEAKER_00]: is burnout.
[SPEAKER_00]: I mean, I think I was feeling that a lot to you in some of the career choices I was making just with like some of the freelance I was balancing to.
[SPEAKER_00]: I remember feeling like quite a bit of burnout.
[SPEAKER_00]: There's people who experience a lot of nostalgia.
[SPEAKER_00]: You might know something is not good for you, but there's such an nostalgic factor, so you hold on to something that's too long when it's already complete.
[SPEAKER_00]: And it's a very common feeling too to be feeling stuck between like
[SPEAKER_00]: So, numerology doesn't say that everything ends, it says, what no longer fits becomes obvious.
[SPEAKER_00]: I'd love that saying.
[SPEAKER_00]: And now, we're in the year of initiation and identity.
[SPEAKER_00]: So with this calculation, we always reduce the double digit.
[SPEAKER_00]: to a one, right?
[SPEAKER_00]: So in 2026, one represents birth independence leadership direction.
[SPEAKER_00]: So it's a rebooted cycle.
[SPEAKER_00]: We're going to be seeing new beginnings, self-definition, courage and initiative.
[SPEAKER_00]: Planning seeds with long-term impact and a lot of like, who am I now energy?
[SPEAKER_00]: 2025 asks, what must end in 2026 asks, what do I choose next?
[SPEAKER_00]: What a year one tends to bring is a lot of fresh opportunities, new roles or identities, increased focus on autonomy, and momentum after a slow or heavy period.
[SPEAKER_00]: So the other side of one, or sometimes we have to be careful, is that there could be some ego clashes, a fear of stepping forward alone, maybe a little bit of impatience because you want things to like start happening right away, and then maybe starting something without even finishing it.
[SPEAKER_00]: The key is like the transition between them and I would really challenge you all to pay attention to this, as you are entering the year of the horse in February.
[SPEAKER_00]: Remember, like the endings will lead to new beginnings, release becomes initiation, closure becomes direction, reflection becomes actually action, like taking action, don't just, don't just think about it for too long, like go for what you want and then the emotional processing of it all will eventually lead to something like identity building.
[SPEAKER_00]: I never looked into this before because like I know my life's path number when I looked into numerology when you calculate your month, your day and your year.
[SPEAKER_00]: But when you look into your core numbers for each year, it actually changes every single year.
[SPEAKER_00]: So 2026 is going to be different for all of us depending on what your personal year is.
[SPEAKER_00]: So I decided to calculate mine, because I was born September 28th, you always reduce the month and the day.
[SPEAKER_00]: Take September, which is 9 and then my day, which is 28, which becomes 10, which reduces to 1.
[SPEAKER_00]: So then you take 9 plus 1, equals 10, once again, reduces to 1.
[SPEAKER_00]: So my personal year, so my base year is always going to be 1.
[SPEAKER_00]: But then when you take that and you pair it with like 2025, I can see what my actual personal year for 2025 was, which makes sense, which is not going to match what it is globally for everybody.
[SPEAKER_00]: So my personal year 1 plus the personal year 9 of 2025 reduces to 1.
[SPEAKER_00]: So number 1 was a personal year for me in 2025.
[SPEAKER_00]: What this actually means is that while the world is in a
[SPEAKER_00]: I was already in a new personal cycle, an identity reset, quiet but powerful beginnings and laying foundations before others could catch up.
[SPEAKER_00]: It could feel strange because like some of the external circumstances could feel very slow, heavy or unresolved, but I'm feeling like there's going to be a really, really big change.
[SPEAKER_00]: What they say is like the classic personal year one in a universal nine-year experience is something like, I know something new is starting for me, but everything around me is kind of clearing out.
[SPEAKER_00]: My 2025 themes were redefining who I am, not just about what I do, starting something that won't fully bloom yet.
[SPEAKER_00]: acting on intuition before the proof appears and maybe feeling slightly out of sync with others.
[SPEAKER_00]: So this year for me was a lot about internal courage than visible results.
[SPEAKER_00]: So I pick like curious if the room for us listeners, if you want to see what your personal year was for 2025, take your month in your day and reduce that to a single digit, then take that with what year nine was for 2025.
[SPEAKER_00]: And if you want to do it for 2026, do the same thing when I take my personal year of one and add it to another one.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's two.
[SPEAKER_00]: So 2026 is a personal year too for me.
[SPEAKER_00]: What this means is that in 2025, my whole year was a lot of initiation and self-definition.
[SPEAKER_00]: There might have been a little bit more of like solo energy, independence, risk taking, who might be coming.
[SPEAKER_00]: When we get into personal year, too, for me, it's actually going to be a lot about alignment, partnership, and patience.
[SPEAKER_00]: So 2026 looks like it's going to be a year for me with creative endeavors, and it says relationships here.
[SPEAKER_00]: So that means romantic, creative, professional, and it's so funny, because something I've always talked about a lot was that I want to increase my creative network being in Vancouver.
[SPEAKER_00]: I know this city is so creative, it has such a good film, industry, and
[SPEAKER_00]: even like the entertainment industry is really going to Vancouver and I've always wanted to like challenge myself to be more involved in that scene and actually get out there and like be meeting people and networking with people even in the podcast space because I think post pandemic so many things have become so virtual we're all connecting online everything is over zoom.
[SPEAKER_00]: I don't have a lot of
[SPEAKER_00]: instances when I'm doing something very creative to be in person with other people.
[SPEAKER_00]: So it could be out of my comfort zone because it's been a few years since I've gone to things in person to do passion projects, but that's something I really, really want to try.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's also going to be a big year of emotional intelligence for me, collaboration and trusting timing instead of just like forcing outcomes to happen.
[SPEAKER_00]: So for me, 2025 was the year of planting and 2026 is the year of
[SPEAKER_00]: So year two energy often brings strong one-on-one connections, a deeper sensitivity, learning when to wait versus act, and support appearing at the right moment.
[SPEAKER_00]: 2026 may feel special for me because it means I'm not meant to push anything aggressively.
[SPEAKER_00]: Like, I'm not going to force outcomes to happen.
[SPEAKER_00]: I'm just calm and like waiting for a
[SPEAKER_00]: when you're somewhere new everything is kind of brand new you know like the people you're meeting the connections you're making like I'm very far from home in a way you know I'm across the country so it can feel very like at times twenty twenty five felt like a very solo vibe for me like I was meeting a lot of people I've made a lot of connections but it's still sometimes felt like a very solo journey I was on
[SPEAKER_00]: just trying to figure it out.
[SPEAKER_00]: So it's kind of cool that this year is technically meant to be more of like a relationship building one, which I'm really excited for.
[SPEAKER_00]: And it also tells me that emotional clarity is going to be more important than speed.
[SPEAKER_00]: And I can be a very impatient person sometimes, like I like to see results quickly.
[SPEAKER_00]: Sometimes when I work, I work very fast.
[SPEAKER_00]: I don't just stop and chill for a moment.
[SPEAKER_00]: And I think it's kind of good for me to take that as a lesson and
[SPEAKER_00]: And just like, remember doing things faster like speed isn't going to create better results.
[SPEAKER_00]: So this often can feel like things are moving, but not because I'm like trying to force a two.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's not like I'm not pushing it, but it's because I'm in the right place.
[SPEAKER_00]: And that's when a lot of creatives do tend to see a little bit more success in the work they do, because like it's the timing, right?
[SPEAKER_00]: The timing is aligned.
[SPEAKER_00]: It doesn't mean anything you worked on in the past wasn't meant for you or wasn't working.
[SPEAKER_00]: You're always building up those valuable skills.
[SPEAKER_00]: And that is something I'm really, really excited for as we're channeling this
[SPEAKER_00]: for the year of one, because we do know that 2026 globally, for everybody, 2026 as a year of new beginnings.
[SPEAKER_00]: But I wonder what it is for you, personally, and I would really encourage you to look into it.
[SPEAKER_00]: I mean, I just googled it to see what my personal year meant for 2026, and when I found that out, I was like, that kind of tracks, and I kind of could see how
[SPEAKER_00]: My year one, my new beginning kind of started in 2025, but I was kind of slowly planting the seeds, which I've kind of been doing all year.
[SPEAKER_00]: But when it comes to resolutions, because I also want to talk about that for this new year's episode, I want to be a lot more intentional.
[SPEAKER_00]: I would say about my resolutions, because how many of us start something and then we completely fall off.
[SPEAKER_00]: But sometimes I feel like that can happen because maybe you're comparing yourself or you're trying to make it seem like these are things I should be doing.
[SPEAKER_00]: But I had heard this on a J-Shutty podcast where the guests he had on was saying that a lot of people fail at keeping up with their new years resolutions because they don't have like the proper discipline.
[SPEAKER_00]: And when you start to learn that some discipline is actually really important and everybody needs to kind of have it to make the change.
[SPEAKER_00]: You will do that.
[SPEAKER_00]: I mean, you kind of can choose if you're going to be disciplined or not when it comes to certain routines, or I like to say the word rituals, you're trying to build.
[SPEAKER_00]: And I am starting to slow we do that and it's things that I find.
[SPEAKER_00]: much more attainable for me like I'm not trying to aim like super super high where it feels like such a chore.
[SPEAKER_00]: But I keep myself accountable and I give myself that discipline to make sure like I still reach like the type of goals I do have and for whether that is like I have the discipline to make sure I'm consistent with my podcast.
[SPEAKER_00]: I have the discipline to make sure
[SPEAKER_00]: a remote job and I could be sitting down for a majority of the day and I want to make sure I'm still staying active by moving my body because that not only helps me physically but it puts me in an instant like better mood.
[SPEAKER_00]: I've noticed that even just stepping outside getting a little bit of sunshine.
[SPEAKER_00]: My mood changes instantly.
[SPEAKER_00]: I'm a big coffee drinker.
[SPEAKER_00]: I love my coffee in the morning But I've been noticing when I drink coffee on an empty stomach I get really jittery throughout the day.
[SPEAKER_00]: I feel a little bit more irritated and it could also make me feel very bloated So what I've started to do is make sure when I wake up in the morning I just drink water and I even eat before I have my first cup of coffee like I'll just have whatever like breakfast and Once I have my coffee after that
[SPEAKER_00]: It's so much better and I'm not going to lie when I was so used to waking up and kind of making a coffee first thing.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's something I relied on, like I almost felt like, oh, I need that for my first morning meeting or I need that before I start doing anything.
[SPEAKER_00]: But really, I needed to hydrate is what I needed to do and I've even noticed like the bloating has gone down so much because, oh, my gosh, when I would feel bloated in the morning, I was like, this does just, you can clearly tell like,
[SPEAKER_00]: Something I'm doing is not right, so it's really helped me like reduce my stress and Kind of go into the day feeling a lot more energized So those are some of my Resolutions is like keeping up with trying to stay healthy as best as I can and definitely prioritize movement and I've talked about this like time and time again on the podcast, but spending less time on my phone and reading more
[SPEAKER_00]: Even like listening to music, but not just like music on my phone either, like putting on like a physical record.
[SPEAKER_00]: Like there's something about like holding a book or holding a record that can make you feel like, I don't know, just, I keep saying the word grounded, but that's just genuinely how I feel because I feel, we don't have a lot of those like tangible things anymore.
[SPEAKER_00]: I feel like we have access to so much stuff like on screens or on our phones, but there's
[SPEAKER_00]: something so special about like sitting down with like a cozy cup of tea and reading or even just sitting in your corner of your home and playing a record and just getting lost in that music listening to an album from front to back.
[SPEAKER_00]: Those are things I just want to like challenge myself to do a little bit more instead of resorting to social media or
[SPEAKER_00]: Being half distracted, just playing something on my Spotify playlist, you know, so yeah simple things not trying to like do it all at once, but a little bit here and there I think does go a long way and then you'll start to see
[SPEAKER_00]: some changes and I think the most important thing is a mindset shift.
[SPEAKER_00]: I think I've been working on that so much, especially with my feelings of OCD.
[SPEAKER_00]: I experience, I can experience some flare-ups a lot, but a one intention I have especially for the new year is to work on that and seek therapy, and
[SPEAKER_00]: talk about it and I've noticed the more I lean into the feeling of like these thoughts aren't real, what you're feeling is is your OCD.
[SPEAKER_00]: I've started to notice like a lot of calmness and my energy has even shifted.
[SPEAKER_00]: I'm not so like on edge all the time because I'm really taking like I'm really trying to prioritize my mental health and I
[SPEAKER_00]: Sometimes I wouldn't do that all the time in the past.
[SPEAKER_00]: I feel like there was a lot of distractions around me.
[SPEAKER_00]: I was really good at masking a lot of things, but then it would come at me even harder.
[SPEAKER_00]: And I would have like a breakdown over it.
[SPEAKER_00]: But yeah, I think every day is something different, but I'm kind of like working towards the steps that really makes sense.
[SPEAKER_00]: for me and I think what's going to bring in a really good 2026.
[SPEAKER_00]: I really, really hope so.
[SPEAKER_00]: I feel excited about this year.
[SPEAKER_00]: There's a lot of changes that I know we're going to have to happen for Crystal and I for sure, like especially as we're going to be getting to the to the like the later half of this year, but new exciting changes making a lot of
[SPEAKER_00]: big decisions on where we want to go and yeah I think building community continuing to meet others making more of that family time is also a huge priority for me in 2026.
[SPEAKER_00]: We're actually going to be traveling back home for a little bit for like a post holiday celebration because we didn't go in December but we're going to see a bunch of family very very soon and have that quality time
[SPEAKER_00]: I am so looking forward to I love time with family and I feel like when you're away from family like you don't live close to them you really appreciate the time you get together like that quality time is so valuable and I know that's something like
[SPEAKER_00]: I want to prioritize like a few times a year for sure, having those like quality time visits, spending some more time back home.
[SPEAKER_00]: I think it's always really needed for the soul.
[SPEAKER_00]: But I wanted to wish you all a happy new year.
[SPEAKER_00]: I was really excited to sit down and record this episode.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's the first episode of 2026 getting released on Jan 2nd, which is awesome.
[SPEAKER_00]: We're starting off the new year, like right away.
[SPEAKER_00]: And let me know what you're excited for this new year.
[SPEAKER_00]: What are some things you want to hear about more on the podcast?
[SPEAKER_00]: Which guests are you interested in me reaching out to to have on for an awesome conversation?
[SPEAKER_00]: Are there any queer topics?
[SPEAKER_00]: shows you want me to review any albums.
[SPEAKER_00]: I'm always open to new, like topic suggestions.
[SPEAKER_00]: Thank you everyone for being there for me in 2025 and listening to the podcast.
[SPEAKER_00]: It always makes me happy to see the listenership and how engaged you guys are in this community.
[SPEAKER_00]: And I'm really excited to see what
[SPEAKER_00]: for all of you, but if any of you do the numerology for 2026 with your personal year, let me know what it is.
[SPEAKER_00]: I'd be curious to see because as I mentioned all of our experiences are going to be different from the universal global one.
[SPEAKER_00]: So let me know.
[SPEAKER_00]: But on that note, I'm going to sign off now and probably make myself a T and have a cozy night, but I hope
[SPEAKER_00]: You're all having a great night or day whenever you're listening to this episode and I will see you all next week.