[SPEAKER_00]: Welcome to another episode of Confident Lee and Secure the Five Guests!
[SPEAKER_00]: Where we are absolutely sure we don't know.
[SPEAKER_00]: Everything, I am your host, Galty Dara, and guys!
[SPEAKER_00]: Turns out I've learned everything.
[SPEAKER_00]: I've figured it all after we've asked all the questions.
[SPEAKER_00]: This is gonna be a bit of a sad one.
[SPEAKER_00]: This is gonna be a bit of a hard one for me to do because as you can see by the title of this episode after six years,
[SPEAKER_00]: six years, 300 episodes, live shows, a spawn from podcast out Buzzfeed from meetups and merch and giveaways, and just like the most fun I've had on the internet, confidently insecure the podcast is coming to an end.
[SPEAKER_00]: This year.
[SPEAKER_00]: That's right, I have our time even saying it.
[SPEAKER_00]: I have a hard time even being like, it's over because originally I just was like telling myself, I'm gonna put it on a pause, I'm gonna put it on a hiatus, but I feel like that's so misleading because it's like going on a break in a relationship.
[SPEAKER_00]: Like if I had a plan to be like, okay, I'm going out town for this amount of time because I'm doing this in my life, for this project is taking it my time, and I'll be back then.
[SPEAKER_00]: But I feel like I'd be like a dad going out
[SPEAKER_00]: and never returning if I did that to you guys because the truth is maybe I'll miss it so much and I'll need to come back next month or buy this somewhere or hell I don't know next year but because in my mind I don't have a return by date
[SPEAKER_00]: I don't want to, I'm not a cop-tease.
[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, I'm not here to lead y'all on.
[SPEAKER_00]: I'm not here to make promises I can't keep.
[SPEAKER_00]: I'm not Trump, okay?
[SPEAKER_00]: I want nothing but the best for the coffee on, such as why I'm saying it for now, the podcast has come to an end.
[SPEAKER_00]: And again, it's still weird even saying that.
[SPEAKER_00]: I want to be like, no, it's not.
[SPEAKER_00]: No, it's not, but maybe who knows, maybe I'll even start like a once a month club, or maybe I'll take this on over to Patreon town like if people care enough to stay up to date.
[SPEAKER_00]: But here's the truth.
[SPEAKER_00]: Thank you guys have probably been able to feel it to in the episodes of just me like struggling a little bit to I mean six years is crazy to be doing this since 2019 and two years before that during adulthood at Buzzfeed.
[SPEAKER_00]: I feel like I've.
[SPEAKER_00]: talked so much about so many things.
[SPEAKER_00]: And, you know, I turned 35 this year and while I feel like that is a new chapter in its own right of life and doing things, hippos to be to a piece in the background.
[SPEAKER_00]: I also fear that like the way the internet moves is so fast, and content comes out so quickly, and
[SPEAKER_00]: The long-form podcast really isn't a thing for people that aren't major celebrities.
[SPEAKER_00]: Like these studies came out this year.
[SPEAKER_00]: These surveys that all these podcasts from me did.
[SPEAKER_00]: And it showed like how many celebrities have taken over the podcast space and how many are women are less than like 10% of the top 99% of podcasts or whatever.
[SPEAKER_00]: And I just...
[SPEAKER_00]: I feel like I'm running out of gas for like an industry that is a behemoth that has an independent creator and independent producer.
[SPEAKER_00]: I just can't match, like I can't keep up with, you know, we've done so much in our six years together though, like whole we shit.
[SPEAKER_00]: We have over three million downloads of this podcast, which is crazy to say for a podcast that's wild.
[SPEAKER_00]: We have interviewed.
[SPEAKER_00]: all across the board.
[SPEAKER_00]: I was just looking through back at old episodes.
[SPEAKER_00]: You know, we've had all of the most exciting guests from, you know, are you a topwear or a bottom from Eugene Lee Yang, my first guest in 2019.
[SPEAKER_00]: We had an adult shit reunion.
[SPEAKER_00]: I'll never forget doing my first episode with sex workers, which I remember being
[SPEAKER_00]: So scared to film that episode.
[SPEAKER_00]: I was so nervous.
[SPEAKER_00]: I made my ex scared to do it with me because I was just so nervous to interview them because I didn't want to say anything wrong.
[SPEAKER_00]: And that just goes to show like over the last six years how much I feel like I've grown as a creator.
[SPEAKER_00]: Even watching back like Marley's episode about the movie when I was interviewing her, I was watching the content.
[SPEAKER_00]: I was like, oh my god, I was so scared to say this or do that.
[SPEAKER_00]: person carries about things and not afraid to admit where she doesn't know it all and doesn't know when things are right and how to say the other thing and how to be politically correct.
[SPEAKER_00]: I have learned so freaking much, you know, we've had good friends of the pod, like Freddie Ransom, my girl, jazz, who launched host throughout history with me, which we
[SPEAKER_00]: women who had never had orgasms until they were 28 years old, doctors, neuropsychiatric doctors, curing anxiety.
[SPEAKER_00]: We've talked to CEOs of neurogum, my friend Ryan, who's now at a billionaire.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's crazy.
[SPEAKER_00]: Terry Warren, the godmother of discovering herpes testing, like, people have been
[SPEAKER_00]: These episode titles, and I'm like, wow, we have done so much, you know, episodes about autism awareness episodes about the pandemic.
[SPEAKER_00]: I remember when we surprised a bunch of nurses calling them and and getting them gift cards and things off their wish lists.
[SPEAKER_00]: The amount of episodes about my vagina are truly impressive.
[SPEAKER_00]: I mean, the titles speak for themselves if you go back and just look, but from election specials to trans rights episodes, addiction, I mean, holy ship, pelvic floor therapy, like just stuff that
[SPEAKER_00]: back then people just weren't talking about and I'm so proud of that and I'm so proud of the audience we've built.
[SPEAKER_00]: I'm so proud of the content we've made together.
[SPEAKER_00]: You guys being interested in the episodes and coming back we after week to listen.
[SPEAKER_00]: It has meant so, so, so much to me and has genuinely been like the longest career relationship with anything I've done in the 15 16 years that I've been doing this.
[SPEAKER_00]: Wow, that's crazy.
[SPEAKER_00]: That's like nearly half of the time
[SPEAKER_00]: Wow, it is half of the time I've been broadcasting.
[SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, and just with like, you know, guilty pleasures ended earlier this year, I finally finished my second book.
[SPEAKER_00]: I finally finished the movie.
[SPEAKER_00]: It came out.
[SPEAKER_00]: It did take a three week height, as after the movie, I got so sick last week, and then the premiere was happening.
[SPEAKER_00]: And by then, I was like, it's time.
[SPEAKER_00]: We got to just, we got to connect the one-on-one Monoimano, the confianzone me, like we just need to have this good old fashion chat.
[SPEAKER_00]: And it's weird because I feel like I'm cutting off a limb in a way, like I feel like I'm cutting off a piece of me that is connected to issue to the world.
[SPEAKER_00]: The athletes over there finishing her puzzle we've been doing for the holidays, which is a very hard puzzle, by the way.
[SPEAKER_00]: Um, but yeah, it's, it's been such a wild ride.
[SPEAKER_00]: Like, from having Zachary W. Towers.
[SPEAKER_00]: My bestie come on as a ghost.
[SPEAKER_00]: I was probably the most fun I had had.
[SPEAKER_00]: The most I've laughed on the podcast.
[SPEAKER_00]: It went from being an educational show to an absolute show back to us.
[SPEAKER_00]: Some of the educational vlog show.
[SPEAKER_00]: Like, I don't know what it's been, but I know when a good thing, we should quit while we're ahead.
[SPEAKER_00]: Quit while we're still in the green, so to speak.
[SPEAKER_00]: But yeah, I've truly genuinely enjoyed this so very much.
[SPEAKER_00]: And when I was looking at like the top episodes of all time from the pod, they were just making me laugh because, let me see if I can pull it pull them up all time.
[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, bonk, being bonk.
[SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, 3.4 million downloads, that's crazy.
[SPEAKER_00]: If anyone cares, most of you listen to this on Apple Podcasts from your phone.
[SPEAKER_00]: That's an iOS.
[SPEAKER_00]: What's a wearable?
[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know what a wearable is, but the second most popular device was a wearable.
[SPEAKER_00]: Anyway, the top episodes were the Tadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadad
[SPEAKER_00]: Oh, here we go.
[SPEAKER_00]: Okay.
[SPEAKER_00]: Funny enough, I didn't know this was going to be the top episode.
[SPEAKER_00]: I tried smoking THC again.
[SPEAKER_00]: It did not go well.
[SPEAKER_00]: That was me and my ex, talking about the time that I thought I couldn't maybe do it again just because I was in having so much chronic pain and turns out your girl still doesn't like pop.
[SPEAKER_00]: So we're going to
[SPEAKER_00]: We're going to stick with that theory.
[SPEAKER_00]: I don't need to retest it.
[SPEAKER_00]: We're good.
[SPEAKER_00]: I think I'm like 20 years out from retrying that again.
[SPEAKER_00]: This made me laugh the next biggest episode, which I'm not surprised at all.
[SPEAKER_00]: You big freaks.
[SPEAKER_00]: It's the big anal episode, which I had so much run.
[SPEAKER_00]: We had straight people.
[SPEAKER_00]: We had queer people.
[SPEAKER_00]: We had gay people.
[SPEAKER_00]: Talking about butt stuff, which brings me to my next top episode, which is Zach and Kelsey talk porn and butt holes.
[SPEAKER_00]: which is Zach Corn felt surprisingly enough.
[SPEAKER_00]: That wasn't as Zach no retowers up as though.
[SPEAKER_00]: Um, also losing your virginity, having the big O at age 28, one year sober and the shit they don't tell you how to trust yourself.
[SPEAKER_00]: Oh, this is funny.
[SPEAKER_00]: Accidentally leaking Zach's news on the internet.
[SPEAKER_00]: Zach Corn felt again, a host throughout history with Jasmine Robbins, the witch hosts who killed Nazis, night witches.
[SPEAKER_00]: That was such a fun episode.
[SPEAKER_00]: Micro dosing update and shaving my head.
[SPEAKER_00]: those were the top episodes from the pod, which, again, not surprise at all.
[SPEAKER_00]: But during, I would say like the great pandemic wave of people starting podcasts.
[SPEAKER_00]: Again, that was really when you see like a big dip over time of just people.
[SPEAKER_00]: Like totally understandably going and finding bigger and better podcasts and that's where like the dip started to happen and I wanted to keep this alive and I wanted to keep this a thing, but I think with what's coming up in the year ahead.
[SPEAKER_00]: With a new fresh year, I'm in Europe now.
[SPEAKER_00]: My life is like freshly started a new.
[SPEAKER_00]: I've got hippo with me.
[SPEAKER_00]: My kiddies are at my family's house.
[SPEAKER_00]: You know, I'm just starting these like big new adventures, which is so funny to be like, sort of starting fresh again at 35.
[SPEAKER_00]: I just wanted to,
[SPEAKER_00]: make new things.
[SPEAKER_00]: I wanted to make new stuff.
[SPEAKER_00]: I have a potential really cool new project next year, which I'm sure you guys are so sick of hearing me saying.
[SPEAKER_00]: I hope in the movie will sell.
[SPEAKER_00]: There's just a lot I want to do and I could feel myself not giving as much as I should to the podcast.
[SPEAKER_00]: And so you guys deserve better.
[SPEAKER_00]: You guys deserve better for me.
[SPEAKER_00]: You deserve better from your listening
[SPEAKER_00]: I don't, again, want to say that it's goodbye forever because I can't help but yeah, I'm a yapper and like, I don't know how else I'm supposed to get out my opinions, but I think I'm probably going to be posting on TikTok a lot more, so if you're not following me there, go have a follow.
[SPEAKER_00]: Um, uh, obviously Instagram, hippos Instagram, um,
[SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, it just feels like a really good way to clock out of the year, is with by saying, like, thank you to all of you.
[SPEAKER_00]: You guys have, like, changed my life with this podcast.
[SPEAKER_00]: Every time I meet one of you out in public or out of show or whatever, and you guys tell me about being listeners or, like, your favorite episodes or, like, you found Zach through this, and now you're going to watch his shows or, like, you found me from guilty pleasures.
[SPEAKER_00]: And now you're a fan here, like, if you've been here from day one,
[SPEAKER_00]: as a confidante.
[SPEAKER_00]: I fucking love you.
[SPEAKER_00]: I genuinely appreciate every second you allowed me into your earholes with all the crazy fucking shit that has happened and what all the things we've talked about, all the topics we've chatted about, all the things we may have disagreed or learned together through.
[SPEAKER_00]: I am so grateful that you've been here through it all and
[SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, I want nothing more than for you all to still stick with me on the journey of releasing the second book that's coming out in the new year and, you know, life in Europe and figuring out if I'm going to like stay here, live here, change my entire life.
[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know.
[SPEAKER_00]: But I wanted to make sure that we ended on a high with each other.
[SPEAKER_00]: So I love you guys.
[SPEAKER_00]: I appreciate everything you've ever done.
[SPEAKER_00]: All the messages I have gotten about how this podcast has helped you through something or that you've been able to send to somebody else.
[SPEAKER_00]: The fact that I've been able to go on here in cry and laugh and the angry until just the most ridiculous tales for my life is all things to you guys.
[SPEAKER_00]: And this wouldn't exist without you.
[SPEAKER_00]: So, with that, I don't even want to sign up.
[SPEAKER_00]: I don't even want this, and I don't know how it was the end of it.
[SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, it's been...
[SPEAKER_00]: It's been very meaningful to have a reason to show up every week and learn and educate with the guys that are being a podcast and teaching things and learning things and growing together.
[SPEAKER_00]: So on to the next adventure and I can't wait for you guys to see what comes next.
[SPEAKER_00]: So for the last time, if you may, please do me this honor of
[SPEAKER_00]: rating this podcast by stars.
[SPEAKER_00]: If you're not going to rate it five stars, please don't rate it at all because I am sensitive, speaking of sensitive, can still get your Alexa brochures at Friendly Tyler Falls website and Confidence.
[SPEAKER_00]: I will see you when I see you.